Yes! It’s good to be lending one’s attention to the positive THCs with the Human Glee List! Too often the mind is geared by default to watching out for the neggy non-vibe threat mongers.
Then I think. I’m nearly 50… What’s up…? Am I terribly immature?
And then I bring love back to myself, and care…
And then I remember why any, any of us may be urgently in need of consolation, reassurance… at the level of the inner children up and outwards..
https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-55814751
Good lord, the sorrows of the world, of this country… It’s inexplicable… It’s present to my heart every day. No wonder I, we, are seeking connection of the heart. To comfort each other. To reassure each other. Months and months (10 months to be precise) without (normal) social connection… aware of inestimable grief and suffering ‘somewhere out there’ (if we are lucky enough to be protected) on the frontlines.
Certainly, I haven’t had in-person contact with another soul but G (except for LV for an hour on her birthday and maybe one trip to the shops) since I dropped ASV at the station on the 3rd Jan, three weeks ago. And why is it we are staying home alone every day? Because of the inescapable fact that people are suffering, globally, at an unspeakable level. It’s truly way too much to handle psychologically.
And every day I’m hustling… massively over-booked with work in mental health and conflict. No wonder I need the fresh nourishment of true human connections. And I know them when I see them! They bring me EASE.
“I’m generating EASE in all I do!” I started to say to myself. I’m reframing all I do – especially after catching myself grumbling about being ‘over-booked’ on the family Zoom., where not all are lucky enough to be working at this time…
I say: “My work is EASEy” – and it really is. I just shuffle into some clothes and into the office, and read off my own training slides. It’s EASEy.
Ok. So. Your thoughts?
****Med…*****
Haha… So this came along… Ehem.. You only need the first 10 seconds or so…
(“Fuck bein’ good, I’m a bad bitch…”)
Over to You!
The fact of the matter is this – it’s a time of ACUTE discernment for you all:
- If you feel the EASE of a True Heart Connection – connect.
- If you feel the – yes, we’re going there – dis-ease of a Non-Heart Connection – disconnect.
But what about all those people…..?
Sayonara.
ARGH!!!! But I am a nice girl!!!
Fuck bein’ good…!
But I specialise in…!
Fawning?
https://www.healthline.com/health/mental-health/unlearn-fawn-response
Life is 300% easier without fawning. Look at G.
Hm… interesting…. I am nearly at burnout… Something’s got to shift… And I know I have big work to do – for myself… and when I go to do it, I stop bcs I worry about offending others (eg my freelance work commissioners) by sticking my neck out ‘for me’….
What would you cut if you cut the ‘deadwood’ (ouch, eh?!) of your fawnees (people you fawn to)?
A lot – a lot – of what is on my to-do list…
Would life be EASEier?
After the initial ‘cull’… :/ yes!
Good. Then this is the work at hand. To prioritise EASE at all times. As you swim between focussing on:
- the EASE of True Heart Connections, and
- the Fuck-Bein-Good of Disconnecting from the Fawnees
life will improve. And there will be more energy to do the work that is Yours (not Theirs). K?
CREATIVE IMPULSE: Next to the Human Glee List, write a Fawnee List – people YOU sense yourself FAWNING to, or being inclined to FAWN to. Note them and affirm, ‘FBGIABB’… [“Fuck bein’ good, I’m a bad bitch…”]
There is joyful mirth in our shock tactics here! We are being so rude in order to shake you out of your locked-in syndrome of fawning, which is an old trauma response you can ‘shitting’ well do without now.
Enjoy the EASE of non-fawning (FBGIABB)
Man… the distress of the ‘horrid man’s feedback comment’ or the waking up at 5 because someone (CM) has sent me 12 emails in the last 2 days….. and I really must reply!
FBGIABB is a much better response. I’m going to sleep better. That’s for sure. I’m going to PUSH BACK HARD against people that I don’t sense an actual THC with. I’m going to stop providing emotional louche for them!! I’m going to be HONEST if I sense they are manipulating me into ‘feeling bad’- how about that?!
Excellent. A reminder because it’s SO important…
It’s a time of ACUTE discernment for you all:
- If you feel the EASE of a True Heart Connection – connect.
- If you feel the (yep, we’re going there) ‘dis-EASE’ of a Non-Heart Connection – disconnect.
I am enjoy the EASE of non-fawning (Sayonara ‘Fawnee List’ – FBGIABB)
PLAY this song LOUDLY… and learn its wisdom….:
Girls in the Hood: https://music.youtube.com/watch?v=XeV4FeX0qyg&list=RDAMVMXeV4FeX0qyg
Fuck bein’ good, I’m a bad bitch (ah)
I’m sick of motherfuckers tryna tell me how to live (fuck y’all)
Wack hoes hate under my pictures on the ‘Gram (ugh)
Bitch, you better hope I never run across your man, uh
In the mall with him, I’ma have a ball with him (woah)
Somebody call Rihanna, I’ma buy some drawers with him
He fuckin’ with Thee Stallion ’cause he into wild women (he love wild women)
Put them legs on his head, now he love tall women (uh, yeah, ah)
You’ll never catch me callin’ these niggas daddy (nope)
I ain’t lyin’ ’bout my nut just to make a nigga happy (nigga, please)
Lifestyle when a nigga can’t fit a Magnum
It never happened if the dick wasn’t snappin’ (ayy)I’m a hot girl, I do hot shit (I do hot shit)
Spend his income on my outfit (on my outfit)
I don’t text quick ’cause I ain’t thirsty (I ain’t thirsty)
These bitches mad, mad, they wanna hurt me (ah, ah)
I’m a hot girl, I do hot shit (I do hot shit)
Spend his income on my outfit (on my outfit)
I don’t text quick ’cause I ain’t thirsty (I ain’t thirsty)
These bitches mad, mad, they wanna hurt me (ah, ah)Any rumor ’bout me, let me dead it (let me dead it)
I’m a open book and your man probably read it (ah)
Look at my AP and these hoes still pathetic (mmm)
Real bitches back when I check my Patek, yeah (woah)
Yeah, he call my Patty Cake ’cause the way that ass shake (ass shake)
I’ma make him eat me out while I’m watchin’ anime (anime)
Pussy like a Wild Fox, lookin’ for a Sasuke (ayy, yeah)
One night with him make him lose it like a prom date (ah)
Two watches, yeah, call me two-timin’ (two-timin’)
Skin like gold and my teeth like diamonds (like diamonds)
Hot Girl chain, Elliot got me shinin’ (yeah)
They tried to knock me off, but a bitch still grindin’I’m a hot girl, I do hot shit (I do hot shit)
Spend his income on my outfit (on my outfit)
I don’t text quick ’cause I ain’t thirsty (I ain’t thirsty)
These bitches mad, mad, they wanna hurt me (ah, ah)
I’m a hot girl, I do hot shit (I do hot shit)
Spend his income on my outfit (on my outfit)
I don’t text quick ’cause I ain’t thirsty (I ain’t thirsty)
These bitches mad, mad, they wanna hurt me (ah, ah)I’m a rich nigga magnet (yeah), pretty with a fatty (with a fatty)
Thirty-inch weave with the long eyelashes (long eyelashes)
Yes, I got a man if I don’t like who askin’ (boy, bye)
I don’t stand outside ’cause I’m too outstandin’ (ah)
‘Cause the girls in the hood are always hard
Ever since sixteen, I been havin’ a job
Knowin’ nothin’ in life, but I gotta get rich
You could check the throwback pics, I been that bitch (ah)I’m a hot girl, I do hot shit (I do hot shit)
Spend his income on my outfit (on my outfit)
I don’t text quick ’cause I ain’t thirsty (I ain’t thirsty)
These bitches mad, mad, they wanna hurt me (ah, ah)
I’m a hot girl, I do hot shit (I do hot shit)
Spend his income on my outfit (on my outfit)
I don’t text quick ’cause I ain’t thirsty (I ain’t thirsty)
These bitches mad, mad, they wanna hurt me (ah, ah)Source: LyricFind
- I did write a non-fawning, direct email to the one who’d been bombarding me with emails. It felt good to reestablish some boundaries.
- I did play the song on a LOOP. 🙂
- I made a list of Human Glee and Human Fawnees… and it was a helpful reminder that I don’t owe ‘everyone everything’ – I can hold reserves for those I actually do click with!
- I did do my FIVE hours of training across two groups without busting an adrenal in fawning to participants. I held my own… eg to the woman who kept badgering me for random tech support, I invited her to leave the session and come back later…
This morning I’m using the time to shift some shit off my list and prepare for the day. Any tips?
Self-Centre in every moment. Hold your energy for You.
Seriously, this is the work of this moment of immense pressure for all: to keep your energy for You.
Is this to do with, like, louche harvesting, or something..?
Just hold on to what is rightfully yours. Your life force.
Qi time then… yes?
EVERY day is Qi time…
Ok. I hear you. So ‘Self-Centre’. I’ll work with that… Ty. xxx