Yesterday was a momentous and magical day. My Beloved and I have spent the morning deep in conversation. And now he has gone to work and the rest of the day looks at me expectantly… I’m struggling to focus in on it. What is your message for me today?
Be gentle to yourself and to others today.
Yes, that does feel right… Why?
It is easy for us to run away with ourselves, precisely at the moment when maximum gentleness is required. There are matters which are processing themselves. Give them space to do so.
I feel a bit stuck.. in terms of picking up the day. (It’s 1pm, and I can feel the build up of Stuff To Do.)
You pick up the day from this perfect moment, with extreme gentleness towards self and others. You are doing beautifully. Touch lightly upon your MEDS today. Let them incorporate in to the rest of your life, softly. Let them become the foundation for the Stuff To Do.
OK. I’ll just do 10 mins of Med and 10 mins of Qigong, and make a cup of tea, and sit down to work. Gently does it.
Today, I am being gentle to myself and to others.
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Evening’s record of the day:
Meditation:
Beautiful. When invited to gather up old unwanted habits, I (somewhat unexpectedly) found ‘rage’ arising for clearing (rage as in dismay, negativity, attachment to stories of pity and victimhood). And the new habits to develop? Simplicity, appreciation, positivity, gratitude and joyfulness. Lovely.
Exercise:
Invigorating. Some good yang energy coming through. The word vitality standing out. A desire to ‘stand on my own two feet’.
Diet:
- Coffee with cream.
- Brunch: Sausage, egg, rice.
- Snack: Celery, cheese, nuts, tea, square of choc
- Evening: Chicken stir fry and noodles. Tiny bit of ice cream. ?
- Late night diversion via petrol station: 2 x G&T, bag of Bombay Mix (fell at the last hurdle)
- Checked weight: I’m putting on weight not losing it… (Maybe because ‘high-fat-high-carb’ is not a successful diet protocol… :/)
Sleep:
- Screens off: 12.25am
- Lights out: 12.40am
- Wake up the next day: 8.40am (alarm) – awake with anxiety for an hour in the night
- Total sleep: 7 hours – ok
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‘Gentleness to myself’ gave me scope to delay decisions when my prefrontal cortex (and therefore executive functioning) had frozen over with anxiety yesterday. ‘Gentleness to others’ reminded me not to withdraw or close off. Thank you for the softness of this exercise. Grant me patience at this time.