Month: November 2018

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MEDS Day 37: Today I am embodying new frequencies

‘Activating avatars’ is a fascinating concept and I loved working with it yesterday. In the end, there was just one avatar that arose for me, and it turned out to be ‘Warrior’. I’m a bit bashful about writing the word, I notice… maybe because it feels so unlike the peaceful (‘agreeable’) persona I tout for myself?! However, yesterday was about bouncing back from the stalky harassment texts I had received, in the shields-up spirit of “Defence against the dark arts, Harry”; and going for a blood test to check on my health data; and getting professional work done (working along a cherished work-buddy (LV)); and enjoying Dia de Muertos with my family… Damn right that Warrior {My Name} should download herself!

As Warrior {My Name}  I felt the sensation of the straightening of my spine; the defending of my auric field; the projection of strong yet loving energy outward; the clear aim to work expediently (with the end in view) without allowing disruption, distraction, deviation. And… remarkably… I felt others responding to my state. Let me just let myself let that sink in… Yes. At the co-working office, people backed away from distracting me; people recalibrated to my state…. It wasn’t like they stepped back because ‘they could see me frantically trying to focus’ – as I’ve always hoped would be the effect of my furrowed brow. No! “Frantically trying to focus’ is a state that actually, I realise, attracts the ‘attention-seeking butterflies’. Wow. It really is our inside that that counts. 

So if yesterday was about activating the avatar ‘Warrior Me’, what avatar shall we activate today?

How did you access and download the ‘Warrior’ avatar?

Through doing a few minutes of kneeling prayer, qigong, and energetic alignment exercises.

There you go. The learning here is that the activation of new states is (especially for you) a kinaesthetic process, rather than an intellectual, static, thought-based one. Remember: this avatar-activation work is about the embodiment of new frequencies, new frequencies which are seeking to anchor on earth via such receptive souls as are committed enough to doing the requisite energetic protection work to make such frequency-downloading safe. 

Oh Lordy. Can’t believe I’m writing this… Deep breaths. Yes. Thank you. I hear you. This is it, indeed.

And this explains to you why you are actually undertaking the MEDS Project: so that your mind and body state can be brought sufficiently in to alignment, stability and attunement that the human vessel is fit to do the frequency-embodiment work at hand. 

Woah. Really?! It’s not just about weight-loss, clothes fitting, professional credibility, and being well enough to work and live happily…?

Is that what you had thought?

Not really. It just felt like I needed to get on top of my health, to be able to function better in the world: work full-time; be a loving partner and family member; enjoy some travel and adventure.

And all of that is true. Your happiness and joyfulness and inner peace is exactly resonant with the ‘new’ frequency which we are promulgating on the planet. How you get there, and how you learn to embody that frequency, is part of the fun. As your mother always said, “It’s got to be fun.” Why? Creation is awe-inspiring. You know you’re truly creating (which is the key activity, trait and aspect of The Creator) when you feel lightness / tickled / joy-pride-awe. We are teaching you to spin the plates of happiness and be joyfully, laughingly occupied with keeping them spinning. This is the fun of creation. This is the path to, and from, peace. This is the high-frequency state of healing, growth and completion. 

Completion? Does creativity or creation ever complete itself?

The answer to that depends whether you ‘believe’ in linear time. If there is only ‘now’, glorious completion is all there is. The illusion of linear time is a gift of consciousness which precisely allows you to experience the delicious sensation of unfurling, blossoming, growing, bringing-into-being, ‘creating’…

‘Be still and know that you are God.’ We are all creators creating, so that we can know our divine essence, right? Or so that the divine can know itself?

If you like. Need there be a ‘so that’? (‘O reason not the need’…) You can apply logic and reasoning, but equally, you are invited to revel in the unfathomable unreasonableness of creation, and flow with it, wide-eyed and astonished by where it takes you next.

So who does the creating… ‘Creation’ or my creative mind?

Need there be a creator/created duality? 

Ooooooh…. Ha. You’re good. I’m getting it. Unstick the mind, which is obsessed by seeking to impose a logic of A + B = C. And just let A B C fill us with joy. Something like that?

Something like that. Enough for today?

Yes. Awesome. Um, theme for the day? Something more on activating avatars maybe, after doing another ‘few minutes of kneeling prayer, qigong, and energetic alignment exercises’ perhaps?

Lovely. Today is about embodiment. It’s about getting into the body. And anchoring new frequencies.

I’ve got a lot of seated computer work to do today…

All the more appealing then. 

Argh… Ok. Thank you. Warrior Me can do this.

Today I am embodying new frequencies.

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Meditation:

20 mins of MEDITATION? YES 

Exercise:

ONE HOUR OF EXERCISE? YES – walking in sunshine

#STEPS 

Diet:

BRAIN-MAKER DIET? NEARLY

DRY today? NO

MORNING: coffee with cream and half tsp honey, muesli, parsnip soup, steamed green veg, cheese, mayo

EVENING: veg, soup, chicken breast, G&T

Sleep:

IN BED WITH MY BOOKS BY 10pm? NO – got rather carried away online

Screens off:    12      Lights out: 12

Wake up the next day:           7.30         Total sleep: 7.5h
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MEDS Day 36: Today I am activating avatars

I sometimes feel that when I draw myself up to really move forward (and act expediently), I attract the most out-there balancing (or draining) forces… So yesterday, I spent the rest of the morning drawing up a wall of posters about connecting with those 12 Cherished Clients. It was brilliant and I felt so positive and clear and uplifted. I came back to my room from getting some lunch, and picked up my phone (to google the lyrics for Hey Jude – specifically I wanted the phrase, ‘Take a sad song and make it better’ which had been playing in my head around the theme of the conflict resolution work…) I was on a positive roll, with the End In View. There, on my phone, were two really unpleasant and intimidating messages from a person who had found my number and originally messaged me in a seemingly concerned and friendly manner after my TV appearance earlier in the month. It completely threw me. I could go into it all now, but this person took enough of my valuable energy yesterday (and during the night). So, no. Not now.

After an afternoon of crying, lamenting and seeking advice from the national stalking helpine etc, I spent some time listening to Laura Eisenhower last night, and on her advice around grounding, rooting and anchoring ourselves, using our creativity and unique voice, and holding ourselves in our sovereignty, in order that we might (safely and effectively) participate in the work of bringing forward unity consciousness. I do feel that I do need to learn/assimilate really good grounding and energetic protection techniques. I’ve studied this over the years and go in waves of practising it… I don’t find it an enjoyable use of time, like some might do…. But that’s probably because I haven’t been tuned in enough to what it actually does. I’ve always wanted to believe we live in a benign world. And that may well be true – as long as you go along with the terms of quarantine. But maybe we can’t participate in the unfolding of the peaceful new without attracting the attention, dismay and disruptive intervention of the old. 

I liked the ideas I mulled over yesterday, about our simply picking certain versions of our self out of the unified field with our thoughts. If you can imagine it, it is activated, right? The guy behind the nasty messages actively tried to trigger certain self-images… quite powerfully. Interesting. But we have choice. We can pick out and activate any image/version of our self from the quantum, zero-point, timeless universe, and bring it in to the Now, right?

Any. Version. You. Like. 

Cool. I thought so. How?

Remember that game you so enjoy: ‘Acting As If’? But this time it’s, in a sense, ‘Being As If’. You select the positive state you wish to play with, and you download it in to your operating system for a while. You affirm this with internal statements using your name.

An example would be: “I am ATHLETE [your name]” – and you can just be that person for a while. Then another positive state will come to mind, and you ‘download’ that new one, maybe with an anchoring gesture… and make your new statement. eg “I am ACHIEVER / HEALER / COMEDIAN / ANGEL / DANCER / BIG-HEARTED / PEACEMAKER / ENERGISED [your name]” It should feel flowing and fun. In these exercises, you are disrupting the old sleeping versions of yourself, as much as integrating new potential versions of you. 

We call these various self-versions ‘avatars’. 

Let me check an online definition of ‘avatar’:

“Generally speaking, an avatar is the embodiment of a person or idea. However, in the computer world, an avatar specifically refers to a character that represents an online user.” (Ref) 

Interesting…! Especially in terms of my thinking about notions of our played-out life being akin to playing a character in an online game… And yes, the embodiment of IDEAS. I shall play this game today… It’s Dia de Muertos too, so I shall also play PSYCHOPOMP [my name]. This game is about exercising my will. I like it. My anchoring gesture will be: hands on heart, to receive the download.

Keep grounded, anchored and rooted above all else. This is not about floating away in imagination. It is precisely about the embodiment of chosen states. Think more of ‘activating’ the avatars, than playing them. This is not ‘acting’ any more. This is about inhabiting your higher frequency personhood.

Excuse me?

Blessed are the cheesemakers… 

Ok. I hear you. May we all be blessed, may we all be protected, may we all inhabit our highest frequency, and may we all gently learn how this all works.

Today I am activating avatars.

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Meditation:

20 mins of MEDITATION? No – maybe 10, of grounding / prayer

Exercise:

ONE HOUR OF EXERCISE? YES – gentle walking to/from work

#STEPS: 6500

Diet:

BRAIN-MAKER DIET? NEARLY

DRY today? NO – one lager tinny

MORNING: My muesli, probiotic, iron/vit c supplement, quorn stew

EVENING: Mexican feast for Dia de Muertos – chicken, tortillas (GF but carby), guac, pico de gallo, black beans, non-diary ice cream (sugar)

I want to report on my gut health… I’ve been taking probiotics and vitamins for a week or so now, and really cutting down on the carbs (which exacerbate gut candida)… and suddenly in the last couple of days (after my period and a bad cold), my gut is starting to… purge. It’s like it’s really functioning better and managing to clear my system more thoroughly. I’m feeling less bloated, and I’ve maybe lost a couple of pounds of weight. I can see that, if I start to add proper exercise, and master my sleep, I could really get energy back again. I need to remember that the gut is the key to my wellbeing.

Sleep:

IN BED WITH MY BOOKS BY 10pm? NO – got home late from lovely Dia de Muertos evening… abit revved up

Screens off:     1am     Lights out: 1am

Wake up the next day:            7.30am        Total sleep: 6.5h.