Peak 134: I am breathing down deeply and feeling lighter

Yesterday’s women’s workshop, Shake-Breathe-Live, was amazing. Here are my learnings and takeaways arising from my personal experiences of the practices:

  1. Learn how and when to say the Hard No: reconnect with that subtle, wise Yes/No intuition – because if not, as the TRE showed me, boundaries get breached and anger builds.
  2. Spend time with shamanic women: suddenly this feels crucial now. The stage of my life, and the world, calls for powerful women healers collectively getting their hearts and heads into alpha/theta brainwaves in natural environments… with fire. [One participant: ‘For the last 18 months I’ve been holding on to my magic like this...’ Stacks two shaking fists in front of her as though holding a rope for dear life. IKR?]
  3. Shake it out; exhale it outdaily, in any environment – just release it. (Non-exhale of acidic CO2 -> acidic, inflamed, hot system. Sound familiar?) NB. Qigong, swimming, walking are also good for this coherent breathing and shaking out tension. Breathe+ app. recommended for intentional breath work.

Grant me ferocity and peace in equal measure, oh my God.

Let’s read.

-71- It is well to know that you do not know. To think you know when you do not is sickness. When you are sick of sickness you will no longer be sick. True Persons are not sick because they are sick of sickness; this is the way to health. (The Tao Te Ching 71)

Heavens. Spot on – whether this is about physical or mental sickness. For me, things shifted in my mental health when I started to imagine the rest of my life under the kosh of depression and addiction, and decided, ‘No‘. So, how about physical health? Yesterday’s training day had some really good learning in it, didn’t it? Where next with this? How to hold on to the magic in me which heals myself?

*Goes off for an internet fiddle about… and ends up finding this*

Video’s Key Message: Breathe into the pelvic junk drawer

Difficult experiences and memories go into our ‘pelvic junk drawers‘ in the  lower belly – and therefore, many of us breathe only in our top chest so as not to have to touch those emotions. Intentional breathing clears out those emotions from our pelvic junk drawers (better than alcohol, drugs or food will ever do…). 

Reminder/News to self: the reason I’ve never enjoyed deep breathing exercises is that it is uncomfortable and unpleasant to go in and touch/feel/heal the emotions in the pelvic junk drawer! (Hence, I eventually found TRE which served the pelvic clearing purpose in another way…)

However, in dodging deep/intentional breathing (to dodge the feels) I also deprive myself of:

  1. clearing the emotional trash folder
  2. alkalising the body
  3. accessing alpha/theta states

Wow. As Lao Tzu says, ‘when you are sick of sickness (dodging the feels) you will no longer be sick (dodge the feels).’ It could be that my M in MEDS stands for ‘mindful breathing‘ as much as ‘mindfulness’…? The mindfulness alone can be a bit dissociative… My need is to get my mind deeply in to my body. Qigong achieves this too. I need to breathe. 

 

Video’s Key Message: Fill your torso 360 degrees

  • Sympathetic Overdrive/Dominance –> fight/flight state prefers inhalation to get oxygen going to muscles, vs exhalation which is for expelling toxins and is therefore not a priority when you’re being chased by a lion) –>  Shallow breathing –> Low Heart-rate Variability –> Chronic stress, poor health,  high toxicity, low vitality, low self-belief
  • Breathe with your nose and fill your torso 360 degrees – try these exercises:
    • 1 breath in; 3 out
    • Block on nostril and take 10 breaths; swap sides
    • Inhale one nostril; exhale the other (alternate nostril breathing)
    • Breathe for 3mins in each of these 360-degree torso-expansion children’s breathing poses:

Breathing poses

So, hi. Breathing into the pelvis, torso, lower dantian… I’m starting to get the message. What is your message for me today? 

Breathing in to the lower chakras assures your groundedness. As the frequency of the planet attunes, becoming especially grounded is your only real priority. You can sit about and think thoughts but your actual given task at this moment is to anchor yourself, anchor light, anchor the frequencies of peace, unity, love and light. It’s kind of like ‘busywork for souls’ in that the visible output is not apparently significant but the actual impact is phenomenal. 

Why not take it upon yourself to play with these breathing techniques – as it were, as part of your ‘busywork for the soul on Earth’? It may seem like it’s a trivial, or insignificant, or non-intellectual use of your attention… but that is truly only because you do not know the impact you are having on yourself and on the collective frequency when you clear the clutter out of the cosmic trash folder in your lower chakras. You are doing a service unto others. You wanted to learn about STO. Well on this occasion it’s about clearing out your stuff. Ok? 

What happens when I clear out the stuff?

When you clear out the stuff your own frequency shifts imperceptibly. You become lighter. Do you hear that? Lighter. More Light. 

Am I overweight because that’s the way I’ve chosen to ground for now?

Yes! You knew you had to anchor, so instead of getting lighter, you got heavier. The lightness you are invited to receive is not about weight, it’s about absorption of Light. 

Hence the qigong.

Precisely. Though you virtually refuse to do it. 

:-/

If you knew that your ONLY role on Earth at this moment was to do qigong, would that make a difference to you? 

It would if I believed it.

You would believe it if you could see what we see. We see you weeping as you undertake your qigong because you are going fearlessly into the darkest places within you, and clearing them all, and absorbing cosmic light. So yes, no wonder you dodge it. You are avoiding the emotional pain. It’s understandable. 

Ha… Sounds familiar. That’s why I don’t want to go to sleep at night too. Don’t want to be left with difficult emotions and thoughts.

Breathing – whether mindfully, intentionally or in qigong, swimming, walking or singing – is your passport to getting Lighter:

  • Less weighed down with a heavy, dark pelvic junk drawer
  • More filled with cosmic Light

I am breathing down deeply and feeling lighter

Peak 133: I am reaching into the alpha brainwave state

Description of alpha and beta brainwaves

Working with ‘relaxing into the receptive mode (alpha state flow)’ I looked up some guided breathing on YouTube and came across a TEDx talk by Max Strom called Breathe to Heal. He talks about how intentional breathwork leads to:

  • Focus increase
  • Calming of the ANS
  • Non-reactiveness
  • Qi regulation
  • Healing suppressed grief – which has been showing up as anxiety[!]

He recommends the 4-7-8 Breathing as taught by Andrew Weil:

I am learning so much about psychological wellbeing – and I do have the opportunity to teach what I am learning. Currently, I have been teaching or developing  courses in:

  • Workplace Wellbeing for marketing execs
  • Mental Health Awareness for frontline staff
  • Mental Health Conversations for HR and Managers
  • Suicide Prevention for staff at a homelessness charity
  • Emotional wellbeing for Primary School children
  • Supporting student wellbeing for parents
  • Supporting student wellbeing for educational staff
  • Student wellbeing for uni students (not my course)
  • Conflict management for children’s hospital staff (not my course)
  • Mental Health First Aid for adults (not my course)

And then there are the actual conflict resolution cases.

So you’re Teaching Peace, as per your year’s intention for 2019? [Reach Peace; Teach Peace]

Ha! Yes, I guess so. I’d been so hung up about it, like I’d have to wear white and teach ohming… Funny that.

But have I reached peace? I’m bloated with cortisol fat, and back to sleeping 5.5 hours… Am I walking my own talk?

You are on your way to doing so. It is clear that the learning is going in. As you develop true self-love and truer self-compassion, you will prioritise applying the learning to yourself more fully. 

Because I have been trying to give the time to this – dedicating my mornings to MEDS where possible. But man alive, my training work is so full on and so exhausting, and it quickly undoes all the good…

You are simplifying the training to your teaching about the brain. Very good. You are learning about the brain again. [Reading: The Inflamed Mind] Very good. You have the opportunity to work with your beautiful brain again. 

Today I am going on a course for women called Shake-Breathe-Live. I’m so happy. It involves a morning in a spa, followed by lunch then 2 hours of TRE and 2 hours of breath work. I will go back to retraining my autonomic nervous system and therefore calming my brain. It’s a whole system process, right? The AMOUNT of calming work I need to do to outweigh the stress and physical exhaustion of training is quite something!

It is not a large amount of calming work your ANS needs; it’s efficient calming work done with precision and ‘religious’ regularityYou can retrain your brain and ANS if you are prepared to steer it into the Alpha brainwave state daily. 

Ty. Ok. That’s extremely precise and clear. Maybe I need a neurofeedback device…

Maybe you do. 

Then I shall have a quick look:

  • https://www.independent.co.uk/extras/indybest/us/best-meditation-devices-at-home-mindfulness-relaxation-a9021426.html
  • https://www.optimallivingdynamics.com/blog/two-affordable-biofeedback-devices-that-will-help-you-focus-and-relax-muse-interaxon-heartmath-emwave

Basically, the Muse and HeartMath EmWave sound like good starting points.

Or you could go back to mediation class (MBCT). 

True…

Let’s read.

-70- My words are easy to understand and easy to put into practice. Yet no one under heaven understands them or puts them into practice. My words have an ancestor. My actions are governed. Because people do not understand this they do not understand me. Those who understand me are few. Those who follow me should be respected. Therefore, the True Person wears homespun clothes and carries jade [concealed underneath] in the heart. 

Here Lao Tzu talks of himself as a purveyor of the Tao, the Way. I recognise the concept of ‘wearing homespun clothes and carrying jade [concealed] in the heart.’ For me years ago, the definition of tragedy was losing my dignity or glamour or togetherness; yet I really longed for spiritual development. You can’t have both. I grieved as I apparently lost everything… but people started to change how they were towards me afterwards – in a good way. I myself changed upon finding myself in ‘homespun clothes’ (insolvent, unemployed and now living in a challenging neighbourhood, 2015). The difficulties became portals to new understanding and of fresh compassion: treasures of insight; hidden jade in the heart. 

Let me finally get quiet for a minute, and hear you today.

***3minBreathing+DrWeil’s478Breathing***

The 478 breathing does restore some balance. It’s also the hufflepuff breathing I tend to do as well!!! So I’d worked it out myself…

The invitation is to reach into the alpha brainwave state. 

Tell me more, dear heart of my soul.

When you settle into the alpha brainwave state (which btw you can’t do when looking at a screen), you replenish your mind, your heart and your ANS. This is your most direct way to settle, calm and restore yourself. 

Revision from yesterday from https://brainworksneurotherapy.com/what-are-brainwaves:

ALPHA WAVES (8 TO 12 HZ)

Alpha brainwaves occur during quietly flowing thoughts, but not quite meditation.

Alpha brainwaves are dominant during quietly flowing thoughts, and in some meditative states. Alpha is ‘the power of now’, being here, in the present. Alpha is the resting state for the brain. Alpha waves aid overall mental coordination, calmness, alertness, mind/body integration and learning.

BETA WAVES (12 TO 38 HZ)

Beta brainwaves are present in our normal waking state of consciousness.

Beta brainwaves dominate our normal waking state of consciousness when attention is directed towards cognitive tasks and the outside world. Beta is a ‘fast’ activity, present when we are alert, attentive, engaged in problem solving, judgment, decision making, or focused mental activity.

Beta brainwaves are further divided into three bands; Lo-Beta (Beta1, 12-15Hz) can be thought of as a ‘fast idle’, or musing. Beta (Beta2, 15-22Hz) is high engagement or actively figuring something out. Hi-Beta (Beta3, 22-38Hz) is highly complex thought, integrating new experiences, high anxiety, or excitement. Continual high frequency processing is not a very efficient way to run the brain, as it takes a tremendous amount of energy.

Description of alpha and beta brainwaves
Description of alpha and beta brainwaves via Brett Peters

This is what is meant by ‘Slow down, you move too fast; you gotta let the moment last…’

It’s about slowing the brainwaves??

And then the body, ANS and thinking follows…

I am aware my beautiful aspie brain is very… much like a Ferrari. Very sensitive accelerator pedal.

And you are learning to drive that brain just wonderfully. 

Ok. So… working with the alpha brainwave state. Calm – not fast, zippy, clever, showy-offy – but simple, steady… in ‘homespun clothes with jade in the heart’.

Yes. 

I am reaching into the alpha brainwave state