MEDS Day 59: Today I am preparing to plunge [key post]

I am grateful for yesterday’s….

• Download Hour – yes, it really hits the spot… Downloading what? ‘The Frequency of Love’ – say what? Yes… We have to get both still and active for Love to rest and bloom in our systems.
• Saying “My Time Is My Own” – the main upshot was that I felt permitted to do whatever I felt led and inclined to do. I stopped thinking: “This is fun… I should stop it, and do ‘work’.” Instead, I revelled in being my own boss, and in doing everything that arose for me to do across the day. I stopped feeling like the ‘horse with the slapped arse’, running according to another’s ‘urgent’ wishes. (There’s a history here…!)
• Seeing some loved ones move into their new house in the evening, and celebrating with them.

What is the lesson for today? I’m receptive. Things are moving beautifully. Yet, there are still some things I’m not progressing, or on top of… Reorientate me, dear Soul. Remind me why I am here and what is important. Show me how to ‘Clear The Decks’. Settle me into the Work you would have me do.

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Sweet. I felt inclined to go to YouTube, and this popped up almost immediately. Spot on.  I love Collective Evolution – over the years their posts have provoked much thoughtful consideration in me. Here (20 seconds in), the founder, Joe mentions that using the Law of Attraction was behind much of the development of CE, but that crucially he was “tapping into ‘what is best for me and the collective and serving the collective’, not what was ‘best for just me’.” He asked, “How can I best serve? What is my role and how do I play within the collective and helping the collective move forward and evolve?” And then,  “I would tap into that subtle energy, and I would pay attention to that subtle knowing… I would create what my heart knows what to do.. Not what your mind would say, “Yeah, I’d love to have that.” What if your heart would have something different? Your heart is a lot more ‘who you are’… If you heart wants this, and your soul is here for this, your soul’s going to put in barriers for what your mind is asking for..” Oh, I can’t transcribe it all. Listen to it if you like. It’s 3 mins.

Ok, so… Joe’s questions, to myself:

What is best for me, and the collective, and serving the collective? How can I best serve? What is my role and how do I play with the collective and helping the collective move forward and evolve?

Do you really want to know? 

Yes, please. At a level I can understand, and crucially, act upon. Prayerfully, humbly, I call on highest knowing and intelligence to guide and reorientate me towards service to the collective.

Your heart is directed outwards.

Is that a good thing?

Your mind is directed inwards. Hence the ‘stand-off’. 

What? Do you mean that my mind is kind of ‘selfish’ and my heart is less so, and that they are at odds with eachother in a kind of deadlocked negotiation?

Until your mind trusts your heart, you will move forward only incrementally. 

Agh! Yes. I KNOW it to be true. I act in a careful, cautious, circumspect manner… ‘tempering’ heart and mind…

…and diluting the passion that is in you to come forward. 

Crumbs. How do I overcome this? How do I encourage my mind to get behind my heart.

First you help your heart to articulate itself. Which you are doing right here. Well done. 

Cool. Good. Then?

Then you take some bold, heart-led steps, acknowledging to your mind that it has issued warnings, and that a period of reflection will later ensue to see if its warnings were in fact vindicated.

The idea being that the heart will be proved right?

Always. 

So, bold, heart-led steps such as…?

Why not ask your Heart?

Dear Heart, what would you have me do, be or say, in our mission to be of service to the collective and its beautiful, roller-coastering, unstoppable evolution?

Heart: Get a little bit quieter… So much talk and chat and banter and giving away energy to the ether. 

That I did not expect to be your answer. It’s true. I put a lot of chat out there… It’s also how I think I will give myself financial security. It’s called networking, marketing, business development…

Heart: Only if your mission lies in the hands of another. Which it does not. No one’s does. 

So..? What is this mission?

Heart: The author of the Starseeds book mentioned that there are two important strands of work: teaching and healing. You are called to teach.

I feel self-conscious now…

Heart: Yes, because your ego is interpreting this last statement as being some kind of promotion, or status-raising. It’s not. Everyone needs to get busy playing their part. Not to play one’s part is a dereliction of duty. 

Oof. Ok. Teach what?

Heart: We’ve covered this before at length. Teach Peace. 

We did cover this before in earlier dialogues. It’s true. (See 2017/8)

• LeaRN &
• TeacH
• PeacE

Good. So back to basics, please. How?

Heart: By example.

Yikes. As in “I am at peace”?

Heart: Good. What is ‘peace’?

[Pause] Your question made me inclined to look up ‘Zen’ – yesterday I glimpsed somewhere a definition of Zen’s main tenet described as ‘non-being’. A quick google took me to https://zenpeacemakers.org/ Nice!

Heart: Dear Soul… you don’t need to join a group. But you can be inspired by it. What is your actual calling? 

Dialogue. Dialogues of Discernment. I want to have dialogues, I want to encourage others to have dialogues. I want to capture dialogues. I want to raise people up and show/share their immense wisdom. So many people helped me recover my mental health in 2015-2018. I wanted to interview them, and put the dialogues out there. I wanted to learn how to make videos this quarter. I want to travel the world dialoguing. I want to show how we can all be happy, and resolve the most intractable difficulties, by wisely-held or wisely-guided conversations. I want to reveal how, when our hearts are focussed on unity, on love, on peace, on light… we can discern all things through dialogue, both between ourselves and others, and between ourselves and our own inner knowing, as we’re doing here. I want to encourage others to self-heal and self-care by dialoguing with their wisest selves and by trusting that open dialogue with another might just help. I want to support people to spring themselves from seemingly impossible stuckness by daring to dialogue. I want to find my own confidence to have and to hold those dialogues! I want to understand the technology to do this stuff! I want to travel and meet people. I want my Love to join me too, if he would like that. I want to feel in flow, in joy, in my salsa. I want to revel in friendship, and in the joy of bringing people’s brilliant, unheard voices to new ears. I want no longer to wait for the permission-giving of others. I want to be like the late Bernie Glassman, Co-Founder of Zen Peacemakers Intl , and ‘plunge‘:

One of Bernie Glassman’s favorite koans asks: Where do you step from the top of a 100-foot pole? His answer seemed to be: You plunge. (Ref)

Heart: Plunge, you say?! Off the 100-foot pole…?! What would that look like? 

Setting up DoDs Ltd. A social enterprise. Mission: to teach peace through dialogue.

Heart: Do it. Anything else you need to know? 

But…

Heart: You said ‘plunge’. Prepare for the sense of freefall. Just brace yourself for the feeling of it. Trust in the parachute. 

Today I am preparing to plunge

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