Yesterday’s day in nature was intense! I did an hour’s qigong barefoot in the garden, with 20min TRE included. And G and I went for a 7 mile walk in nature. It was beautiful and yet 80% of the time I was experiencing persistent impulses towards self-violence (cheese-wire cutter to neck and heart). It just seemed relentless…. A combination of acute sadness and anxiety and emotional pain – I couldn’t even tell you what it was related to. Eventually, we got home and I just collapsed in bed for 2.5 hours, dozing to The Office episodes. Then at 8.30pm, I got up feeling ok, rebooted, safe again. Man… what a day.
Was this nature connecting me to my Heart? Or what..?!
You were purging some self-hatred.
Seriously?!
And today you’re ready to start the gentle, earnest process of embedding self-love back in to your relationship with your Heart. Hand on heart…
– I love and approve of myself (L Hay)
– I love you (M Kahn)
This is now the vibrational alignment we are looking for. Deep and clean. Until there is an inflow of love for the self, we are ego-dominated and outside the Cusp.
You may nave spotted that Nature is not afraid to have its fundamental needs met before anything else. The tree takes the water it needs from the soil. Then, and only then, can it provide refuge and sanctuaryfor the birds who would nest in it.
Humans must learn likewise, to be unapologetic about having their own needs met.
The starting point for this learning is a reaching into the Heart and settling into a vibration and a knowing of love, approval, appreciation.
We put on our our oxygen mask first to help others. Likewise, we love ourselves first to enter the Cusp and bring love to others. So settle in. Do the Work. Love yourself well.
Ty
I am loving myself well today.
PS. (It’s the only route into the Cusp. Trust us on that.)
Is that why we’re brought up to judge ourselves… to keep us out?!
I’m listening. CuspLife. Yes… How do I live in the world, and yet remain connected to the Cusp?
Let Nature in to your life and your consciousness and your days. Nature will teach you about the Cusp. Let it in. You asked about the Elemental world. You have to look to see. Do you understand? When you truly align yourself to the frequency of Creation, you will feel that relief you seek.
‘Good boundaries’ seems to be about keeping certain things out, and letting others in.
If you focus on the ‘unwanted’ you’ll get more of it. Focus on the wanted to get more of that.
The wanted?
The wanted you are seeking is the Cusp Life. Being connected to both this world and that.
I want to be connected to the cusp, without being floaty or untethered.
Then welcome to the natural environment. As with My Octopus Teacher, you will learn more of the nature of life through the natural world than you will through humans who are all tugging the ball and chain of their ego with them, or mostly all. The natural world IS the ego-less world.
It’s also full of predation and death and fear and flight and fight…
It’s ego-less. Watch it and you will know. To be ‘without ego’ does not mean that you give up the will to survive and thrive. You see, that’s where the lesson is to be learnt. Humans often think that to be ‘good’ is to surrender one’s will to the will of another. Baffling, isn’t it?
Please heal my sadness. I am truly open to learning. If nature is the way, then I will follow. I downloaded two apps for species identification of birds and plants today… I can special-interest it… I just need relief. Daily relief from this current sadness, this stress, this pain… I know I am often joyful in the company of others and on my walks – and I am grateful for the practices that engender that joy – but happiness is like a jive skirt I have to keep spinning and flipping up every day to keep afloat. The effort… I wish for rest, relief, daily uplift… Grant me that timeline.
You asked us that before and we gave you the answer. Meet nature. Let it heal, teach, inform and inspire you.
Will I meet the elemental world?
Of course! It is there witnessing you and working with you everyday.
I want contact.
Then look, see, learn, be taught, stay, sit, absorb. Your qigong is part of this practice. You have connected with the birds and plants of your garden most profoundly during your qigong practice. Do not be mistaken – this is not just ‘exercise’. You asked to learn about Vibrational Alignment, about Energy, about the Frequencies of Consciousness. You are being taught. Become aware of your curriculum, dear soul.
Really?
You would do well to think about your purpose. Do you want ‘magic powers’? Well, if so, to what end? Do you want to lift the veil to see the working mechanisms behind physical life (and death). Well, if so, to what end? Who is it serving and to what end? Sit still and learn. With awareness of What Is we can achieve more than you can imagine, but we have to be receptive to the deeper meaning. It is never going to please your dear ego.
Please may my ego be healed, and become a servant to my heart.
Beautiful words. Beautiful prayer.
What next?
If your Heart is to become the master to you Head, you need to learn to hear its voice more clearly, and normalise the heart-centred approach.
What is the heart-centred approach?
Imagine there is an algorithm in your consciousness. In childhood, you are brought up to filter everything through the navigating instincts of the Head. We are asking you to rewire your algorithm, so that you navigate life through your Heart.
I think my Heart is quite a disruptor.
Isn’t that great?!
Ha!
Truly, you are going to LOVE the Heart-Centred life. It IS CuspLife. It’s the only way to live in ‘this world and that’ simultaneously.
Wow. That is a massively impactful and helpful statement. Thank you.
You only feel this ‘sadness, stress and pain’ because your Heart is leading one way, but you are following your Head. Remember what Abraham said? Negative emotion is only a sign you are out of alignment with your Inner Being, which is always seeing you and your life through the eyes of Source.
So how would I change my life to be more Heart-led?
You’re going to need to change your relationship with your Heart. It’s been the ‘poor relation’ for too long. You will need to start over. Listen hard. Seek that self-forgiveness we discussed within your own Heart. You’re going to need to get REALLY curious about the still small voice of your heart, and follow it like a ‘mad woman’. We use this term advisedly, to denote two things:
‘Mad’: your culture is so Head-orientated that when you cut off your Heart and get Heart-sickness, you call it ‘mental ill health’, or madness.
‘Woman’: this is the day of feminine-rising. The Heart is flow, love, instinct, deepdeep knowing. Compare this with the old ‘rational’ way that led humanity to almost self-destruct.
Your new ways will need to be aware of the old misbeliefs about sanity and womanhood – and sidestep them.
Ok. Noted. I like the term ‘heart-sickness’.
Valuable isn’t it?
Nature will reconnect you to your Heart. Let it do that job.
You will feel really good if you do the work you meant to do, which is teach others about that world. By your testimony. Of life. On the cusp. Between here and there. Which is the life of the aspie-indigo-starseed… whatever you would call it. But you are NOT alone.‘
My testimony of life on the cusp ‘between here and there’. Please tell. Is that what is going on? Do I live a life on the cusp between here and there?
Of course you do, dear soul. And in truth, so do you all – it’s just that for some of you, the incarnation is more… porous. It therefore feels harder to ‘land’ on this plane. That feels good sometimes, when the sensitivity plays in your ‘favour’ and you feel that connection to spirit or you experience veil-breakthroughs. But… much of the time, it is fairly painful or distressing, especially when or if you don’t know what is going on, and life feels like an invading battle ground to the mind, the senses and moreover, to the sensitive heart. That is why autism (heightened connection to that world) can look or feel like shutdown in this world.
Is that what autism is?
Yes. In a sense.
‘Heightened connection to that world’? Blimey… Please, please, please can we help A., my autistic client.
Do you note, most of your clients are autistic?
Yes. Is that due to some kind of law of attraction?
Each person serves a purpose. Yours is to help people over the cusp – whether it is to live better on this plane; or to consciously depart this plane.
Heavens.
Sweet soul. If you can get comfortable with Cusp Life, you will truly thrive. This is honestly why we are asking you to radically simplify your life. Routines, rituals, good boundaries and, as you discovered yesterday, ‘feeling prepared’, are all factors that will allow you to live and serve on the cusp between this world and that.
Honestly, I could wish for nothing more than this! This is exactly what my heart asks for. This is truly the work. Show me, help me, teach me, train me. Show me this simplicity, daily and moment by moment. Thank you.
Over the last couple of days since our last dialogue, I took some learning notes on Simplifying My Life. I’d like to capture them here.
Simplifying My Life with Good Boundaries
is the opposite to ‘working harder’
includes recognising and honouring my ‘age and station’ (ie. as a fully grown adult – I’ve been looking at the child archetype in me)
involves stating “My life is simple (now back off)”
is about embracing ‘Extreme Simplicity’ (sorry, Ego, which loves jazzhand complexity) including via daily routines, rituals and repetitions so that… The Work can be done.
involves Good PSYCHIC boundaries
includes ‘seeing my current situations through the eyes of Source’ (Abraham phrase. ie. ‘All is grreat, no effort required, EASEy, revelling.’)
Simplifying My Life By ‘Feeling Prepared’ By…
Being early
Completing tasks
Observing my routines and rituals
Tending to the admin of life and business (“monotonous, not tedious” – Dwight Schrute)
Reducing complexity passim (a la Occam’s razor) – sorrynotsorry, Ego
Eating/doing/exerting… LESS (micro-meals/tasks/workouts)
Welcoming ‘rinse & repeat’ instead of innovation
Planning and prioritising
RECOGNISING: most of my stressors come from feeling behind, late or not on the ball. This is largely within my control to manage. Hooray! I can reduce stress by a) good boundaries and b) being prepared.
Noting that ‘Being Prepared’ provokes anxiety in me because I actually ‘believe’ I do best under the pressure of a deadline. That’s actually the perfectionist/scared child in who would delay because of fear of failure, and associating stress with ‘success’. I don’t do best under pressure. Sure, I produce good stuff, but in the long run the cost to my health and confidence outweighs the gain.
Realising that “FEELING PREPARED” is my PANACEA! It is the ultimate simplification of life! It is my antidote to stress and anxiety, and to the ego’s compulsion for complexity!
Asking myself: “What do I need to do, have, be or say to ‘feel prepared’ for xyz?”
Noting that Preparation = Simplification
Using my need for preparation as a reason for Good Boundaries, as in, “I’d love to do xyz but I need to prepare for abc” – even if abc is just ‘next week’.
Using ‘Segment Intending’ – for example: “By the end of this 4hour admin time, I intend to feel well-prepared for all that lies ahead, including feeling I’ve put to bed what is passed [eg. by invoicing]. I will feel satisfied, relaxed and moreover, that LIFE IS MORE SIMPLIFIED than when I started.”
Thank you for capturing this. It is good learning, and also shows the considerations at play for a being who lives ‘on the cusp’.
You mentioned not being alone. Yes, I see it. People talking about this cusp life include: Caroline Myss, Christiane Northrup, Martha Beck, Anita Moorjani, ohmmyword Abraham-Hicks.
It’s almost like… in some arenas… it could be normalised – the assumption that ‘this is not all there is’.
Hahaha! Don’t say it aloud, the muggles might hear!
We hear you jesting, but you have been cowed by the ‘muggles’ as you see them. ‘They‘, and their perspective, dominate your life. Do you recognise that? You live by their paradigm’s rules much of the time; not yours. Do you agree?
Oof. Punch me, why dontcha?
We get it, you think ‘they’ have the money and will withhold it if you speak your truth. But you’re forgetting – the audience you are meant to be dancing with is a different bunch. The other, quiet cusp-dwellers, many of whom are really struggling.
Yes. I know… I do work with them though. In my training and mediation.
How much can you help them if you perpetuate the 3D line?
I do talk about self-love, self-care, self-compassion… That’s pretty radical! And people who don’t jive with it can forgive me because I seem jolly and I’m not judging them; and those who need to hear it for themselves do hear it, and they let me know, often privately…
I think I’m talking to the cusp pretty well…
We have this unhinged phrase ‘woo-woo’… Martha Beck self-proclaims having ‘woo-woo’ beliefs in that video yesterday, in order to buy herself the space to talk about spiritual concepts, I guess. I liked it, and yet, it doesn’t feel like me. My heart bursts with love for this unseen world, and I miss it. I can’t betray it by using that term.
Dear soul. The currency of the cusp is compassion, love and care, and it begins with self-compassion, self-love, and self-care. And when you are talking about that, you are indeed doing the work of the Cusp.
I know my training messaging is better than it was. I am seeing people through the eyes of Source. I can do it more… What is your advice?
Our advice is… to simplify again. And again. And again.
When you are talking about conflict, you are talking about forgiveness of self and other. This is the ultimate cusp-softener. Whether you are anchoring in life, or leaving it, forgiveness is the key lubricant.
Hm. So… This simplification, and forgiveness… Do I need to forgive anyone?
Y o u r s e l f.
Oh. For…?
All. Of. It.
How?
That is your journey of discovery. But know this, Simplifying Your Life comes from three wonderful steps:
Setting good boundaries
Feeling prepared
Forgiving self and other
I am conscious of my plumptons [pre-intentional speech / verbal tics] being pretty strong at the moment. To the degree I feel for G, to be in earshot of my clear internal distress.
If you can forgive yourself on a moment by moment basis, your plumptons will vanish.
I feel a bit heavy at this piece of work… I don’t feel shiny and excited.
This is because we’re clearing the murky pool now. Enjoy it!
The opposite of self-forgiveness is… self-recrimination, I guess? This is what I need to spot, I imagine. And feelings of ‘guilt’. And the compulsion to act out of guilt rather than following my actual instincts… Hm, good observation.
So, I think I’ll spot any self-recrimination, and soften it. That’ll be my work today.
Excellent. This is a spa for your heart.
Really?
Of course! Your heart finds ‘guilt’ anathema to its spirit of love.
The heart lives in the cusp comfortably, whereas the mind is ‘split’. Live within your heart, and you will start to find ‘guilt’ to be an irritant, not the ‘helpful’ Sergeant-Major catalyst-for-action that it is to the egoic mind.
Soften, dissolve, archive, shake loose that age-old weight-belt called ‘guilt’.
We call guilt a ‘weight-belt’, because like a diver uses one to sink into the unnatural environs of the ocean, a human uses guilt to pin herself to the physical plane. It works a treat! But in time, you don’t need to pin yourself to the physical plane. You are welcome to inhabit the Cusp. So, drop a weight or two off your guilt-belt, and get Cuspy. It’s a lighter feeling. Not floaty or out of your mind. It’s just lighter.
Beautiful. Got it. Here I go.
I am dropping ‘guilt’ and feeling lighter
#NotGuilty
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Notes.
[?Autism – experienced by me as ‘Life on the cusp between this world and that.’ Hence ‘sensitivity’, HSP, empath… So…Embrace the cusp. Work with it. Inhabit the cusp skilfully. This is what I’m learning to do in the DoDs.]
Last night we watched My Octopus Teacher – that is such a good model for a person who enters and inhabits a cusp life and its wonders to better live his life on Earth..
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Watched this and Pippa mentioned: ‘the natural environment’ and ‘this feminine being’ – ‘fall in love with nature’ – ‘nature and mental health’ – ‘nature story-telling’… {NB: #CuspLife = Nature} Connect to nature to connect to cusplife.
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There is no place for guilt in the wonderous Cusp Life.
To watch tomorrow. It’s about a deaf girl. Both my girls were born cusp dwellers… What beautiful worlds they introduced me too. Or returned me too.
