Pivot 143 / Presence 1: I am embarking on the Presence project (#TEWTAP for entering PMA)

Intro to the presence project

And now?

And now, quiet. Peace and quiet. In the stillness, wisdom is fomented, innate genius is tapped. Do you see? 

I believe I might. What would you have me know, do or say today?

You are invited to rest in present moment awareness. Is that satisfactory to you?

Ha! You know I’d rather do many things but that… Satisfaction, for me, is borne out of accomplishment, in time and space.

Could it be time (and space) to redefine satisfaction, for you? 

Yes… Yesterday, instead of writing here, or meditating or reading, I watched this beautiful documentary on earthing or grounding – feet on the ground:


Along with reading The Presence Process…

with its aspects of:

  • encounters with Presence
  • authentic beingness
  • the radiance of present moment awareness
  • consciously connected breathing
  • integrative healing
  • the shamanic paradigm

… I’m hearing it’s time to befriend Present Moment Awareness. We’re back to where we started looking for my Aspie Zen Zone..! Pivoting into… presence???

Welcome to the Presence Project. 

Seriously?! Did we finish the Pivot Project?? Did I even pivot??

Of course you did! It was a fundamental change in your nature! 

Well, if so, I can only really give thanks for the grace of lockdown which forced me to slow down and appreciate simplicity, rhythms, routines, nature, my body, health… The year 2020 has indeed been a pivot for humanity. Nothing less than a global pandemic would have allowed humanity to shift. I glean there are two interpretations to this shift.

One interpretation says, we have been made subjugated subjects of an elite led state which is gas-lighting the pants off us, entrancing us with arbitrary rules, and disempowering us with fear-mongering… Hellish.

The other, my favoured interpretation, says, we are sovereign and we have rested, and in that resting our sovereignty has been made manifest. Under the cover of a pandemic, forces of light and dark have waged war in an end of times show down that has cleared darkness from hidden corners, and introduced a new paradigm of light and love.  Heavenly.

Mostly, I feel, we are in the world we believe ourselves to be in, and I choose ‘heaven’.

Heaven is always here and now. And if you would allow yourself to walk through the doorway of present moment awareness more often, you would find that heaven became more of a Home than a fleeting haven.

In this, the Presence project, you are invited to experiment with techniques and practices for entering present moment awareness, or PMA. You will enjoy tracking them, playing with them, assessing them, and learning from them. You will enjoy this project very much. 

I am completely thrilled! Thank you! I love this. I am grateful for the journey we share, dear ‘internal Teacher’ [ACIM refs] of my Heart and Soul.

To experiment with techniques and practices for entering PMA’ is so tangible! So do-able!

Mnemonic: TEWTAP for entering PMA

I am embarking on the Presence project
(#TEWTAP for entering PMA)


PS. Just picked up The Presence Process and carried on where I’d left off a few days ago (pgxxviii). Look at the lines I immediately read:

‘Whenever the opportunity presented itself, I used myself as a laboratory for experimenting with activation of present moment awareness, and my subsequent experience became an arena for observing the effects of becoming present.’ Michael Brown 


_________Intro to the presence project

Pivot 142: I am embracing Peace of Mind

The ‘knowing of my heart’ is coming in slowly and quietly… Is it really the ‘prayers of my heart’ I need to be listening out for?

Yes. Exactly. The heart makes its own prayers, independently of the mind. Listen in; enquire. 

***The Next Day***

I spent yesterday (Day 6 of our staycation – a 7 mile walk) enquiring in to the prayers of my heart. This is what I heard…

  • planetary ascension (for us All – and yes I know… but honestly, the concept makes my heart leap, so I’m putting it down)
  • contact & communion (of my heart with Source… and the Unseen…)

This is where I can genuinely sense my heart yearning, or its ears pricking, or its ‘face’ smiling… Am I making any sense?

Yes. Now calm right down. Practise that conscious breathing. Soften. Forgive all passing thoughts and memories. ‘Focus inward with a calm, interiorised mind…’ Become soft. Listen.

Grand. You are learning, especially thanks to this holiday with the long walks, to be present to your own internal world. It really is a dopamine fast which you needed, in order to hear yourself as you truly are. You have had the habit of looking outwards to know what next to think. “What’s on the task list, what’s most urgent, what’s occurring, what’s in the calendar, what’s on my playlist, what’s going to stimulate me, what’s going to calm me..???” Sound familiar? 

Yes. And going at no-dopamine-boost pace has been a challenge. I’m hoping that I’m starting to get the benefits?

No news! 

Ok. I’ll delete the stupid news app.

Turn inwards. 

****40 mins later ***

I know you said to turn inwards, but somehow I just watched this whole video, with tears pouring down my face…

Bless me. Please.

Read, dear one. 


Man, I just read the last several chapters of ACIM’s Manual for Teachers. It is such a gift. A real summary and quickstart guide to ACIM.

Some favourite quotes:

M22.9 To forgive is to heal. 10 The teacher of God has taken accepting the Atonement for himself as his only function.

M-23.4. The name of Jesus Christ as such is but a symbol. 2 But it stands for love that is not of this world. 3 It is a symbol that is safely used as a replacement for the many names of all the gods to which you pray.

M-24.5.3 ..it would be a mistake for him to renounce the belief unless his internal Teacherso advised. [DODs <3]

M-24.6. The emphasis of this course always remains the same;—it is at this moment that complete salvation is offered you, and it is at this moment that you can accept it. 2 This is still your one responsibility. 3 Atonement might be equated with total escape from the past and total lack of interest in the future. 4 Heaven is here. 5 There is nowhere else. 6 Heaven is now. 7 There is no other time. 8 No teaching that does not lead to this is of concern to God’s teachers.

M-25.6. Any ability that anyone develops has the potentiality for good. 2 To this there is no exception. 

M-26.8 If God were reached directly in sustained awareness, the body would not be long maintained.

M-27.7. Teacher of God, your one assignment could be stated thus: Accept no compromise in which death plays a part. 2 Do not believe in cruelty, nor let attack conceal the truth from you. 

M-28.2. The resurrection is the denial of death, being the assertion of life. 2 Thus is all the thinking of the world reversed entirely. 3 Life is now recognized as salvation, and pain and misery of any kind perceived as hell. 4 Love is no longer feared, but gladly welcomed. 5 Idols have disappeared, and the remembrance of God shines unimpeded across the world. 6 Christ’s face is seen in every living thing, and nothing is held in darkness, apart from the light of forgiveness. 7 There is no sorrow still upon the earth. 8 The joy of Heaven has come upon it.

M-28.3. Here the curriculum ends. 2 From here on, no directions are needed. 3 Vision is wholly corrected and all mistakes undone. 4 Attack is meaningless and peace has come. 5 The goal of the curriculum has been achieved. 6 Thoughts turn to Heaven and away from hell. 7 All longings are satisfied, for what remains unanswered or incomplete? 8 The last illusion spreads across the world, forgiving all things and replacing all attack. 9 The whole reversal is accomplished. 10 Nothing is left to contradict the Word of God. 11 There is no opposition to the truth. 12 And now the truth can come at last. 13 How quickly will it come as it is asked to enter and envelop such a world!

M-28.4. All living hearts are tranquil with a stir of deep anticipation, for the time of everlasting things is now at hand. 2 There is no death. 3 The Son of God is free. 4 And in his freedom is the end of fear. 5 No hidden places now remain on earth to shelter sick illusions, dreams of fear and misperceptions of the universe. 6 All things are seen in light, and in the light their purpose is transformed and understood. 7 And we, God’s children, rise up from the dust and look upon our perfect sinlessness. 8 The song of Heaven sounds around the world, as it is lifted up and brought to truth.

M-29.6 The curriculum is highly individualized, and all aspects are under the Holy Spirit’s particular care and guidance. 7 Ask and He will answer. 8 The responsibility is His, and He alone is fit to assume it. 9 To do so is His function. 10 To refer the questions to Him is yours. [DoDs <3] 11 Would you want to be responsible for decisions about which you understand so little? 12 Be glad you have a Teacher Who cannot make a mistake. 13 His answers are always right. 14 Would you say that of yours? M-29.3. There is another advantage,—and a very important one,—in referring decisions to the Holy Spirit with increasing frequency. 2 Perhaps you have not thought of this aspect, but its centrality is obvious. 3 To follow the Holy Spirit’s guidance is to let yourself be absolved of guilt. 4 It is the essence of the Atonement. 5 It is the core of the curriculum.

M-29.5. Who assumes a power that he does not possess is deceiving himself. 2 Yet to accept the power given him by God is but to acknowledge his Creator and accept His gifts. 3 And His gifts have no limit. 4 To ask the Holy Spirit to decide for you is simply to accept your true inheritance. 5 Does this mean that you cannot say anything without consulting Him? 6 No, indeed! 7 That would hardly be practical, and it is the practical with which this course is most concerned. 8 If you have made it a habit to ask for help when and where you can, you can be confident that wisdom will be given you when you need it. 9 Prepare for this each morning, remember God when you can throughout the day, ask the Holy Spirit’s help when it is feasible to do so, and thank Him for His guidance at night. 10 And your confidence will be well founded indeed. [DODs]

And now, I’m instantly called to read The Presence Process by Michael Brown, on:

  • encounters with Presence
  • authentic beingness
  • the radiance of present moment awareness
  • consciously connected breathing
  • integrative healing
  • the shamanic paradigm

I’ve read the preface, and am so moved. It’s like a handbook for working with the ACIM teachings.! And for overcoming the dopamine twitching!!

This morning has been a roller coaster. Thank you! I have truly connected and communed! This really is living within this beautiful planetary ascension. Oh, your advice for today?

Recall: ‘thoughts turn to Heaven and away from hell’ 

I’ll use that ‘consciously connected breathing’ to turn my thoughts to Heaven today. It’s a rainy day. May I develop my present moment awareness within it. And, what should I work with, also?

Peace of mind. Let this CCB grant you Peace of Mind. In the here and now, all is truly peaceful! Use ‘peace of mind’ as an indicator that you are in the here and now of heaven. When your egoic mind fires up a fear fest, step it down. Do this all day, with consummate softness, and you will step lightly towards that precious Presence. Embrace Peace of Mind, no matter how your mind might scream. Embrace Peace of Mind. 

Thank you. Here and now is all there is, and when I rest my attention in the here and now, I can welcome that gentle peace of mind. Thank you. I will look towards mind-screams as indicators that I’m doing well!! Amen.

I am embracing Peace of Mind

Pivot 141: I am listening to the knowing of my Heart (#IamHeartWise)

Thank you for your wisdom last time. I have been leaning on it these last few days. Really, there is no greater boon than finding unity where it ‘appeared’ not to be. I am humbled by this work.

Let’s go in.

***ACIM-MT21 + 15minMed***

M-21.1. Strictly speaking, words play no part at all in healing. 2 The motivating factor is prayer, or asking. 3 What you ask for you receive. 4 But this refers to the prayer of the heart, not to the words you use in praying.

M-21.4. Is the teacher of God, then, to avoid the use of words in his teaching? 2 No, indeed! 3 There are many who must be reached through words, being as yet unable to hear in silence. 4 The teacher of God must, however, learn to use words in a new way. 5 Gradually, he learns how to let his words be chosen for him by ceasing to decide for himself what he will say. 6 This process is merely a special case of the lesson in the workbook that says, “I will step back and let Him lead the way.” 7 The teacher of God accepts the words which are offered him, and gives as he receives. 8 He does not control the direction of his speaking. 9 He listens and hears and speaks.

I want to say that I experience this in my work. I definitively practice in two ways:

  • one where I am leading, with my feet firmly on the ground;
  • and the other way where it’s as if I’m standing on a cliff edge leaning forward and a strong wind is holding me, preventing me from falling down.

The latter form is always filled with grace, and I really sense myself to be a ‘channel of God’s peace’. I only practice with the latter form if I prepare mentally and spiritually for it. The beautiful EOL doula I spoke to last week (GM) gave me the resonance that returned me to that place of … ‘stepping aside’, or ‘holding the door open for something greater to come through’. 

Leaning into the wind
Leaning into the wind

I am now on holiday, taking a couple of weeks break from work. How best shall I now absorb this learning and practice it in my days?

‘Prayer of the heart’

‘What you ask for you receive. But this refers to the prayer of the heart’

You have time and expansiveness to enquire into the ‘prayers of your heart’. As you walk and explore and spend time in nature, discern for yourself to prayers of your heart. You have worked so very, very well with your mind these past 7 months of ceaseless work. Allow these precious weeks to be a journey into the prayers, desires and wisdoms of your heart – especially before you embark on your third week. 

[I’ve got 2 weeks of ‘staycation’ with G, and then the third week, we’ll both go back to work but I will still be ‘on leave’ to all but 2 mediation clients, so I can work on the business.]

Tell me more, please.

It would be easy for you to take the mind-wise route forward in your business. We would urge you to discern and take the heart-wise route forward. 

Ooh, nice. What is heart-wise?

Return to the notions of ‘reality transurfing’ and ask yourself, ‘What is the wisdom of my heart on x matter, and y?’ As you would do here, and in your practice, lean into the wind, and let Source lead. 

So lean into the wind, take the heart-wise, route and let Source lead.

Or others might say ‘Listen to your heart’. It sounds like a blithe cliche… until you actually practise it. Maybe your mind would be more content with ‘listen to the prayers of your heart’ or ‘listen to the wisdom of your heart’ or even better, ‘listen to the knowing of your heart’. 

Yes. I like that. The quiet voice of knowing that is in my heart. It is too easy to make a decision without stopping to ask the wise heart. Like taking a life choice without consulting your Granny, because ‘she wouldn’t really understand’. When actually her wisdom might slow you down from charging head long in to a situation you wouldn’t need to suffer with, if only you took advice from the heart-wise one.

Beautiful. May my heart share its wisdom, its prayers, its knowing with me today, and every day.

I am listening to the knowing of my Heart (#IamHeartWise)


Pivot 140: I am listening for unity – for unity is all there is

Such a relief! Such a relief to start from the premise that each person is 100% perfect exactly as they are. It completely takes the fear out of having contact with people too! Why aren’t we taught this approach?

Schools? Schools teach children of their – and others’ – seeming imperfection. 

True indeed.

Today I am meeting parents of a child who is very unwell. I am meeting with them to help them agree about an end of life care plan for their beloved little one.

You are helping them find unity. 

Yes! That’s it. At the moment they are finding it hard to talk about the matter, and they disagree fundamentally on the topic of sustaining life.

Unity. You are inviting them to unity. 

That’s really so helpful. I spoke to a Muslim EOL doula colleague yesterday. Such a spiritually-guided and loving woman. She lifted my heart and reminded me that we can talk about the journey of the soul, the preciousness of the marriage between the parents, and that God has the ‘the love of 70 mothers’ for us and that the soul will experience that in fullness on it’s arrival from this earthly life. She also reminded that both parents are 100% right, exactly as they are – because they love their daughter.

Speak to me today, please of how I can best support these beautiful parents in this unthinkably tragic situation.

First, beloved soul, return to the word ‘tragic’ and rephrase it.

Difficult? Heart-breaking?

Better. There is no tragedy in life or in death, but there is the struggle of accepting and letting go – which can indeed feel difficult or heart-breaking. Know that the little girl is on her own path. Hold her at the centre. Ask: what would SHE want?

Golly, the same goes for the mother in the other case I’m working on. She has dementia, and doesn’t know that her children – who adore her – are in pain and disharmony around her care. It helps to think about asking, “What would she want?”


20. What Is the Peace of God?

M-20.3.3 God’s peace can never come where anger is, for anger must deny that peace exists. 4 Who sees anger as justified in any way or any circumstance proclaims that peace is meaningless, and must believe that it cannot exist. 5 In this condition, peace cannot be found. 6 Therefore, forgiveness is the necessary condition for finding the peace of God. 7 More than this, given forgiveness there must be peace.

M-20.6. What is the peace of God? 2 No more than this; the simple understanding that His Will is wholly without opposite. 3 There is no thought that contradicts His Will, yet can be true.


Thank you. Dear Inner Being – dear heart of my soul – dear voice of my wisdom… download into me your advice for my day…

It is not for us to tell you how to live your life, just as it not for you to tell others how to live theirs, or how to think, or how to believe. Do not go into this conversation today with a ‘belief’ or a ‘position’, God forbid. Nor should you go feeling that ‘success’ will involve persuading one person to see another way. Heaven forbid! Success will involve nothing more than greater unity between the couple. Unity – mutual understanding – mutual respect – tenderness – compassion – empathy… They both need better to understand each other. If you can help them hear each other as purely and cleanly as they might hear a pin dropping in forest, you will have had the ‘success’ you seek. 

Drop expectation at the door. Act as a servant of communication. Undertake to give of your best, and to love each one purely and without judgment. Hang on each person’s every word. Be the listener, and you will hear God’s voice through the mouths of these adoring parents. 

Listen for unity. You will find it, for Unity is the will of God, and God’s will is all there truly is. In truth, Unity is all there is, for Oneness is the nature of God, and that Oneness is expressed as Love – and reached via Forgiveness. Listen for forgiveness, and you will hear Love, and thus you will reach Oneness which is the manifestation on Unity. 

Beautiful. Thank you.

I am listening for unity – for unity is all there is






Pivot 139: I am seeing the perfection in each person

I’m not sure I was hugely swooning per se, but I did have some gorgeous times in nature – walking, gardening, qigonging… I noticed and remembered how, in nature:

  • there is no casting judgment – no good/bad – no shame or guilt
  • no overcomplicating – things are as simple as they can be, be that richly complex sometimes


Glossary: ‘magic thoughts’ in ACIM

Thoughts which claim that we can be saved by our own separate will, by certain special people, by various external things—by anything other than the miracle, the Will of God healing our minds. The teacher of God will encounter magic thoughts in his pupils and must learn how to react to them without anger. Found only in sections 17 and 18 in the Manual. See magic.

A Course in Miracles – Manual for Teachers – 17. How Do God’s Teachers Deal with Magic Thoughts?

M-17.1. This is a crucial question both for teacher and pupil. 2 If this issue is mishandled, the teacher of God has hurt himself and has also attacked his pupil. 3 This strengthens fear, and makes the magic seem quite real to both of them. 4 How to deal with magic thus becomes a major lesson for the teacher of God to master. 

A Course in Miracles – Manual for Teachers – 18. How Is Correction Made?

M-18.4. In order to heal, it thus becomes essential for the teacher of God to let all his own mistakes be corrected. 2 If he senses even the faintest hint of irritation in himself as he responds to anyone, let him instantly realize that he has made an interpretation that is not true. 3 Then let him turn within to his eternal Guide, and let Him judge what the response should be. 4 So is he healed, and in his healing is his pupil healed with him. 5 The sole responsibility of God’s teacher is to accept the Atonement for himself. 6 Atonement means correction, or the undoing of errors. 7 When this has been accomplished, the teacher of God becomes a miracle worker by definition. 8 His sins have been forgiven him, and he no longer condemns himself. 9 How can he then condemn anyone? 10 And who is there whom his forgiveness can fail to heal?

I see how I have got in the habit of allowing in ‘the faintest hint of irritation’, or outright judging people… essentially for their and my having ‘magic thoughts’! This has been a barrier to my development I can now see. The healing (ie. ceasing of condemnation ie. atonement ie perception of innocence of all beings including me) starts in my mind. May my perception arise to see only gentle innocence in all. As nature does. 

What is your message for me today, please?

Whenever you see an ‘error’ in your path, note that; correct your perception, and walk on. There are no errors in reality. All is at its perfect state of evolution. If, and we know that this is a big if, you can be at peace with ‘where people are’ then you really have something to offer them. If you cannot forgive them for being where they are, then know that you are hurting both them and yourself. Remember that phrase: Everyone Is Doing Their Best. This is not to be cast over or made ironic. Even if someone is much, much mistaken in their perception, they are doing their best, and frankly it is not your role to cast aspersions if they are not ‘level’ with you. Or if they are not responding to your prompts to ‘level up’. 

What if time is pressing for people to make a shift in their perception? What if it’s a life and death situation, as it is for one of my clients?

Each person has a set of lessons they wish to learn in this life. If the lesson you perceive they ‘need to learn’ is not in this lifetimes’ set, it may well be in the next. Leave them to it – and love them unconditionally in their seeming ‘error’. Seriously, can you bring unconditional love to each person you see? If you can, you can be of service. If their ‘slow development’ distresses you – or worse, if you perceive it might put you in a bad light professionally because you don’t manage to ‘correct’ them in time – then you are adding vinegar to their perfect pudding. You are often as much ‘client’ as they are. In fact, you can leave that word, and use ‘brother’ or ‘sister’ and you will be better placed to progress. If, if, if you can see the perfection of that person, without words or persuasion… If you can but witness their perfection… then in the realms of possibility, you will have opened wide the possibility of the person seeing their own perfection, of accepting their perfection, of accepting atonement as it is offered. Can you see the perfection in each person? 

Yes! I need to slow down, and attune to people, don’t I? And I need to weed out hints of criticism or judgment or other automatic knee-jerks (emphasis on jerk) about others in myself, sharpish! I need to hold them in perfection in my mind. I can. I will.

I am holding each person in perfection

I am seeing the perfection in each person


Pivot 138: I am swooning with nature

Thank you for that lesson yesterday. It gave me the wherewithal to pull out of a workshop I didn’t feel comfortable about. My bodily barometer felt heavy and negative about the prospect of attending (online) – so I heard the message. And, trusting that ‘holy are we’, I assumed that everyone else attending the workshop was there for their best interests, and that I didn’t need to ‘feel bad’ or get involved in judgment. As it was, my excusing myself two hours in advance seemingly precipitated two (of the other five) excusing themselves too.

I should add that what really finally made me decide to ditch the workshop was actually my 20yo daughter who looked me squarely and lovingly in the eyes and said, “There’s no point in taking part in something that’s going to perpetuate a false narrative of your worth. Mum, you’re better than that workshop.” These young beings… Oh, my wondrous daughters… You were right yesterday about Source evolving through us. These next generations are Human 2.0… They are born with new knowledge and such beautiful, immaculate qualities of compassion, justice and truth. They resonate with the phrase ‘Holy Are We’ so clearly.

Shall we go in?


Beautiful chapter; beautiful meditation.

A Course in Miracles – Manual for Teachers – 16. How Should the Teacher of God Spend His Day?

M-16.1. To the advanced teacher of God this question is meaningless. 2 There is no program, for the lessons change each day. 3 Yet the teacher of God is sure of but one thing; they do not change at random. 4 Seeing this and understanding that it is true, he rests content. 5 He will be told all that his role should be, this day and every day. 6 And those who share that role with him will find him, so they can learn the lessons for the day together. 7 Not one is absent whom he needs; not one is sent without a learning goal already set, and one which can be learned that very day. 8 For the advanced teacher of God, then, this question is superfluous. 9 It has been asked and answered, and he keeps in constant contact with the Answer. 10 He is set, and sees the road on which he walks stretch surely and smoothly before him.

It’s like these DoDs are me capturing my daily lesson. And look, this chapter even uses the phrase ‘quiet time’ which is the phrase I use for this time (MyQT):

M-16.4.7 Perhaps the one generalization that can be made is this; as soon as possible after waking take your quiet time, continuing a minute or two after you begin to find it difficult. 8 You may find that the difficulty will diminish and drop away. 9 If not, that is the time to stop. M-16.5. The same procedures should be followed at night. 2 Perhaps your quiet time should be fairly early in the evening, if it is not feasible for you to take it just before going to sleep. 

I like the concept of keeping ‘in constant contact with the Answer’. This chapter talks about ‘giving the day to God’ and there being ‘no substitution for the Will of God’. Can I ask? Here, can we see God and the Will of God to being akin to what Abraham calls the Inner Being. Or Source? How to re-translate this to our newer understandings of God?

Source is God, or Infinite Intelligence, or Source Energy, or Love’s Origin, or Creative Force. Your Inner Being is the part of you which is still resting in that original Source frequency. It is the part that ‘stayed behind’ when you came to the physical plane, and yet, because it therefore it is not bound by the rules of physicality, it also came with you! 

So aligning with your Inner Being is your fastest, purest, unique route to aligning with Source. The Will of God is simply ‘the path of least resistance’. So, yes, keeping in constant contact with your Inner Being (by finding what feels good and satisfying and relieving) is your best way of knowing what is ‘the Will of God’ for you in that holy instant. 

Lovely. Awesome. Beautiful. I heard Abraham talking about aligning with Source Energy and how it felt to her like what spiritualists call ‘swooning’. Can you tell me about my body – this high-tech barometer – and the physical sensations around raising one’s vibration to align with our Inner Being or with Source?

Sure thing. Relax! That’s it. Just relax a little. As you reduce resistance (aka effort) your cork floats. So chill out. Just take the foot off the accelerator. Float about. Day dream around a bit. Live in flow. Put a hippy skirt on and feel it float. Whenever you feel yourself pushing, forcing or achieverising, relax, flow, float. Take the pressure off. Might that feel like swooning? Fine! Good on ya’. For someone who has been running a marathon, standing still might feel like fainting. That’s fine. It won’t after a while. It’ll all feel normal. The same with you. Cease the push, adjust to the sensation of standing still, and ground your sweet self there. Like a tree. 

So, welcome the swoon?

Welcome the swoon of relaxation, and breathe it out, and dance it out, and lie on the grass and welcome the bright, brilliant vibration that nature lives in every day. Aligning with nature – which goes so slowly it will feel like swooning to you – is the fastest way to learn how to cease resistance. Go and garden. Learn to swoon from the flowers. Swoon with nature. 

Epic and beautiful. Thank you. I will do this lovely thing today. Swoon with nature. Love it.

I am swooning with nature


Pivot 137: I am re-minding myself: ‘Holy are we’


M-15.1.15  Holy are you, eternal, free and whole, at peace forever in the Heart of God. 12 Where is the world, and where is sorrow now?

Speak to me of this, please.

Each single soul, through and beyond life, is judged as ‘sinless’ by Infinite Intelligence. Sinlessness is the human condition, but the world would have it otherwise. The experience of life is the experience of dissolving the veils of consciousness to reveal the pure, sinless, perfection of each soul. This is indeed God meeting and knowing Itself. 

Is this what the Earth plane was created for?

Essentially so.


The Earth plane is a playground of evolving consciousness. It really is the cutting edge, or ‘leading edge’ as Abraham would say, of Source Energy revealing itself to itself. 

This internal evolution of Source is so interesting to me.

It would be even more interesting if you truly believed yourself to be a speck of Source revealing itself back to the original Self. 

Yes. I imagine that belief would be quite the rollercoaster…!!

… … …

Ok, so… Is my mind even capable of conceiving that belief though? Isn’t that the purpose of the mind? To exist with inbuilt obsolescence when it comes to actually seeing things as they truly are? Isn’t the mind designed to be the actual blinkers to our true knowing?

While the mind can not see beyond its own engineered parameters, the body is capable of sensing so much more. The mind is like a weather vane, picking up changing winds and spinning in reaction to passing breezes. But the body, on the other hand, is the most high tech barometer ever conceptualised, capable of sensing micro-vibrations, and forecasting future weather patterns, and constantly attuning to the actuality of the Now moment. 

The weather vane pivots, and the barometer auto-attunes…

The body is the Here/Now moment vehicle. That is why you came here in physical form, to experience Here/Now within the whirlpool of There/Then. What a richly vivid, satisfying experience. 

But you gotta not get entangled in the whirlpool of There/Then!

Sounds like fun, eh?! This is where the teachings of ACIM give you a helpful tip: do not believe the ‘judgments’ of the whirlpool of There/Then. You can consider those judgments as rocks proclaiming themselves to be buoyancy aids within the whirlpool of There/Then. Those judgments say, ‘You’re drowning! Grab one of us and we will stop you from sinking!’ In actual fact, a) you are not drowning, and b) those ‘judgements’ will weigh you right down. 

So the game of life is really about not engaging with the siren voices of judgment?

Any thought which sees you as imperfect is a siren voice. 

I know that ACIM expands on this… But help me out with a phrase I can work with here.

Say to yourself, ‘Holy am I, eternal, free and whole, at peace forever in the Heart of God.‘ Or even just, ‘Holy am I.’ Let these words flow through your mind on repeat, and see what happens to your barometer. 

Man alive. Ok. I hear you. I’ll work with this. I trust you, and ACIM.

Holy am I.

Holy am I.

Holy am I.

I am prepared to see what happens when I repeat this, with the intention of letting it in. May I find the fun in this! And not take it too seriously..! I do believe we are all holy creatures. I have gained real insight at periods of my life (mainly through ACIM) when I have ‘insisted’ on seeing the holiness of all beings – including those my mind would judge as wrong or bad.

Excellent, then let’s level this up. Say: ‘holy are we’. And let it apply to each being you see, meet and even think of. Re-mind yourself of the perfection of all beings. All beings are Source knowing itself in all aspects. All is forgiven. All is forgiven. All are holy upon this Earth. 

I am re-minding myself: ‘Holy are we’



Pivot 136: I am running with the fun of it

So of course the last couple of days have been a merry explosion of ‘invitations’ to attack thoughts…! It’s been interesting to watch myself slip and slide into expressing criticism of others… behind their back. Sometimes I’d see my spoken criticism about others as ‘letting off steam’… I think it’s still a poor use of my voice. Cannot I not let off steam with a bit of a walk or bike ride instead? Why do I need to levy my heavy complaints at my beloved housemates? They don’t need that in their day! There’s some vibrational housekeeping for me to do here!

All that said, most of the time, my complaints have been expelled and let go of quickly, and I have been in good spirits – super productive and less likely to follow the flibbertigibbets. I’m really pleased and grateful for this. I feel Abraham – listened to daily over lockdown! – is re-educating my spirit and mind. And body… as I literally feel the wellbeing in my body. Tysm Abraham.

Today. Let’s go in.


Oh wow…. ACIM-MT14 is exquisite! For me this chapter encapsulates the whole of ACIM sublimely. Just this quote alone is so rich in meaning to me…

M-14.2. Until forgiveness is complete, the world does have a purpose. 2 It becomes the home in which forgiveness is born, and where it grows and becomes stronger and more all-embracing. 3 Here is it nourished, for here it is needed.

I was reminded – thank you! – of how ‘forgiveness’ underpins my work! I am in the business of forgiveness. THAT is why I went into mediation – not ‘just’ because I wanted to give a voice to vulnerable people. I originally knew that mediation was about fostering, brokering, midwifing, birthing… forgiveness!

And in that moment of remembrance, like unleashing the next level in a game, I got a vision of the social media posts I’ve been trying to understand for my new initiative SoD. It’s about quotes! It’s about sayings! People – we – need new phrases, new scripts, new question formats in order to be able to speak deeply to one another.

In teaching mental health first aid this week, I told my participants, ‘the best thing you can do in this course is capture sentences/phrases/questions which you can use in your conversations with someone in crisis.’ It’s the same in the suicide prevention training I do, and the new bereavement training I gave yesterday. People need new phrases in their repertoire. And that is what I’ve been collecting all my life, I believe.

As an autistic person who can sense more than she can easily express, and who  conversely is hit hard by the dull thud of others’ insensitive speech, over time I have made a project of collecting ways of expressing what I want to say, truthfully and yet sensitively. I am by no means there. But I have a library of sayings… and an appetite for more. It’s what made my plays take off too… the sayings… especially verbatim from people I was working with… The scripts. That’s what we are talking about.


So, I’ve just started a new note book for SoD Sayings…. or Scripts? idk yet.

I’m running late and haven’t let you get a word in edgeways yet…

What a fantastically fun project you are unleashing here. We love it. Run with the fun of it! 

My SoD Sayings notebook? Thank you!! I will.

Today is indeed about FUN. Run with the fun of it. That is all for today! 

Gotcha! And hats off to my beloved Mum who knew this all along!

I am running with the fun of it




Pivot 135: I am pivoting from Attack Thoughts to Peace Thoughts

If you ‘focus in on what is wanted’ you are effectively focussing in on whatever gives you joy, bliss or satisfaction. Those things can pretty much only be experienced by being in the present moment, right? So learn better to live in the present moment?


M-13.7. Do not forget that sacrifice is total. 2 There are no half sacrifices. 3 You cannot give up Heaven partially. 4 You cannot be a little bit in hell. 5 The Word of God has no exceptions. 6 It is this that makes it holy and beyond the world. 7 It is its holiness that points to God. 8 It is its holiness that makes you safe. 9 It is denied if you attack any brother for anything. 10 For it is here the split with God occurs. 11 A split that is impossible. 12 A split that cannot happen. 13 Yet a split in which you surely will believe, because you have set up a situation that is impossible. 14 And in this situation the impossible can seem to happen. 15 It seems to happen at the “sacrifice” of truth.

Sorry to put this para in with no context… But I really want to pick up on something crucial, which was fundamental to my first reading of ACIM (2009-14). It is about thoughts of attack, or judgment, towards a.n.other. I recall now that they are effectively the destroyer of our inner peace.

I became judgmental in recent years. I found ways to criticise, complain about or hold people up for judgment or censure. How did I forget this one key facet of ACIM?!

Two extracts on ‘thoughts of attack’:

Workbook Lesson 22: What I see is a form of vengeance. W-pI.22.1. Today’s idea accurately describes the way anyone who holds attack thoughts in his mind must see the world. 2 Having projected his anger onto the world, he sees vengeance about to strike at him. 3 His own attack is thus perceived as self defense. 4 This becomes an increasingly vicious circle until he is willing to change how he sees. 5 Otherwise, thoughts of attack and counter-attack will preoccupy him and people his entire world. 6 What peace of mind is possible to him then?

Workbook Lesson 23: I can escape from the world I see by giving up attack thoughts. …W-pI.23.2. If the cause of the world you see is attack thoughts, you must learn that it is these thoughts which you do not want. 2 There is no point in lamenting the world. 3 There is no point in trying to change the world. 4 It is incapable of change because it is merely an effect. 5 But there is indeed a point in changing your thoughts about the world. 6 Here you are changing the cause. 7 The effect will change automatically. ….W-pI.23.6. Besides using it throughout the day as the need arises, five practice periods are required in applying today’s idea. 2 As you look about you, repeat the idea slowly to yourself first, and then close your eyes and devote about a minute to searching your mind for as many attack thoughts as occur to you. 3 As each one crosses your mind say: 4 I can escape from the world I see by giving up attack thoughts about _____. 5 Hold each attack thought in mind as you say this, and then dismiss that thought and go on to the next.

Please speak to me of Attack Thoughts.

We see you taken by this concept, and reminded of the power these lessons had on you in your earlier reading of ACIM. None of your learning is lost. You are building upon what has been learnt and practised already. 

Your interest today is to replace your Attack Thoughts with Peace Thoughts. Use the recognition of an Attack Thought to pivot towards a Peace Thought. Someone who you would Attack with your thoughts is definitively someone who would benefit from your Peace Thoughts. Is that not so? 

Absolutely! I can see clearly, the people I would utter judgmental comments about, or recoil from in my days, are those for whom a loving Peace Thought would go a long way…

Yesterday,  I did a Breathwork session. The 7 other people in the session began the session by describing their troubles and concerns. I watched the wonderful teacher, D., meeting each person where they were, and loving them right there. That love brought forward the person’s gentler and more positive and lighter self. They presented their pain; she loved them; they affirmed they felt less pain. That is the power of non-judgment.

And the non-judgment is a 360 degree device. As you attack another, you are attacked. As you love another, you are loved. As you attack yourself, you attack another. As you love yourself, you love another. 

I’m going to work with Attack Thoughts, and Judgment today. Just spot it and give it up, as in Workbook Lesson 23.

And Pivot? 

And Pivot to Peace Thoughts!

I am pivoting from Attack Thoughts to Peace Thoughts today


Pivot 134: I am focussing in on what is wanted 

‘Pendulum steady; pendulum ready.’ This is good. It slows me down and brings me into the moment. I believe with practice I am trusting it more, and remembering to call upon it more.

Show me Your Way today!

Let’s become pendulum steady and pendulum ready, then Your Way will become blissfully apparent by your resonating in alignment with it. 

Is Your/My Way what Abraham would call Being in the Vortex? The Way of my Inner Being?

The Way of your Inner Being, of your Vortex, of Source – these are all vibrationally aligned. Rise up, dear soul, and meet them. 

On the high-flying disc. Tuned in, tapped in, turned on… I’m pendulum ready for that.


M-12.4 Yet what makes God’s teachers is their recognition of the proper purpose of the body. 2 As they advance in their profession, they become more and more certain that the body’s function is but to let God’s Voice speak through it to human ears.

What is meant by God’s Voice? Is there another description?

Infinite Intelligence will suffice for the purposes of this conversation. 

So humans can be channels for Infinite Intelligence?

Why not? All humans came from Source, whether they recall that or not. So they are but speaking for themselves.

And what should we all do to connect ourselves with that Infinite Intelligence, with our Source?

Relax a little, play a little, get into the receptive mode. It really is not more than that. 

Esther makes herself… available? to Abraham. She certainly asks that she can hear/translate Abraham clearly… or something similar. Right?

Why confuse and confound and copy, when you can be as natural as a child and access the wisdom of all Universes? 

True. How to overcome our self-consciousness?

To become forgetful of self is simply to quieten the mind. The mind is the purveyor of self. The quietened mind allows the heart to come forward, and the intelligence of the Infinitude to become blissfully apparent. ‘Blissful’ is key here. For those of you wanting to ‘let God’s voice speak through’ you, know that bliss is the key component. You can only speak ‘for’ God if you are vibrationally aligned with joy, with wellbeing, with pure positive energy, for Source is only that. Anything less than that is a representation of human intelligence, which is good but not perfect. If it is perfection that you seek, know that, as Abraham says, ‘joy is the key’. 

And your advice for shimmying into bliss, joy, wellbeing, pure positive energy, Source alignment..?

You know there are endless tools and techniques. Use them and enjoy! It really is about working up the sense of possibility and opportunity until you feel you want to run forward with the action. Learn to do that. Use the Focus Wheel for each segment. Get deliberate. Get creative. Claim that joy in each moment by deliberately creating it. Your brilliant minds are made for focusing. If you do not focus them deliberately, they will focus upon and magnify and manifest whatever passing flibbertigibbet first grabs their attention. 

Excellent word! https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Flibbertigibbet

Note its provenance.

Yes, it was in the Castle of Perseverance, and King Lear…

It is too easy for the flighty thoughts to catch the attention, and hijack the self from its Source. 

So, it’s focus, not flibbertigibbets.

It is focus over flibbertigibbets. Focus on the wanted, the intended, the joyfully anticipated, the blissfully experienced…. and the yearning, gurning, tantalising flibbertigibbets will vanish. Certainty is the seasoning of your holy breakfast. 

Ah, yes. Napoleon Hill wrote about ‘uncertainty’… In his book Outwitting the Devil, written in 1938 and only released for publication by his family in 2011.

Topics discussed in Outwitting the Devil include:

    • The difference between drifters and non-drifters

    • Maintaining a definiteness of purpose

    • Finding one’s other self

    • Hill’s seven principles

    • The law of hypnotic rhythm


  • Focus = non-drifting.
  • Drifting = following flibbertigibbets.

I hear you. Ok. I am focussing. I am focussing in. I am focussing in on the wanted, on the purposeful, on the blissful, on the joyous. I am focussing my brilliant beautiful mind, so it works for me, for Source, for its Original Purpose.


I am focussing in on what is wanted