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Create 59: I am serving our spiritual evolution 

I’m here to report back on ‘welcoming psychic psimplicity’. It is apparently hard for me to switch off the dopamine-chasing when there is no-one waiting at the end of a zoom call for me to turn up and interact. In other words, ‘holiday time’ arrives and my daily discipline goes haywire. This is partly because I am the ‘outwardly accountable’ type – or to Gretchin Rubin, an ‘obliger’; BUT, I realised, it’s also partly (that I’m depressed and guarded and out-of-sorts while not working) because I get such joy, such true dopamine, out of the work I do.

Yes, I certainly needed this week-long break from client bookings, and yes I need to be less over-loaded, and yes I need to set my schedule and my ‘offering menu’ to be more manageable… but I am enriched by the work I do. It gives me Joy. And it’s the Joy of Joining with others, in the field of dialogue and connection.

I love it when I see people growing at a deep, spiritual level – and experiencing their higher selves. And I’m just so lucky that my work, of wellbeing and peace-making, sits in that sphere, of spiritual growth.

I also thought of Janet Cundall’s joy in serving: “I love to serve! Thank you for letting me serve you!”

How can I sum it up?

I enJoy serving others in their journey of spiritual growth. 

Does it sound a bit…?

Oop! Pause. Let the statement in. Let it land. This is a big and important step. You want to welcome psychic psimplicity?Well then, this statement is a profoundly important insight. If you wanted a filter to discern what is ‘extraneous’ in your life – or, what could be shaved off by Occam’s razor of psychic parsimony – then you couldn’t find a much better touchstone than this: I enJoy serving others in their journey of spiritual growth. 

Why this statement? Because:

a) It is about your own particular Route to Joy (and we know, it’s not what Cosmopolitan told you it would be)  

b) It hugely refines, defines and simplifies the Work you are engaged in. You simply ask: Does this work serve others’ spiritual growth? If yes, onwards. If not, drop it like it’s hot. 

c) This is about energetic sustainability. If the work you do is bringing you Joy, it is nourishing you and filling you, and you will be able to do it forever. 

d) It is also about spiritual sustainability. Your spirit and heart yearn for growth. Give away that which you wish to attain – remember that? Teach what you would really master. Yes? In other words, if you want to keep growing spiritually (or ‘evolving’, ‘developing’ – any word will do), you have to be consciously adding to the system. Your input is now required, as they say. 

I see. ty. tyvm.

You know exactly what work Serves Others’ Spiritual Evolution and what doesn’t. How? By the way it makes you feel. The work that does not hit the mark leaves you feeling… dirty, tired, contaminated, regretful. And sometimes it’s not the work itself, as much as the spirit you undertake it in! This is advanced warrior training here, sweet friend. 

Yes. It is…. I feel very soft inside. Show me…. Guide me…. Carry me…. Remind me…. Help me to remember and hold true. Let me be quiet about this, but not forget it! Let me absorb this insight deeply into my psyche, and heart and soul.

It is in your soul already, dear one. This is your very soul’s plan. 

Ah. I see. Good…. Ty.

SOSE {Serve Others Spiritual Evolution} <3 Our quiet work together. Ok? 

Yes!

I want to add that all this is based on the assumption that we are alllll involved in spiritual evolution, as a default aspect of having a human life. Like, it’s not something ‘special’ or ‘esoteric’ or ‘mysterious’. Serving another’s spiritual growth is basically like being conscious of being a moving part/cog in someone’s complex lifetime machinery, and doing our cogly work well. No self-consciousness…. or self-congrats. Thank yew.

Also, I’d like to note that actually serving someone’s SG is a result of grace, not our personal brilliance. It’s a gift to us. Hence, “Thank you for letting me serve…”

It’s Radical Love, isn’t it? Because it’s about trusting the deep spiritual truth that we do actually support/serve ourselves best via… our service to others (aka STO). Counter-intuitive to a human; yet, it’s the absolute MO for a being unencumbered by an egoic mind.

Boom. <3

So now I can psychically psimplify my day by asking my Self:

How best can I serve others’ spiritual evolution today? 

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After I wrote the above, yesterday, I later went out, and nearly crashed my car head on into a bus, with my daughter and her boyfriend in the car, having swung out into the wrong lane in a distracted (and hyper) state. Luckily there happened to be a lay-by I could swerve into. I arrive here today, very much in need of guidance to calm down, get back into my body, forgive myself for yesterday, and reset my mind.

Let’s go in – but properly. 20 mins. With some self-compassion.

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In that beautiful mediation I recalled that sustained meditation is a  super power, because it disconnects the brain’s dopamine seeking, by dint of our just not responding to the pangs for stimulation for 20mins. On top of that, we can infuse ourselves with something good, like ‘affectionate breathing’.

Insight arising in mediation: Maybe the O in SOSE stands for ‘OUR’ as much as for ‘OTHERS”. My spiritual growth can not happen separately to yours, and vice versa. And, the notion of ‘the other’ is not exactly within the concepts of ONEness.

Hence it would be:

So now I can psychically psimplify my day by asking my Self:

How best can I serve our spiritual evolution today? 

I felt that doing the Neff meditation was in service of our collective spiritual evolution. We affect each other, especially when we are doing a conscious practice that sets the intention of feeling affection and kindness towards others.

So what do you say?

You can use the two words, others’ and our, interchangeably. Sometimes you need to acknowledge that you and another individual are indeed separate entities. In that recognition you can take transactional action between the two of you, all the time knowing that what benefits the one benefits the both and the all. 

Got it.

So can we play with this today? Can we answer the question?:

I can psychically psimplify my day by asking my Self:

How best can I serve others’/our spiritual evolution today? 

Help me take the self-seriousness or self-importance out of it.

Well, as your beloved Mum said, “It’s got to be fun!”

Aha. Great guidance! It should feel light and joyful. And JOINy.

These are my thoughts:

  1. Get my house in order – do the routine and be dressed
  2. Be ready to snip the old..
  3. Think of who is in need today.. Who is suffering or sad. Reach out warmly!

It all makes me baffled. Guide me please.

Here is the guidance you are looking for.  It’s about seeking a new flavour of wholeyness. Getting whole means attending to all our own needs – food, shelter, stability – with as much simplicity as possible. When those needs are attended to, then we StartTheWork of the day: SOSE. It’s fun! Much more fun than dragging our own needs out all day. 

So ask yourself: What do I need to do to meet my basic needs today? Then do those things. Then see what’s on the horizon for SOSE. But use focus, and psychic psimplicity.

Ok well I need to do my daily routine.

Prescribe it to yourself then. 

AT’s Daily Routine @ 03apr21

  • QT (Plan + DoDs + Meditation) @7am
  • Body Hour (Qigong + Shower + Dress) @8am
  • Decksfast (Clear the decks + Breakfast) @9am
  • SOSE [Serving Our Spiritual Evolution] @10-1pm
  • Walk & Talk Lunch Hour @1-3pm
  • SOSE [Serving Our Spiritual Evolution] @3-6pm
  • Home Hour (Family comms + Supper + Home tidy) @6pm
  • Relax with G. @7-9pm
  • Bedwards Hour (Kitchen clear + 15m IG + Ready for bed) @9pm
  • Reading & Lights out @10pm

Good. Let’s do it. And then let’s start Serving Our Spiritual Evolution 

I am a couple of hours behind because it’s the weekend… And I had a late night. I was drinking.

You want us to judge the drinking, and condemn. We won’t do that. But we will say: wow, imagine if this routine was yours 365 days a year. How joyous and fulfilling and easy would that be?!

I hear you! I agree. Ty. Let’s go.

I am serving our spiritual evolution 

 

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Pivot 56: Impart nothing but radical love

I did treat myself tenderly yesterday – and it felt merciful, and appropriate to the days we are currently in, not to be  hustling and bustling. I treated myself tenderly by:

  • Signing up for a free 2 week subscription of Lee Holden Qigong video classes, and did one on the patio in the sun. Qigong => absorbing, generating and activating energy, as opposed to exercise that burns, expends and expels energy.
  • Followed my lovely routine softly. When my mind isn’t juggling choices, it has more battery left for creativity eg writing a blog for work.
  • Used the Noom app to help me treat my body more tenderly today, with better eating choices and because I like the external accountability. [I’ve lost 5 pounds in 5 days!]
  • Emailed myself uplifting videos to watch in breaks as rewards/boosts.
  • I spoke to an IFA today and I allowed myself to feel tenderness and compassion towards myself at the prospect of only starting a pension at this age.
  • When I was still on my walk as the time for an online committee meeting came round, instead of rushing home, I logged on to the Zoom meeting in the woods (to the committee’s evident delight) and strolled home.

These are such intense days, I can’t tell you. And yet… you could say, for those of us who are well, that ‘nothing is happening’. But I am convinced that so much is going on, within and beyond this coronavirus pandemic. So much we are not all talking about. For a start, to get a sense of… how extraordinary this moment is, look at how we are being communicated with by our government on Instagram today:

What’s with the threatening, end of days hellfire imagery here? It would be easy to say, well, it’s important to get the message across by any means… But, since when does a government speak to it’s people in this way? Look at it, and ask what impact this imagery has on the young minds on Instagram.

Meanwhile subtler channels are stating this is a moment of profoundly positive significance especially the dates 1-13 April.  Which I sense is exactly the case.

Can we talk about this today?

Let’s read first. 

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ORIGINAL BUDDHISM “Actually, we are not the Soto school at all. We are just Buddhists. We are not even Zen Buddhists. If we understand this point, we are truly Buddhists.” Zen Mind p125

And what if we say we are not even Buddhists?

This truly the day of oneness. 

And what does that mean?

Consider the notion of ‘jealousy’: this is a combination of love and hate abiding in one heart. The times are asking you to clarify your states, and to integrate your inner orientation. There is not oxygen or energy for diametrically opposed views or beliefs at the moment. 

For example, your images posted above. Dear soul, you cannot both mistrust and love your government at the same time. 

Should I love it?

Excellent question. You are invited to love your government as a mother loves her child: unconditionally and radically – as in ‘from the root’. Why? Because you do not need to be conditional in your loving anymore – towards anything or anyone. In other words, you do not need to withhold your love until the person or thing has ‘proven’ itself worthy. Nor do you need to demonstrate your selectiveness in loving. As per your question on your reading above, you knew early on that loving religion X over religion Y was tantamount to insanity; equally you knew that ‘not loving’ religion was to miss the crucial Point. The same principle applies to all that is, including the governments you would see as misguided, lost, hijacked or corrupt. Truly, if you withhold your love from anything because you judge it to be bad or wrong, you only feed its apparent negativity with yours. 

So the task of this day is truly to be radical in your loving. Again, ‘radical’ as in from the root. (Think of the radish, if you need to remember what radical really means.)  Being at one with yourself is also to be at one with all that is. Being swept along by judgement or hate or unforgiveness is to lose a foothold on the path of sovereignty. On the path of sovereignty we find ourselves ‘unmoved’ or ‘unruffled’ by perceptions of ‘not enough’ or ‘wrong’. We can see these elements clearly, but we are not shaken, rattled or brought down in our frequency. Why? Because our frequency is high and strong and constant. This is our offering to the Earth at this time: to be able to see division, duality, and even the downfall of past structures, and remain stable, remain peaceful, remain detached from fear. 

We know this is complex, because part of how you show love to each other in these days is to share pains and worries together. It makes you feel close and accompanied. But enough work has been done across the planet, that holding a spirit of calm, clarity and constancy can be put down to ‘good mental health hygiene’. In other words, no one will blame you for not being swept up by the doom and gloom. They will, on the other hand, be affected positively by your demonstration of your archetypal love profile. 

What is an archetypal love profile?

Each person has a unique signature frequency when they are in a state of complete love. 

Ooh, nice. And what is mine? Have I ever actually/fully activated (?) that signature?

It is inherent in you ever day, dear friend. It is so in everyone. When yours is more light than dark then your tendencies are towards: lightness, feverishness and fancy. 

Wt..? That makes me sound like a… flipping… crazed pixie…

Isn’t that great and super? 

Wait a second… Feverishness and fancy? What the heck is that?!

Think of raised temperatures, heightened senses, pulsating rhythms.

I’m reminded of those drumming-dancing experiences…

There we go. Carried away, transported. Like the… 

…shaman?

Like the shaman. Precisely. 

Well ,where does that arise from in me, and where even is it expressed in me?

It arises from long experiences across life times. And currently it arises in you here and in your sessional work, wherein you access the deep inner knower. 

Ha, I do. That’s beautiful.

The deep inner knower.

Lovely. Thank you for that.

Ok, one more question. What shall I carry in to today with me to land today’s Dialogue?

Today’s task is not an ‘easy’ one but it is an important one – not just for you, but for the collective consciousness which is under activation through your people’s period of suffering and of rest. Remember this line from above: you do not need to be conditional in your loving anymore – towards anything or anyone. 

Ah, so just a spot of ‘unconditional love’ at the End of Days. Nah problem!

You jest… It’s good. But yes. However we haven’t finished. Remember too that love signature of yours we discussed: lightness, feverishness and fancy. This is the manner of approach. In other words, we are not asking you to love unconditionally with gravity, coolness and rationality. No, far from it. We are asking you to love with a passion. With the passion of the shaman, the prairie dancer, the woodland wisp. Throw your love at that which you see today. Throw your love at it all, passim. Shower love upon that which only yesterday you might have rolled your eyes at, or snidely commented about, or secretly laughed at, or scorned, or recoiled from, or found sinister…

Easy with those truth bombs, please…

Find new ways to SEE ‘what is’ and LOVE it hard. Everything is seeking to emerge from the dark cocoon. Everything. Even – especially – those who had been seduced (remember that word? Everyone can be seduced, dear soul, so bring your deep compassion with you) by the darkness and cannot even see a jot of light towards which to orientate themselves as they journey out. So, go on, chuck them in some light and some good energy so they can find their way forward. Wouldn’t your rather give light to those at risk of staying in darkness, than use your precious energy to condemn them to darkness? In other words, will your legacy in this time be to have given love and light to the All, or to have cherry-picked and attached yourself to the ‘already emerging’ aspects of consciousness? To whom should the teacher give most love and attention and encouragement? To the most gifted, or to those at risk of dropping out? Answer this and thereby you find your true nature, your true love signature, is to bring your light, feverish, fanciful love to the areas of your All which are shadowy and afraid – and to give them your energising, heartening impulses. So, SEEK out that which annoys you, that which causes you to feel disdain, and BE THERE. Do not shroud yourself with perfections. Enter the arena of your own shadows, guided in by the people you would judge, and pour love there. To love those you would judge, is to love the trapped aspects within yourself. And now, we are on our way to clearing the cupboards of our consciousness, which is the consciousness of All. 

Woah! Ok…! So much here. May I absorb it, live it, bring my light, feverish, fanciful love to it all. Help me to understand what this all looks and feels like. Be present with me. Guide me. Guide us all. Bring love to this planet today. Today may I impart nothing but radical love.

And there’s your message for the day. 

Ok. Wow. What a ride it’s been this morning. Thank you. 

Impart nothing but radical love

 

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Later:

So much intense duality at the moment. And it is causing people to bring out their deepest identities. I saw this emphasis on Hero vs Zero..

And…?

And yes, today, you are asked to throw your radical love at heroes and zeros with absolute non-differentiation.

I see why we’re calling it radical love.

Indeed!