Tenderise my heart, oh Source of my Being. Let me be courageous enough to sit in present moment awareness and feel these feelings of grief that are rumbling through me like bolts of electricity. Ease my troubled heart.
Sit tight, dear Soul. Watch your breath come in and out, and keep your focus on your heart. 10 mins.
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Ty. I’m glad you encouraged me to do that. That was 10 minutes of being present to the discomfort of fear, anger and grief in my heart. But now I know my turbulent underlying emotional state, I can be more careful and compassionate with myself.
Last night, I didn’t turn my light off til 2am – and lay in bed scrolling through Instagram reels. I knew why. To stop and lie in darkness would be to feel the pain in my heart about my darling Dad.
So, controlled ‘detonations’ of those buried feelings, via compassionate mindfulness practice, is a helpful practice.
Yes. I’m less likely to create ‘noise’ to avoid those feelings if I am consciously sitting with them once a day.
Combined with daily qigong (for breathing, processing and TRE), this 10 minutes of mindfulness once a day will bolster you in the weeks and months to come.
What do I need to know today?
You need to know that you are loved. You need to know that there is time – time to communicate, time to heal, time to create new interpersonal memories. This is going to be a beautiful time of connection for your family – just as it was when your beloved Mum made her departure. In your exquisite grief and confusion, you came to know and love each other more truly, more deeply, more authentically. Know that this is a given. And, in softness and love, we dare you even to relish that knowing. Welcome and embrace this time of connectedness, of simple, uncomplicated, loving focus upon your father. If you can be content with simply laser beaming love upon your father, then you can receive the learning, the ‘benefit’, the healing waters of this time ahead. Just love him – simply, softly, lucidly.
Yes, if I take my eyes off my own grief, and instead place them on him and on my love for him, life becomes simpler, and suddenly more joyful again.
Focus on loving your father in simple, direct ways. In your words, your actions, your prayers. This relationship is energetic as much as anything else. It is vibrational. It is telepathic. Keep communicating simple love. Uncomplicated, simple love. Keep the psychic messages simple. He will feel them, whatever it is you are projecting… So we invite you to remove some of the jolting sadness and anticipatory grief… And focus on communicating love in the simplest, purest form.
And this practice will affect your other relationships too. You will indeed learn to moderate the complexity of your desires and ‘concerns’, and thereby reduce some of the static noise and psychic interference in your relationships.
You will simply say: “Yes, I love you.”
And that will be enough, in all instances. To the complex colleague, to the challenging client, to the adored loved one, to the difficult acquaintance…. there will be one simple message: Yes, I love you.
And in that moment, the need to offer more recedes… The need to people-please, or filter judgements, or moderate responses, or over-service, or even set boundaries – it all starts to recede.
In saying “Yes, I love you” – no more, no less – you are taking a huge leap of faith. You are practising trusting in the fact that it is not so much our words or doings, as the quality of our feelings telepathically and vibrationally exchanged, that sets the true tone of our relationship.
There is a person (colleague) I think/speak ill of…. without telling them. Am I creating vibrationally glitches for myself and them?
You will certainly do better to find the place in your heart where you can say, ‘Yes, I love you’ – and be truthful with that person about ‘what would make life more wonderful for you.’
So start with love.
Start with love.
I am saying “Yes, I love you.” Oh it feels so clean, so simple. Such a relief. There is a clear ‘no more, no less’ quality to this thought-state.
“Darling Dad. Yes, I love you.”
It was my brother yesterday who underlined this for me too. “Just tell him you love him.”
He is a wise one, that young man.
Indeed. Grant me the simplicity and power of that head- and heart-space of “Yes, I love you” passim. Amen.
I am saying “Yes, I love you.”