After the Peak Project I decided I needed to spend less time on these Dialogues of Discernment which were anyway for my eyes only, and repurpose my time and my writing impulses to my professional blog, where I could write about conflict resolution, and be more useful with my writing. But within a few days, the urge to write here became too strong, and I heard, ‘Sometimes we need to talk to you in private.’ And so, I returned here for consolation and guidance. BUT, several weeks in, I heard, ‘Pivot! It’s ‘Pivot’ not ‘Private’.’ And the Private dialogues summarily became the Pivot project. In this project, I sought to find the Autistic Zen Zone which would best give rest and nourishment to my beautiful Aspie brain. This led me to studying Zen Mind Beginner’s Mind as a thread through this project. What a good basis that went on to become, when our days of busy whirlwind productivity came to a grinding halt as the coronavirus pandemic changed life for everyone across the globe. Welcome to the Pivot Project (aka Private).
Know that you are so deeply loved. If you could but comprehend the amount of love that flows from Source to You at any one second you would keel over. Your task across a life time – this goes for all humans – is to develop the capacity to recognise your own perfect lovableness. Yes, even though xyzabc123… Yes, in spite of and because of allllll those wonderful aspects of your humanity. Fallen angels all. The Fall from Grace was designed to give you each the immense gift of feeling, experiencing and bathing in the recognition that you were never of the unforgiven. Can you comprehend that? This is the purpose of this journey: to discover your perfection was intact all along. Because once you really see how perfect you are, you will melt into a thousand tears of acceptance, recognition and joy.
Beautiful. Thank you. What does this mean for us on a day to day basis?
In every activity, recognise you can take one of two perspectives:
I am in the wrong here and must do something to make up for the deficit
Here I am in perfect completeness
Try it.
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Later:
TFW I am so deeply loved then everyone else I meet is too…. Hello person on the street – you are so deeply loved. Hello funny colleague of mine – you are so deeply loved.
As AT carry on with the AT.com blogging DoDs along 3 tracks (and develop workshops), and – ooh interesting option – book December OUT for Carnival and Typesetting/Self-publishing the 3 books:
My new MEDS – tools for mental wellbeing
Good Chat – tools for having better conversations
CoDialogues – tools for facilitating dialogues
What do you say?
“9.04.44am”
🙂 Ty. Is this really the case?
Share tools – for fun, for learning, for discernment, for freedom, for relief…! To stop ‘impressing’ others – ah, what blessed relief you will feel this year as you leave ‘impressing’ behind. Impressing yourself on others has exhausted and saddened you. Offering up tools is a different matter: it’s like being the person standing on the roadside at a marathon holding out cups of water to passing runners – those runners who do need water will scoop a cup up gratefully and run on; those who don’t will pass by…but still be touched and encouraged by the support. Do you see? This is what you have wanted for so long! This is freedom from self-doubt, because there is an abundance to sharing tools freely!
Re DoDs Ltd – ASK what your options are! Learn about running companies, once and for all!
And for now…?
Be of the positive 1% on this planet, and be playful about it. Play gently with the idea that nothing ‘matters’ because there is no ‘matter’. Relax, loosen up, play nicely – and in this way will you generate upflow for the planet and the people around you. Upflow is the stimulation of frequencies of joy, relief, confidence, courage, optimism, determination, acceptance and receiving. It is hopping on the high-flying disc and letting it carry you across marvellous landscapes like a magic rug in heaven!
Be of the playfully positive 1%
Next day:
Prayer.
May I fly high in playfulness today and be commited to sharing my tools with others. May I throw myself into the generosity of this work. May I play nicely all day long with spirit and joy. May I commit to SPEAKING TO OTHERS (via email) with freedom, clarity and TRUTH. Bless Nicci on this day. Bless Roy. Bless all our family. Peace upon this planet. Amen.
Thank you. I appreciate – and want – this. Please go ahead. May God help me listen and respond. May my heart and mind resonate with you, highest power of my being.
You are tired. This needs to stop. You need to refresh yourself.
How should I do this?
By kvelling over yourself. By being proud of yourself. By acting in ways that make you proud of your days. You have been learning about rewards, and motivation. You are learning, now at this important time in your life, to summon your Will for good.
My mindfulness work and habit trackers are helping me with this. I’ve been thinking again about magic morning routines.
Yes! The river forms new pathways through rock by the soft daily chafing of its waters.
I can energise myself to form habits.
Form habits of immaculate self-care, so that you feel free and liberated by afternoon-time to be the creative soul you are! Your mission this year is to ‘share tools’. This requires the creation of pools of empty space for writing, filming, posting. To create pools of empty space, you need rigorous morning routines of self-care so that you can really bask in the peace and creativity and focus of the afternoon.
What are the Magic Morning habits? Please share them with me while simultaneously granting me the understanding of Rewards, so that I can summon by best morning energy to undertake the routine activities which will support creative, connected, tool-sharey afternoons.
MEDSAN Morning Offices of immaculate self-care – in any order/timings
[Kitchen (you tidied up the night before)]
QT – private! this is your summoning time! your prayer time! (Medsan)
Reward for the morning: Sit down at 12 midday for creative / client work of sharing tools – which will result in the ‘mutual positive regard’ you are actually nourished by.
Reward for the afternoon: An evening of delicious food, relaxation, socialising, media, social media and unwinding for the next day.
***20minMed – healing, prayer, connection***
Thank you for the reconnection to prayer… It’s so physical. Please God, may I absorb this knowing…
A directed morning of MEDSAN Morning Offices
is rewarded by
a creative, connected afternoon of ‘mutual positive regard’
is rewarded by
an evening of unwinding, receiving, being with loved ones.
Grant me power in my system to perform the MEDAN Morning Offices.
MEDSAN Morning Offices of immaculate self-care – in any order/timings
Med: QT – this is the summoning time / prayer time
Ex: Walk + qigong
Diet: Brunch + Lunch prep + Supps + Kitchen tidy
Shower: Shower + Dress + Laundry/Room tidy
Admin: MBAdmin – comms + finances
Network: Website / brochures / marketing
And now we are rooted
Reward for the morning: Rooted now, I sit down at 12 midday for creative / client work of sharing tools – which will result in the ‘mutual positive regard’ you are actually nourished by.
Reward for the afternoon: An evening of delicious food, relaxation, socialising, media, social media and unwinding for the next day.
