Presence 43: I am embracing physical presence

My beloved youngest was notified of a positive Covid test result yesterday. She’s 4 hours drive away at university. I am calling upon all perfect wellbeing and complete recovery for her – and her housemates who tested positive, and for all people and beings across the planet. May all beings be well, and be healed, and thrive. May all beings know they are safe in their beautiful bodies. May all feel safe now.

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“I FEEL SAFE NOW”

EMBRACING PHYSICAL PRESENCE

Embracing physical presence is the first step we take toward accomplishing a permanent shift from reactive to responsive behavior…. During childhood, we began the habit of mentally leaving our physical body and departing full awareness of our current surroundings to enter the illusory mental experience called “time.” We did this as a fearful reaction to what was happening in the present. It’s this simple: we lost our awareness of Presence through fear. Fear causes evacuation from the body. Through fear, we trade Presence for the mental armor of pretence…It’s now not so difficult to embrace the possibility that the challenging, fearful experiences that have shadowed us from the past are all disguised opportunities for growth and gain. They are emotional fuel cells yet to be tapped. We may not have the capacity to perceive this while still perceptually bound by the effects of these causal experiences, but this possibility becomes available as we enter present moment awareness.

(The Presence Process, extracts from p188-9)

In meditation today, I worked with the Continuous Conscious Breathing and a good solid Audible Out-Breath (AOB/dragon-breathing), to open up Present Moment Awareness. It was like I could sense old memories defrosting and floating up to the surface of my awareness. As they came in to view, I could catch the old ‘felt-perception’ associated with those difficult experiences. These were from when I was 21/22 – complexities around the ‘reaction’ of friends and family to my becoming pregnant. It felt good to note the feelings that had been lodged frozen in my body…. and to do so with fresh Present Moment Awareness. I was able, I think, to integrate them. This felt like ‘sloughing’ off the emotional charge. Like the older, wiser me was saying: ‘Yes, that was tough at the time. And now we’re here.’

Thoughts today?

We want to talk to you about ‘downloads’. 

Sure.

By downloads we mean the fragments of intelligence you scoop from the etheric field as you make space in your self. The more you integrate old charged emotions, the more space you make for such downloads. 

Ah. I’ve been wondering about ‘downloads’ re certain changes and decisions ahead which have been taking time to ‘materialise’ in my head. So… it’s about making space in the system?

We’ve spoken before about ‘defragging’ the system. That’s what you are doing as, more and more successfully and consistently, through meditation, breathwork, qigong and walking, you ’embrace physical presence’ – as Michael Brown puts it so well. 

That’s encouraging to hear…

You are clearing space in your RAM and your desktop in this way. This allows more space for downloads. 

What is a download? These ‘fragments of intelligence scooped from the etheric field’? Tell me more?

The receptive mind attunes itself to infinite intelligence and meets it ‘on the high flying disc’ plane. On that plane, information is multidimensional. That means it consists not of linear ideas or statements, but of bundles of informational impressions. Does that make sense?

Yes.

So these bundles of informational impressions, when fully downloaded into the still mind, then translate into intuitive knowledge

That is so beautiful. I hear you. There is so much hear… haha typo, here. So, the still mind is my responsibility.

If you like. But it’s fairly incidental what you intend to ‘achieve’. The good stuff is pouring in all the time. 

Ok… But do I translate it in to intuitive knowledge?

As you feel safe, you will better enter your own body, and that is where you pick up and translate the intuitive knowledge. There is no rush in this work. But yes, you could enjoy ’embracing physical presence’ even more. 

I’ve got a TRE session booked today for the first time in … months?! Sounds like a good place to launch ’embracing physical presence.’ Ty – and ty MBrown.

Love and blessings to my girls, and to all upon this planet. May we all embrace our physical presence, and download perfect wellness into our systems.

I am embracing physical presence

 

 

 

Presence 42: I am safe in this body

The dragon-breathing is so good. You really feel the emotional burn, and at the same time, the elongated out-breath triggers the parasympathetic response. I employed it a lot yesterday, and overnight… It also showed me how short and shallow my breathing often is. The deal is – in order to relax, I need to be able to hear my outbreathThe AUDIBLE OUT-BREATH (or ‘AOB’): that’s my takeaway – and the new habit to develop.

I also want to share I had a sweet moment yesterday – a tiny, new insight in to what it is to love and to be in love. G was jokily teasing me that I love time on my own (away from him)… and I replied with: “I prefer being with you than being on my own, and that’s actually amazing because I really love being on my own.” Maybe that’s one simple, sweet indicator of how we (introverts or autistic beings…?) know that we love someone and are in the right relationship for us? 🙂 <3

Ok. I have a question about this ‘rising above’ notion that came up in yesterday’s dialogue – it was my beloved Mum’s wisdom. So the example is that in a Whatsapp group I’m on led by a coach, one person shared a picture of herself looking beautiful and people chimed in with words of love. The coach leading the group took a swipe at the OP when she made the comment ‘I clean up well’ – the coach accused her of coming from the masculine instead of the Queen self. The OP replied, “Ouch”.  I am torn between just adding my love for the OP, or actually replying to the Coach, and saying: “Putting a fellow woman down – in front of the friends who are celebrating her – feels more ‘Queen Bee’ than Queen to me…”. Given our conversation about not reacting, or shooting the messenger. What’s your advice? I want to stand up for the OP, who is continually being side-swiped by the Coach. But also I don’t want to get embroiled… or get any closer to the toxicity of this coach. What are the insights to pick up here?

What’s your overall aim? Is it to dispense and serve justice? Or is it to model love? In the face of rabble-rousing (aka reactive, emotionally-unintegrated, charged) behaviour from another, does the true Queen say, “Off with your head?” or “Mercy be upon you.” 

Suddenly, I see a new perspective. Rather than ‘sparring’ (aha! that word again) with the charged Coach, I could ‘model’ an uncharged response – as a conscious act of ‘mercy’. (‘But what if she doesn’t get the message?’) Que sera sera. Her loss!

It is an act of magnanimity to see someone’s faults and weaknesses and not point at them. The Coach was not magnanimous towards your friend when she perceived her as not receiving the compliments in a gracious way. Batting back an equally un-magnanimous reply (to put the Coach in her place) is an example of down-regulating to the frequency of charged person in front of you. 

We suggest you read the next few pages of The Presence Process. It’s the pre-read for Week 7. 

Ok. This has been helpful. Ty.

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INTO THE WATER

Read Before Commencing Week Seven

We activate weeks seven, eight, and nine by submerging ourselves in a bathtub of comfortably warm (not too hot) water for 15 minutes. If a bathtub isn’t available, we may enter a comfortably warm shower for 15 minutes. While in the water, we aren’t to focus on consciously connecting our breathing. Instead, we place our attention on the felt-aspect of any experience that surfaces in our awareness as a consequence of being in the warm water. As soon as we exit the water, we dry ourselves off, then attend to our regular 15-minute breathing practice. (TPP p186)

 

So we’re having a bath?? Interesting. It’s true that I haven’t submerged in water much in a long time… Not since the couple of swims this summer… And I know it’s really good for me. Hm… I also feel a bit resistant to it. Maybe because our water/bathroom is a bit cold for a comfortable bath? I’ve become v accustomed to showers. But I used to love my micro-baths. Maybe I could try it again…

Carry on with the book. Pick up the phrase for Week 7.

Ok, hang on… [page 188]. Aw…that’s so nice. Yes. I hear ya…

WEEK 7

Our Conscious Response for the Next Seven Days is:

“I FEEL SAFE NOW”

Why does someone sideswipe at another? Because they don’t feel safe. 

Why does someone spar with another? Because they don’t feel safe. 

Why does someone lunge at another? Because they don’t feel safe. 

 Why does someone act in an unfair/unreasonable manner? Because they don’t feel safe.

Why does someone act as though they don’t care? Because they don’t feel safe. 

If and when I really stand back…

and hold yourself in complete safety…

then I can see that the other person is just responding to their own sense of feeling unsafe. Understandable if they are carrying around charged emotions from unintegrated childhood experiences.

In fact, people’s lunging behaviour is frankly the normalest thing in the world! Because in general, we aren’t taught how to integrate the childhood experiences. So everyone is walking round with bags of charged baggage attached to their belts.

We used to have Church/Religion/Manners to cause us to conform to certain behaviours to make us reasonably capably of entering society… but we were split in half by acting well, while simultaneously suppressing/repressing the charged emotions. And the outcomes were NOT pretty. For any of us bifurcated beings… And the ensuing shame, grief and loss – when our charged emotions overcame and outmanoeuvred  our societal mask – was real.

So, how best can I work with this now?

Work with your sense of safety, today and all week. Count all the ways in which you know yourself to be safe. Just as you discerned the truth of your love for G by observing the balance of your pleasure in his company… discern the signs of your complete safety in this world. And dwell upon them. With full embodiment. Let your body know you are safe. 

I’m doing TRE with Deborah tomorrow. That’s good timing for all this…

If you could see how held, how protected, how safe you truly are in this world, your relief would be so immense, that your long out-breath of release would create ripples of peace across the world. 

This is all so different from ‘rising above’ what’s going on, though the effect is the same. It’s just taking a different route. ‘Rising above’ feels risky, like you might fall in the broiling waters at any moment. Affirming your sense of safety is like standing on firm ground and feeling the sun on your face. 

Dragon-breathe this: I am safe in this body. 

Interesting. Ok. I’ll work with that. Thank you.

I am safe in this body