Yesterday, I unveiled a really important Shadow word I am clearly holding around the concepts of PULL: “cheesy”.
This discovery is important, because for various reasons the word “Cheesy” powerfully invalidates most of what I hold most dear in my authentic self.
Cheesy =
- ‘corny, trite, cliched’
- embarrassing
- ‘lacking style or good quality and slightly silly’
- cringey
I need some help here. This has been the case for so many years. I remember cringing at the ‘Peacemakers’ class the local community ran for children. That’s still in me. Despite my deep passion for peace, for unity, for love, for light. It’s like… I never found the way to articulate this part of me beyond the Ba. community.
But when I got glimpses of … unconditional self-acceptance and a uniting with accumulating PULL yesterday… I felt so ‘resolved’, so settled, so peaceful in myself. It was beautiful
That was a lockdown Sunday – protected, safe, silent. How do I take these insights out into the world with me if I still think peace, unity, love and light are ‘cheesy’?
Let’s go in.
***Read a page of AOTH and 7mins med***
I went into the word “cheesy” and saw it as meaning “false and worthless”.
Then a line from AOTH rose up to meet this quandary.
‘If we settle for mental concepts, it means we are satisfied with information, not knowledge. Information is thought-form that has only a mental component to it. Knowledge on the other hand, contains an integrated physical, mental and emotional component to it.. ‘ (Alchemy of the Heart p10)
I realised this: when I take my Knowledge out into the world as Information, it feels ‘cheesy’… because I am making it so by converting a resonance of meaning into mental concepts. As Brown says (p8) ‘When it comes to the realm of feeling, the mental body is impotent.’ He carries on to say that going through the portal of intimacy (into-me-and-see) is ‘entering a conversation with the unspeakable.’
The unspeakable. Yes! This is why talking about PULL seems ‘cheesy’ – because it can reduce the gloriously unspeakable to the speakable. It is the sound bites which are cringy, false and worthless… not the knowledge.
So… I need to lead with knowledge?
Unconditional Self-Acceptance starts with owning one’s knowing. Ask, “What do I know?” and sit quietly with that question… for a lifetime. As Michael Brown says: “Knowing how to ask questions without answering them is the art of initiating revelation.” (AOTH p10)
‘Knowing’ sits in the heart, while Information sits in the Head, right?
Right. So, throughout today, ask “What do I know?” and sit with your Heart. You are not looking for information. You are looking for a vibrational resonance. You’ll know it. When you hit the vibrational resonance of your knowing, you’ll feel deeply settled. You won’t necessarily have ‘the answer’. That’s good. But you’ll now be in the correct state to make rational decisions that serve you, and all.
Lovely. When I ask myself that question, “What do I know?” and just sit with the question, I start to feel… uplifted, noble, queenly, ancient, wise… like I’m a shaman on a hill gazing over the planes below.
It’s good to ask questions without seeking answers, isn’t it?
Isn’t it? 😉
So the question must be asked in a certain way?
The question must be asked with humility and confidence in equal measure. You’ll know if you are asking the question without seeking information by the way you feel. If you are leaning in for info, you’ll sense that toppling forward. If you are dropping down into yourself for the vibrational resonance of ‘knowing’ – almost throwing away the question “What do I know?” as a rhetorical flourish – you’ll find yourself sitting in the right state.
How about “What am I knowing?”
Stick with “What do I know?” and see what happens. Remember, this is also the practice of Unconditional Self-Acceptance, so undertake the exercise with a good handful of Love. This is about moving away from the rational, the judgemental, the pinned down and cornered. We are in the realms of the unspeakable.
Amen.
I am asking, “What do I know?” #UnspeakableKnowing
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Day Notes:
Realisation: asking “What do I know?” is the polar opposite to “What do I think?”. Esp in terms of questions without answer… think -=> v answery.
What I think is ever fluctuating and reactive and temporal and temporary – and sometimes cliched, embarrassing and cheesy.
What I know is accumulative. (Non-cheesy)