The question “What do I know?” threw me into the strangest state yesterday. I felt out of sorts, under the weather, low, exhausted, searching – incredibly tender-hearted. I seemed completely powerless to do all but the most ‘urgent’ work… and ended up going to bed before midday. I felt a strong urge to watch the new Netflix series about NDEs and mediumship, ‘Surviving Death’ – and ended up watching 3 x 3h episodes across the day. It was the only thing that gave me comfort. But more than comfort – complete peace. A sense of home.
What shall I do? I’ve been enamoured with the knowing of the life beyond since I was 17/18.
You forgot how to communicate with it ‘consciously’. And that is what you are ‘missing’ and yearning for.
I knew completely yesterday that this was the unspeakable Answer to my question “What do I know?”. I know of… the life beyond and yet closer to us than our life vein. I stopped ‘bothering’ it because I tended to get attached to outcome.
Stop. You are mentalising. What does MB say?
Ay yes..! ‘Neither the physical nor mental aspects of our human experience have the capacity to engage any question whose answer is only available as a vibrational transmission. Therefore unless we reactivate our capacity to interact directly with our vibrational essence, we remain blind to these answers even when they are close to use than the air we breathe. Only through consciously shedding our blindness do we initiate the journey of awakening leading us from living unconsciously toward a conscious conversation with the unspeakable.’ (Alchemy of the Heart, Michael Brown, p11-2)
That’s us, right? Help me make this clear and concrete. Grant me hope, power, internal energy for this work of creation on the physical plane. Push me out into the world, bravely, boldly.
Are you granting permission to the vibrational consciousness to interact with you?
I am granting permission to the vibrational consciousness of the highest frequencies of peace, unity, love and light to interact with me, and to guide and teach and inspire and prompt and nourish and educate and inform and coach me.
I am requesting that the highest frequencies of PULL be channeled through me via vibrational transmission for the highest good of All. I am asking that I get clearer about these processes, and really start to use them for action. I am healed now. So now it is time to put these knowings in to active practice. May I be of Use on this Earth.
Your power to pray has returned. This is a Good Step. Use this space here to pray, to communicate, with the world unseen, and you will make the progress you long for.
I am asking, Holy Spirit of Light, that you inspire me, here, now, today and every day. I am asking that you grant me a modicum of ‘forgetfulness of self’ so that I can step forward confidently to act in the service of the All.
I am also asking that you bless and protect my precious children. Especially, tomorrow, hold Lucia in your eternal Light during her operation. Bless her doctors and nurses. Protect her spirit and grant her the love of all Ages at every moment of her procedure. Let her be held in the healing Light of Raphael. Amen.
The bridge of your vibrational transmission starts here. You know where it goes. Lean in to the power of the present moment to inform you.
And is there anything else you would have me know, do or say today?
Lean in to the present moment. That is where the good stuff lies. Keep alive to the present moment. That is where vibrational awareness is attained.
And my #SomethingNew today? My #Today’sCreation? #MyCreativeImpulse?
Was that ‘publish NVC?. Idk. Show me today, please…?
I’m going to imagine Spirit, or a spirit team, watching over my shoulder as I write. I’m going to use this to communicate with you all. And I’m asking for your help and direction please. I am wanting to simplify my life and act as a channel for Source to this world. I want my practice to be … powerful and bullet-proof, to ME. I want to know I am hitting the mark of bringing PULL. In whatever is best. It doesn’t have to be through ‘spiritual’ means. In fact, that’s where my mediation work is so powerful to me. It’s spiritual work, but not dressed as such. (Just like the work of a doctor/nurse…). But let me know I am hitting the mark. Educate me. Work with me. Let me work with you.
We will meet you in the Present Moment. Find your vibrational awareness there in every moment. You’ll ‘read’ us better that way. And we’ll speak more clearly through and to you.
Will do. See you in the Present Moment.
I am leaning into the Present Moment #VibrationalAwareness
I set myself various reminders on my phone and checked in to my body as/when I could across the day. It took about 20 seconds each time: eyes closed, both hands on chest… waiting for a word or two to come forward to sum up the ‘flavour’ of the resonance inside. I know MB suggests that felt-perception is non-verbal, but I needed to find a phrase to know that I’d arrived inside my body. And the results were both poignant and fun.
These were some of my FELT-PERCEPTION phrases:
8am: Chalk and cheese
10am: Cranky-panky
10.22am: Poised and practical
9.30pm: Safe and sound
10pm: There’s too much soul in my body [<3]
Today, now: On the precipice, looking down
This is really valuable work. Especially for those of us with a tendency to dissociate out of our bodies. I was reminded by my music therapist friend yesterday, how much of our wellbeing work is simply about coming back into the body – sometimes after a sojourn away from it of many years. For this reason, I’m so grateful to have developed this amazing daily qigong and walking routine during this pandemic year.
And it’s a step towards improving our Inner Parenting as well. I like this next passage from The Presence Process. It describes a technique of using the FELT-PERCEPTION as a route back to the moment when our child self originally felt that feeling we’re troubled by now, and then ‘attending’ to that child unconditionally, thus nurturing our Inner Parent qualities. I did similar working on the Inner Child workbook (c2013) and in therapy with Philippa this year – it’s good stuff. Maybe I will try it today:
When we encounter the causal points of energy that isn’t freely in motion – which we may conceptually call emotional states such as fear, anger, and grief – our intent to be with these by wielding felt-perception is akin to taking the unintegrated aspect of our child self in our arms and unconditionally loving and comforting it. Because some of us are wired slightly differently, we may find it beneficial to actually imagine such a scenario. For example, when we experience an emotional state such as anger, it can be self-facilitating to close our eyes and imagine our self as a child of seven years or younger standing in front of us as we are now, feeling the way we feel. We may then visualize ourselves picking this child up and being with it as it moves through its anger. We don’t attempt to alter the child’s experience in any way because its experience is valid and required. We simply be with it unconditionally. Through this visualized nurturing of our child self, we activate the qualities of our inner parent. A comforting resonance of consistency arises whenever we commit to attending to our child self in this way. (p172, The Presence Process by Michael Brown)
Let’s do our meditation using this technique.
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Wow… Well in that meditation I tried the technique above. I sensed the FELT-PERCEPTION of ‘On the precipice, looking down‘ again and decided to be with it. It settled on a description of ‘Horror – Out of Body.‘ Ok… Let’s go back to Child Me sensing Horror and leaping Out of Body. Yes, we’re in the kitchen of my childhood home. My much-adored, and -feared, Dad unleashing his fury on – or merely ‘in the presence of’ probably – my Mum and a very young me. Me, just so shocked and afraid that I step out of my body; while my Mum remains impassive, taut, patient. I invited my Inner Parent to enter the scenario – basically a version of me now.
Initially, Inner Parent Me scooped Child Me up in my arms and carried her out of the house and off down the lane… but then I realised I’d eventually have to put Child Me back in the house, and she now really wanted anything but that.
So I rewound the scenario. I went into the kitchen again and:
I put a golden, egg-shaped qi shield over Child Me, so that she felt – and was – completely safe in her body. None of the fury could touch her.
I put my arm round my Mum and kissed her head, and comforted her.
I squared up to my Dad (who in this scenario is some 5 or 10 years younger than I am now, and full of feisty bullish energy and emotional dysregulation) and I shoved him (just like in my drawing I posted yesterday!), with both hands to his chest, again and again until he backed out of the kitchen door in to the garden. Thereupon, I told him to go and put his face in the stream at the bottom of the garden and stay there til he’d calmed down – and never to bring that kind of fury into the presence of his children again.
I then felt relief. Resolution. And popped naturally out of meditation…
Good work.
Yes. It is!
Tell us about yesterday.
Man…. It was huge. Beautiful. In short, I saw my dear friend (AK) for lunch, for the first time in 20+ years. She’s now an amazing, powerful, compassionate autism specialist and she set up her own consultancy business this summer, supporting young autistic people into work and education provisions. I hadn’t told her about my own diagnosis before, and did so over lunch – filling her in on a potted history of the last 20-30 years and how my autism has manifested in my life, and the impact it has had. Everything tumbled out with such force… It was just so good to talk to someone who had more than a 4% understanding of autism. And I so wanted her to have insight into my (hidden, costly, trauma-touched) journey, for the benefit of her clients. And to give impetus to her wonderful drive to make workplaces more autism-friendly…. And to share some of my profound learnings and invaluable techniques for self-care… My heart is still very full today. (And then, I had tea with my beloved LV, who took me through her lecture on programming she’d just given – my oh my – she’s such a genius! Man, my daughters continue to blow me away, every day.)
I’ve spoken a lot this morning and have used our time up. Maybe we pick up tomorrow?
This has been beautiful and important to witness today. All is well. Carry on with the FELT-PERCEPTION scanning, and we’ll pick up tomorrow.
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Day Notes:
Time with my lovely Dad, recording a new lecutre for YouTube – and actually ‘shoving’ him back with ease when he tried to rearrange our appointment at the last minute – and finding benefit for us both in my practising holding my boundaries around him. We have a beautiful relationship now. He really has been the person to teach me to value myself and boundary myself.
Listening to this MB/TPP video on my walk – man, he’s got such awesome insight. Michael Brown: the immensely enlightened guru you’ve never heard of.
We all have 3 stories: Bad, Good, Legend (When we jump off the Ledge-End)
I’m accompanied by a troop of aspects of myself of all ages. [Hence why DoDs is plural?]
Vibrational awareness…
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This morning, I came to look for the MB video above and ended up watching all of this video, on the Bruderhof community, with this sense of connection. It’s an intentional (“radical Christian”) community. A community.
https://youtu.be/FR4DTHDoMws
Care to go in and check out your Felt-Perception around this notion of Community?
Yes…. “It takes a village” is what I sense. I’m very fortunate to have had an experience of community. A few in fact. Let’s start with boarding school – I loved the community, the company, the constant presence of friends and peers…. But it lacked… guidance, values, safe boundaries. So then I was incredibly blessed to experience the Baha’i community, from university to early thirties. My twenties were defined by living within an international community of souls, for whom ‘unity’ was the purpose, goal and watchword. It required so much honesty and open-heartedness. And that village of souls helped bring up my girls, in ways I am so endlessly grateful for.
Talk to me about the learning here?
Yesterday you began to ponder on the phrase of MB’s – but also Abraham-Hicks – ‘vibrational awareness’. This is precisely where the practice of Felt-Perception is leading you. As you learn to use your body more as a barometer, an emotional GPS, an intuitive reader… you increase your vibrational awareness.
This sounds good. Tell me more?
Vibrational Awareness is the portal to true discernment.
Woah.
True discernment arises from our resting in vibrational awareness for most of the day. A key aspect of that communal Bruderhof living that was only obliquely referred to is this:
communal living simplifies and reduces daily decision-making
decision-making puts us in the cognitive sphere
too much decision-making drains us and locks us in cognition
reducing decision-making allows more space and time to be out of the cognitive sphere
the alternative to the cognitive sphere is the perceived sphere
the perceived sphere is aligned to our vibrational awareness
cognitive awareness is time-based and linear (left brained)
perceived/vibrational awareness is multidimensional (right-brained)
the transcendent / creative / infinite is multidimensional
reducing decision-making allows us to dip more into the multidimensional
the more we dip into the multidimensional the more we understand its language
And presumably, being in a group of people who are centring their lives around dipping into the multidimensional (while also pooling their decisional needs) creates a collective … hum? pull? power?
Exactly. Just like in your early qigong classes, with the right combination of genuine heart focus, you created a palpable and healing qi field.
When our beautiful RB came to qigong, in the midst of her chemo, my God… The focus, the selflessness, the intentionality of our group… We were one healing mind… and we all were recreated by it. RB was the teacher of us all. She was the catalyst for some of the deepest learning I’ve been blessed to receive.
I have space in my heart for community. At the moment my beautiful intentional community exists with G. We are truly learning and practising together. Yet, I still live in ways that plug fully into the cognitive sphere, and I get drained. I wonder if there’s another way.
Maybe your Vibrational Awareness will answer that most creative of questions.
“I wonder if there’s another way” is a mantra to live by. In short, the answer is always “yes”. If the cognitive approach is the default ‘way’, there is always the perceived approach to be explored.
If you can catch it! It’s like trying to catch a fish. You’ve got to stand still by the pond and wait.
Exactly. You have to stop, and align your vibrational awareness to the frequency of the pond, and therefore the fish. You can’t come along with linear thinking and expect the multidimensional pond to ‘speak’ to you. You have first to learn to commune with What Is. The ‘world’ suggests that the individual is what is! Vibrational awareness – or intentional living – says:
‘I’ am a reader of the Room. The Room is sublime. It is worth reading. I must attune myself to the Room to see into it and to read it. In reading the Room I will enter the multidimensional realm. And at that moment I will leave my self behind. I am ready to dispense with my I-ness, for the greater This-ness.
Beautiful. I really like the notion of ‘reading the Room’ as an analogy for fomenting vibrational awareness.
Think of yourself when you were a child, playing. There was no ‘decision-making’ to be done (your parents had removed that burden). Instead you could be fully present to the room (or sandpit, or garden, or treehouse) in which you were playing. You became alight with the awareness of all possibilities – all the more so because of your beautiful sensory wiring. You thought life would always be like that – or that adult life would be More of That. You were horrified when it wasn’t (exception: theatre). [As Hannah in the Bruderhof documentary said of her experience of leaving the community and living in London… she didn’t think she would see the purpose of living if that (materially-based living) was ‘all there was’ etc etc] But here’s the thing. This vibrational awareness has always been available to you. And you have accessed it (writing, praying, meditating, loving your children)… You may not have believed that it was respectable (or safe) for an adult to immerse in that awareness. Well, this is the year, and the time, and the epoch of turning. It’s time to turn from the linear to the multidimensional. And how do you do that? You start by prioritising ‘reading the Room’ with your vibrational awareness.
When you SWITCH TASK (which we’ve been practising for a few years now), you START by reading the Room with your senses, your felt-perception. You note what you read – and even write it down. Only THEN do you address the task cognitively, asking your 3D mind to chip in.
This makes so much sense. Let me try this today. I am so grateful for our conversations. Thank you.
As MB said of himself, you are accompanied at all times by all the versions of you across ‘time’. So we speak to you as older versions of yourself with Knowledge+, but we are merely you. All of us.
Ty. <3
<3 u.
I am reading the Room #VibrationalAwareness
Day Notes:
What I see = Cognition / Linear / Time-based / Past&Future / Mind / 3D / Analogue
What I perceive/sense = Awareness / Multidimensional / Timeless / Now / Heart / 5D / Digital
