Category: The Peak Project

I like the Love’s Ambassador game. Catching the Now state is not at all easy, but just tapping into that stillness, so that an awareness of love can be present, is a good-feeling practice.

This morning I saw a short film of the Dalai Llama answering a girl’s question to him: ‘What would be your one piece of advice to the children of America?’ His reply was to develop both a ‘ sharp brain’ and a ‘warm heart’ in equal measure. Beautiful. Your thoughts on this?

Good morning, dear soul. Your company is always welcome here. The ‘warm-hearted’ aspect settles right into the previous conversations about being present and slipping into the role of ‘Love’s Ambassador’. Can you feel your heart in the ‘warm’ state?

I can! I know exactly the physical shift I feel when I move into the warm-hearted state. It’s different to being ‘open-hearted’. There’s a particular kindness, compassion and….an easeful ‘tolerance’ to all that is, including the stuff the mind is trying to label as ‘wrong’, ‘stupid’, ‘treacherous’.

You can observe the mind labelling, and still steady the heart so that it should not close down or flee. It’s a very accepting state, isn’t it?

Yes, and it brings me relief because I don’t need to change, remedy or correct anything in that state. I can love everything exactly as it is: not because I am ignoring imperfections, but because any perceived outer imperfections do not threaten my inner stability. They don’t trigger my amygdala, I guess.

Aha! Beautiful. Yes, the warm-hearted state disarms the amygdala. It’s a profoundly self-soothing state. It gets ahead of the game of reactivity, by decreeing everything as acceptable and lovable before it even arises.

‘Whatever arises, love that’, says Matt Kahn.

Matt Kahn also talks about becoming ‘heart-centred’. The feeling of warm-heartedness is a stepping-stone to becoming heart-centred.

What does ‘heart-centred’ mean?

Heart-centred means ‘governed by the heart’.

As opposed to the mind?

It’s not quite one or the other. You see, the heart would never take a unilateral approach. The heart is always considerate of the mind. The mind however, in a governing role, often squeezes the heart out.

And what does ‘governing’ mean in this context?

Setting the goals, policies, principles upon which decisions are made, and actions set.

Performing the sovereign role.

Would the Mind act as dictator, and the Heart as consultative leader?

The Heart facilitates an overall state of wellbeing, balance and harmony. That is its aim. Whereas the Mind undertakes to perform actions for the sake of stated outcomes. ‘The end justifies the means’ would be its approach.

The warm Heart keeps a hand on the rudder of the sailing boat to ensure steadiness of motion forward towards an overall destination.

The Mind hops off the wind-powered boat to take the petrol-powered jet ski to the destination instead. It’s super fast, but it may stir up deep waters, leave pollution, frighten off the wildlife, run out of fuel halfway there, annoy other water-users, bump into swimmers…

Yes! This I can relate to. When I get into a Mind-governed state, I feel my heart harden over (partly in self-protection, partly to silence its voice), and I go into super-drive.

How best shall I remain in the ‘warm-hearted’ state today?

Place you hand on your sternum from time to time, and feel the ‘reading’ you get. Check in with your heart mentally too, especially when you’re talking to another. Lead with softness when you go into a new situation. Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. Observe feelings arising, and invite them in – don’t flee from them or shut them down. Let discomfort, fear, anxiety be present and welcome, should they arise. Don’t dismiss any emotions arising. Connect upwards. Lean forwards into your day, heart first. Use your breath as an anchor, breathing into your heart to let yourself grow warm-hearted, organically and at the heart’s own pace.

Thank you. I like this exercise.

And it likes you.

I am growing warm-hearted

Shocking anxiety and cortisol flooding this morning from 5.45am. What’s the easiest way to settle myself? I used ‘the easiest way’ yesterday and it definitely helped me reduce some extra wheel spinning, but I still have a massive amount to do today. I feel overwhelmed by deadlines.

Do the things. Be ahead of the game. Make life easy for yourself by having things prepped early. Avoid last minute rushes – they make you ill. Prep wayyyyyyy in advance.

But I’m a reflector – I like to use all the available time to mull things over before I commit and finalise the things.

Make an imperfect draft ridiculously way in advance. Mull it over and then tweak and finalise way in advance.

Remember your colleague David?: “I’m a prepper.” Be like David.

The phrase: “I’m fully prepared” is your personal ticket to cortisol step-down. It’s your way of mastering the time-space reality and imprinting ‘I am in control’ upon it. Make an inner shout-out about being prepared!

We know. You secretly associate ‘swots’ (and Girl Guides) with ‘being prepared’. A reading error on your part. It’s ok. Those ‘swots’ are basking in the comfort of their wellbeing. They have an inner peace and tranquillity you have deemed yourself unworthy of. You are worthy of inner peace and tranquillity. And what is more, only when you work from a place of inner peace and tranquillity can you really be a channel for peace and love. If you want to serve and radiate love, you need first to serve yourself (grant yourself the gift of feeling prepared and on top of things) and radiate calming love to yourself. If not, you are going about the world sending out mixed signals.

Say: ‘I am prepared’ and feel it’s warmth. If you want you can take actual photos of your preparedness, to reinforce for your subconscious mind that preparedness is something you achieve the whole, darn time – and you’re really good at it.

Remember: a super early Draft 1, with later revision and amends to creat your Final version, is a really good use of your reflector traits.

Awesome. That feels better already. I know that if I keep saying “I am prepared” my inner self will let me know anything outstanding for doing to get to be 100% prepared. Let’s try it today.

PS. I might cancel my evening plans today to get fully prepared for my London trip tomorrow, because preparedness => inner peace => inner coherence.

 

I am prepared

 

• Aha! Dropping from the active, intellectual, outward-looking state into the gnostic, heart-listening, inward-looking state IS TO SWITCH STATE FROM 3D TO 5D. ? I can sustain it for seconds at a time. It can be prompted by proper/pure/simplest meditation, or if easier, by time settled quietly in the contemplative state.
• Naturally, it seems, just like yesterday… embarking on good feeling / doing work catapulted me into an ego tangle where I got cross and resentful towards seomone else. I (sensibly ✅) took myself off on a bike ride to process feelings and listen to first funny and then uplifting podcasts while riding. A podcast from Drukama Radio (via Insight Timer app) on insight meditation helped me 1) be with the feelings and 2) ‘turn over the pebble‘ of my emotions to see what (helpful treasure) was underneath, which turned out to be this:

Playing powerless – and then lamenting my powerlessness

Yes! This is a pattern in me! So true. Not quite sure why it’s there but for now I’m just going to observe this little tendency of my mind with compassion and light curiosity.

Consideration the next day that perhaps the above scenario (stumble -> insight) is exactly how the gnostic faculties work best. Or even better described: 1) kick toe on pebble 2) turn over pebble to get the treasure from under it.

Is there a way of getting insight without stubbing one’s toe?

Yes, if the awareness is alert enough to catch sight of the pebble before the toe hits it.

I read something this morning about how the brains of humans (and rats) are ‘novelty-seeking machines’. I think that’s very true for me and helps me understand why I keep pushing forward beyond my body’s natural energy/tiredness boundaries. I get stimulatory relief from newness; and I cower from repetitive activities. But unless I stop reinventing my own wheel, and admit peak innovation, I’m going to run out of steam.

Would you like to turn that pebble over and have a look?

Yes. … … …. Perfectionism. If I never have to complete or optimise the last thing, I needn’t worry about its flaws.

Almost.

Dopamine… I get a dopamine kick from novelty.

True.

I could get a dopamine kick from doing the same thing over and over, really well.

Possibly. What’s your main goal?

At the moment, to earn sustainable amounts of money without exhausting myself. It’s that time/money thing.

Maybe this is why I keep ‘mixing it up’: I never give myself credit for a job well done. I always self-criticise, so I never feel I’ve ‘arrived’.

Spot on. For example, you performed something life-changing for clients DS and CS, but you didn’t credit yourself with the achievement – because IT FELT TOO EASY. It didn’t feel like real work because it flowed so naturally. To you, real work uses all your adrenaline. For example, giving training: you get the buzz of the performance but you also get days of exhaustion afterwards. The client work is subtler, less jazz-handy, very private/intimate, highly effective in terms of STO.

Please dear God may I turn my website round with Project Three Jams this week, in which I advertise a mere three products on my website.

1. Remote client work
2. 1 day training
3. 2 day training

I added up my bookings for 19/20 and today towards the end of Q1 they stand at a wonderful figure compared to last year but if I’m honest, less than I can sustain considering the amount of energy they are asking of me. Little bits and bobs here and there, with too much travel. I need to sit tight and just do the work that my physiology can stand, even if that means turning away the exhausting tiddler jobs my innovation-seeking brain would welcome.

Excellent. Is there anything else you need to know today?

Am I going to be able to meet my excruciating deadlines without popping?

Can you reduce the impulse to innovate?

Yes. I could learn to welcome repetition… Again, my perfectionist innovator wants to make even my training modules better… I’m apparently never satisfied with what I’ve done.

There you go! That’s your insight for the day. Excellent.

Ah, like not crediting myself with work well done, or it not counting as work unless it virtually breaks me. I need to try to take the easy road – even though it’s got less glossy innovation about it.

Simply asking yourself what is the easiest route to execute this task is a helpful step. Could you do that?

I could try. I worry about being lazy, but I swear I do certain things with such intensity that I miss out whole chunks of other duties (eg good business work => no housework contribution).

Introducing ‘ease’ is no mean feat. It needs some pause for thought. The impulse route is often complex. Today we are inviting you to assess the situations today and ask yourself: what’s the easiest way to complete this task?

 

I am finding the easiest way

Ok, as you’ll have seen from my postscript yesterday, that was a really messy task. I couldn’t get to grips with it at all, and it simply seemed to expose how utterly judgey, critical, blamey and cross I can be… I didn’t know how to perform the switching exercise. I just got into a 3D fug. What happened?!

You discovered yesterday that you were somewhat ‘over-invested’ in the world around you. You have invested yourself in the world around you in order that it should make you happy and content. That is not the role of the outside world.

Should you invest a little more in your inside state, and in your internal connection with your higher self, and in the truth speaking fluidly inside of you… you will experience much less dissatisfaction and disillusion with the outside world. You will become a self-sufficient satisfaction system. 

Ha! I love that.

You love alliterations. 

I do! (:-D) I do remember that in previous years, when conditions were really, really tough, I did develop that inner happiness that was not conditional upon external circumstances.

Tough times are great teachers. Those who can take such learnt lessons forward in to times of plenty are learning some important skills. Nothing is wasted. 

This morning I opened my book (Kumara 2019, p186) and ‘gnosis’ was mentioned. It seems to me that I was taking a rather brain-intellect based approach yesterday….

Stepping out of the flow of people and into the flow of your own inner knowledge is exactly what we are talking about. Finding ways to access inner knowing, and living by it, is why we are here. This is the ‘peak’ experience, dear soul. Can you connect again with the inner knowledge ‘on the hoof’, ‘as you go’? Can you become the watcher of the world, and the listener of the inside state?

I figure I need to regroup in myself (invest in myself?) to be less invested in the world? I need not to be ‘shocked’ and ‘dismayed’ when the world is complex, imperfect and tricksy. I need to build up inner margins so the funny, funky figures and experiences don’t knock me over.

Being kind to self and other is key. How kind can you be? How compassionately can you read your moment? How diligently can you be in the practice of resting your gaze upon the world in the spirit of deep, absorbing love?

I need to get in to the monastery a bit more. I need to pull myself in a little. I dispersed myself too much, hoping that scattering the seeds of my love would bring love back to me.

‘Happiness is an inside job.’ (Louise Hay said.) Maybe it’s time for a little less thinking, and a little more sensing? That’s how we ‘get inside ourselves’ more thoroughly. 

A tiny voice in me said, ‘I don’t want to go inside and sense’. Are we back here? Not wanting to feel the feels?

When we go inside we get access to two things:

1. All the disowned emotion and feeling that we stuck down there out of the way – and you know what to do with that. Feel it out. Shadow work it. Love it compassionately. Ask what its messaging is. 
2. New information. This aspect you can really enjoy and relish. (You’re doing so now.) This is what is meant by gnosis, which of course your dear cousin was an authority and scholar on. It’s not new to you. What’s new to you is the idea that you can lead your life by the information which comes through to you via gnosis. 

Leading your life by the information gleaned via gnosis feels ‘out of your comfort zone’ to you, because your intellect/mind has always claimed to be the wise, sensible one which will keep you safe (and it’s insisted that the intuitive side of you is not to be relied upon). 

Gnosis means ‘knowledge’ or ‘knowing’. Or as Kumara says, ‘insightful spiritual knowledge’. It’s personal, inner knowing, as opposed to intellectual knowing. It’s the difference between ‘conosco’ and ‘saber’ in Spanish. And it’s actually slightly more concrete that ‘intuition’ because it’s based on personal experience and a lived life, whereas intuition is farther along the ‘hunch’ spectrum. 

Yesterday your intellectual faculties told you that you were: unsightly, crowded out, overwhelmed, being spoken at, suffering others’ bodily functions. Your gnostic faculties, on the other hand, might have said (and did), ‘You need a bit of time alone to replenish.’ Your gnostic faculties are highly developed. You just need to tune into them more frequently, more deliberately and with the intention to act upon what you sense. 

That’s really helpful. It makes sense. And yes, I can see how just tuning in and acting, without introducing quibbling intellectual considerations, might streamline my decision-making, ease my heart and generally simplify life. Let me work with this a bit.

I am tuning into my gnostic faculties

‘I am switching state workwise‘ over the last week gave me these fascinating state experiences:

1. I am the high-court judge getting dressed before a day in court (20mins): this got me from ‘in bed exhausted at midday’ to ‘up, showered and ready for work’ in a smart, easy 20 mins. I felt like the judge in the Ian McEwan book, The Children Act (played by Emma Thompson in the film I’ve not yet seen) Pragmatic, business-like, brusque, steely yet kind.
2. I am the efficient PA /secretary / receptionist / office manager – clearing the space and, arranging the diary and projects, before the CEO arrives (1 hour): Under this guise, I managed to completely clear my laden desk, arrange my calendar, do 3 months of backed-up filing, list my to dos, set up current project folders … It gave me a detached, busy air, and I just focussed on ‘clearing the decks before she gets here’ – as if my alter ego boss was someone completely different. I wasn’t responsible for doing stuff – just tidying and ordering it.
3. I am the nimble project planner (45mins):  I now took the lists and planned out when everything would get done.
4. I am the nurse on the battlefield (1 day – Tues): This one popped up the morning of a day working in London. My goodness, it gave me a calm level-headedness amidst the hustling crowds on the tube and streets. I felt completely different inside. Purposeful, poised, and unfazed by the chaos whirling about me. With colleagues I felt able to be settled, peaceable and present – so much so that one close colleague said, “You seem very relaxed. What are you doing differently?” [PS. At a seminar I was attending, a colleague from an international firm I’m associated to suddenly offered me the opportunity to do occasional remote client work for them – as per my stated worklife balance aim of just a couple of days ago. Astounding. Thank you, Universe!]
5. I am the Creative Director with preferences (1 day – Wed): The role was inspired by the following quote I read that morning –  “You can master the game of life simply by acting only upon whatever it is that you prefer and what gives you inner jubilation. Even if you are experiencing some struggle or confusion as to what you really want, at the very least, clearly define what your preferences are in life, down to the simplest of things. Then step by step, begin to match these preferences by acting them out. Prime the pump by just starting to live your preferred resonance. A new day will dawn. Stress releases. Internal pressure goes away.” Kumara 2019, p153. The Creative Director With Preferences is literally paid to have and act upon her pretences. In her preferences they trust. The company relies, depends upon her constantly stating and sharing her intuited preferences. She is completely comfortable tuning into, and acting upon, her preferences, personal and professional, at any moment. That is her job. Her mantra:

“My preference is…”:

• To be a little bit early
• To take my breakfast with me
• To get dressed and then do my emails
• To run the projects simultaneously
• To take advantage of the kind offer

Result: “iPrefer…” is an important and resonance-bringing phrase. Use often! (NB Not ‘I would prefer’, which is markedly different.)

6. I am the secret radio operator (1 day – Thurs): The secret radio operator carries an invisible central antenna, reaching up for the highest and faintest signals. Listening. Intuiting. Interpreting. Hearing. Broadcasting. Unfortunately when I create cortisol stress (basically by not observing and acting upon my iPrefers) I create frequency interference and my antenna loses signal. As nothing matters more than keeping the receptive line connected to signal, I must stay aligned with my inner being, which broadcasts my preferences out to me. When I am peaceably in the receptive mode, really centred and switched on to my antenna, it’s as if I’m tuning in to the songs of the angels.

7. I am the inspector, present now, and non-judgmental (1 day- Fri): the inspector is the observer, watcher, mentor. She sees what’s going on, compassionately but with the eye of scrutiny also. She reserves judgement, for she wants to see very closely what-is-actually-happening, without any prejudice or assumption. If anything, she assumes a position of ‘support for all she sees’. She’s ‘present now’ because her role is simply to be in tune with whatever is happening at any moment. She can reflect on it critically later. For now she just wants to see what’s happening, clearly and dispassionately. She’s the keen observer, and must be careful not to bring any personal mental states, memories or inner chunterings to bear. She needs to wipe her feet at the door and enter in an energised, kind and listening state. She is very ‘tall’- this gives her a good view and good perspective. The tall inspector is like a watch tower, surveying, observing, keeping an eye…. How satisfying to experiment with the feeling of being the inspector, not the inspectee; the scrutiniser, as opposed to the examinee…

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(Sat) I am conscious that someone reading the above might not approach it sympathetically. I feel I want to defend it by declaring how acute my anxiety and exhaustion across this working week, and how this game gave me undreamt of hope and focus and distraction and the ability to keep going across a week of early mornings and too much travel and inflamed adrenals.

And so it did! Just wonderful! What great use of the exercise! You can defend it if you like, but the proof is in the fruits of the exercise. You got through the overly-busy week beautifully, and you had fun, and above all, you learnt about the immense flexibility of your inner state. You showed yourself how you can step in to whatever state you wish, at any time. 

Yes. That is true. I absolutely loved picking a state and ‘enacting’ it, rather than being carried along, reactive and passive, by the conditions of the day I stumbled in to. It’s like ‘switching state’ consciously is the antidote to being swept along by the tide of the day. And each switched state becomes such an incredible teacher too. It’s like jumping into someone else’s shoes and seeing the world from their perspective. And thus realising that perspective truly is an inside job, an act of choice, rather than necessarily the outcomes of circumstance or some actual ‘reality’. There is no reality but the one we select as our filter. And then we start to effect ‘vibrational matching’ between ourselves and that invited good state – which can only be a good thing in terms of the overall pot of our vibrational messaging to the good universe out there and in here.

Which was your favourite ‘switched state’? 

I think maybe ‘the nurse on the battlefield’, because I was startled the difference that the adoption of the state made to a day working in London, which can often leave me in tears or at the very least completely frazzled. And I even got that comment from my colleague about seeming ‘very relaxed’ and ‘different’. But all the states were fun and completely illuminating.

So how shall I take this forward next?

Try a spot of reading now…

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I did some reading {T Kumara, 2019}. So much in my heart, body and mind at the moment. Please come in…

Your heart’s both open and closed right now, isn’t it? It appears to be having difficulty knowing whether to open or close its front door. The result is a bit of flick-flack for you, and for those around you. It’s partly tiredness (nay, exhaustion) and it’s partly uncertainty about … who you are. 

I think I know what you mean. Please go on.

This is a live conversation, so your closing-heart mechanism presents one opportunity, while your open-heart state presents another. 

Ok, yes! I understand. I’m back in open heart state. For you.

Your present situation is one of binary postionality. On the one hand… and on the other. Two sides of the coin. Both yes and no. Maybe this, maybe that.

Can you find your ven diagram overlap? 

Dare I? The two positions are so separate, I daren’t bring them together for fear they’ll scoff at each other.

Those days are long gone, dear friend. The only way to meet the souls true to your being,and soul group, is to present the whole of you, which means presenting precisely the (seemingly counter-intuitive) mix of type A and type B. 

Hm. I suspect you mean: Old earth/new earth; 3D/5D; physical/metaphysical.

Indeed. You would be surprised how many people are just waiting for more souls to present their complete 3D/5D selves to the world, so they can have the courage to follow suit. Troops of souls are harbouring secret selves brimming with intuition, knowing, clairsentience. 

This is not a ‘mental health recovery blog’. It’s a ‘soul recovery blog’, and you know it. 

[Pause for thought……]

Ok. I agreed with that, so I’ve just changed the strapline to this blog (which is currently on maintenance mode anyway): “Inner dialogues for soul recovery”

How do you feel to have done that? 

Relieved, actually. More true, and freer to write authentically again. Part of me was writing for a purely 3D audience… I didn’t want to be seen as funky.. I wanted to be able to speak to ‘anyone’.

You are only here to speak to us. The rest is taken care of. 

Ok. Yes, I sense that better now. So… soul recovery. What’s my peak soul recovery action of vibrational matching and state switchery today?

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Sorry, ‘state switching’.

… … … We love it when you settle in to the receptive mode. You really are a good listener and the download speed is good. We’re imprinting on to your auric field when you sit still like that, with your reindeer style antennae reaching up, and your inner state at stillpoint. You have excellent access to the subtle frequencies, and they want to communicate with you.  You become the magnetic antenna to which the heavenly messages flow. Your self-consciousness has blocked this for a while. We are back, here and frisky as ever. We know you are interested to hear. Are you happy to let us speak to you? 

Yes. Very.

The task at hand is less ‘Mend You’ and more ‘Watch World’. We need people who can be eyes and ears for us. Gridkeepers. 

Oh heavens. I wondered if this was coming at some point… What even is this?

Gridkeepers read and write upon the present moment, in keeping with the planned evolution of humanity’s blueprint upon Earth. 

I’m not sure everyone’s going to like this.

This message is not for ‘everyone’ or even ‘anyone’ but you. Close off your ears to ‘anyone’ whose judgment you do not care for. 

Ok. I hear you. So, what is this GK role?

Eyes and ears; reading and writing upon the present moment. 

When the current form has been read, it can be rewritten with the uplifted alternative. 

How?

‘I read the present moment (secret radio operator; inspector) and now I write upon it. With pure positive love.’

Actively with words/actions, or in my mind’s eye with intuition and perception?

Good questions indeed. This is actually your call. 

What is the grid?

The network of recovered souls who anchor light in the planet. 

Am I recovered?

In the 5D paradigm, you are recovered. In the 3D paradigm you still carry wounds. That is why having the door of your heart swinging randomly open (5D) and closed (3D) is causing you distress. It’s why you don’t know ‘who you are’.

How do I stay in that 5D paradigm state more often, more consciously?

You have been practising switching state for this reason, dear one. 

Their are plenty of wonderful 5D states you can slip in to – as if you had a huge wardrobe of Elton John costumes to play with. 

Ha. I like that analogy, especially because he used them consciously, I understand… I haven’t seen the film Rocketman yet, but someone yesterday was saying Elton John used his costumes like ‘power suits’. Likewise, my Dad used to call his smartest, tailored blue suit a ‘power suit’, and wear it for important negotiation meetings.

Wonderful! These visible out signs are awesome ways of imprinting on reality! 5D power suits are even more fun because they are invisible. You have to pull in the energy fully, but your suit can be of any hue or detail without you feeling self-conscious, because no one (except the intuitive) can actually see it. It can be perceived by others though. 

And what are the 5D states I might be switching to?

This is for you to play with.

Aha! Ok. Cool. I guess some of this I kind of played with last weekend in the initial ‘switching state’ game. What’s the difference here. What even is a 5D state?

A 5D state is one in which abundance is complete and fear is a distant memory. It is a state in which all peace, unity, light and love are embedded in each moment. 

Ah, so when you say, read each present moment and write upon it, you might be talking about our seeing a situation which is purportedly one of chaos, disunity, darkness and hate, and then rewriting it through the eyes of divinity… like A Course in Miracles, which constantly teaches that what we see is one thing from the mistaken perspective of ego (“broken, wrong, erroneous, imperfect”), and quite another thing from the true perspective of the divine inner eye (“whole, right, correct, perfect”). (It’s been a while since I read ACIM.)

Exactly! 

It’s like restoring things to their actual state through our perceptive vision…

Exactly! Excellent. 

So, I need some magic glasses, to be able to see everything as ‘whole, perfect, complete’?

No, not really. You need to activate an inner switch, which can toggle between perception states, playfully. It’s like saying “Filter / No filter / Filter / No filter” 

Is the 5D perception state the ‘filter’? And am I switching my own state, or just my perception?

The 5D state is #NoFilter. The 3D state is the #Filter state, because it is under the veil of the fearful, angry, blaming ego. It is hard to separate your own state from your perception (unless one is a little bit sociopathic – in which case you can see the heavy 3D state and remain untouched).

An example: you come across sweary graffiti on a wall.

• 3D/Ego Filter: “That’s a disgrace. I feel angry about the youth of today.”
• 5D/Love NoFilter: “My brother or sister has something important to say. Let their concerns be answered, and their heart fully reassured.”

Your default state is 3D, which is fine because that is your ‘reader’ mechanism in the GK role. As soon as you can intuit having read the present moment through the egoic filter (ie a sense of judgment, loss or conflict has arisen) then ‘switch state’ to the 5D, glimpse the actual moment with #NoFilter and write your seeing upon that moment. Job done. 

I feel like a spy or secret agent… Is this practice not weird? Am I not finding error in ‘what is’ in the very act of rewriting it? Am I not like one of those village speedgun volunteers, nastily watching out for the next speeding car…?

Ah…. That’s me talking through my ego filter! I see it!! Ok…. Let me Switch State to 5D #NoFilter and write upon that moment: “This is beautiful information coming through to me and I will love playing this fun and fruitful game.”

Ok. I get it. Thank you. And I know exactly what that 3D judgment state feels like. It’s a grippy, pinched feeling. The 5D ‘acceptance’ state is on the other hand ungripping, releasing, easing.

So, I think my cup runneth over. What’s the phrase, please?

Try, ‘I am switching state from 3D to 5D’

Oooh. Ok. I will. Stay with me and educate me, please. Guide me and steer my hand, eyes and words.

Amen. 

I am switching state from 3D to 5D

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[Later same day…]

Help. I’m spiralling. I seem supremely negative and -2D about everything! I keep finding myself criticising random things, and passing judgment left, right and centre. What’s going on?!! I literally seem to be seeing everything through a filter of blame, disgruntlement, judgement and scarcity….?!

Think: “Perfect. It’s all perfect.” And relax. ?

It’s hard to convey how magical it’s been playing ‘switching states’ these last couple of days. I have used my (thinking ‘new’ brain) imagination to put myself in the state of this array of wonderful roles and characters, just lightly and playfully as I go about the weekend. All of them soothe and ease and reassure the old, feeling brain. It’s amazing how pliable the mind is when you set a fun imaginary framework for it to expand in to.

G and I were out walking on Saturday and we came across a family at a footpath crossroads. The young son exemplified this capacity delightfully:

Boy (c8yo): Let’s take that path down the hill!

Parents: No, we’ll keep to the top path for now.

Boy (grumpily): Awwww, I wanted to go down the hill….

Also boy, 20 seconds later to his sister, animatedly: Yessss! We’re mountaineers on top of the mountain. Let’s go!!

That instant state switch, with imagination as the catapult forward.

So, here are some of the characters whose cloak I put on playfully, for 10 seconds to 4 minutes each, I’d say:

• The girls who knows what to do
• The relieved relative
• The intrepid explorer
• The brave ally
• The good daughter
• The girls who dances the tango
• The queen of all she surveys
• The warrior queen / king (playing with the masculine is fun too)
• The noble leader
• The medicine women in the jungle
• The singer in the arena stadium
• The principal ballerina

What does the state-switching achieve?

1. No rumination. At all. The mind is otherwise occupied. The imagination is redirected, deflected and repurposed.
2. A constant up-shifting of the feeling state. It really is about trying on the next good-feeling or fun-seeming cloak
3. The dawning realisation we can pick our state at any blinking second of any blinking day. We need not be swept along by apparent external conditions
4. We can choose states which activate and encourage and ameliorate the Soothing-Affiliative-Calming system… at any time.

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So what next? I need, right now, today… (breathe…) to apply these insights to my work life. It’s Monday. I woke up with complete adrenal fry about the week ahead. How have I got back to this?!?! I am developing such good MEDS protocols… and yet I continue to puff up with cortisol weight. I think it’s down to work. So, that the next focus in this wellbeing project.

It’s one thing to play ‘switching state’ when out and about doing fun weekendy things. But what about in the 9-5 of the Monday to Friday (Fry-day)? Out on the savanna with the lions and zebras? Socorro!

‘Socorro’? Are you the drowning person, or the lifeguard?

Good call. Very good call. It’s my choice, innit? That said, I don’t want to be either victim or rescuer in some inner drama triangle…

Oh lordy, I’m overwhelmed by ‘to do’ items for work. Why did I let myself get so bombarded? Some of it is still pro bono… and I’m jazzhanding again….

Slow right down. Here’s the learning.

1. TIME. You have limited time for work: time is finite, but also your body has finite capacity. And on top of this, research (as you’ve been reading in The Joy of Work) shows that after peak work hours, your return on investment of time worked in is minimal or even negative (especially if you’re running towards burnout) .
2. WORK. Work is about ‘earning money’ here, not about leisure, socialising, social-climbing, gaining admiration, making friends, attaining status – which are separate activities. And ‘earning money’ is purely about ‘adding value’ and ‘giving service’. That is what people pay money for.

So what is your personal equation for Minimum Time / Maximum Service?

Woah… Interesting. I like this. Following this would force me to make some decisions about what I do and how I use my time…

In ‘The Joy of Work’ Bruce Daisley suggests that 40 hours output per week is the maximum for productivity. 

“A useful thought exercise is to treat work as forty one-hour blocks spread across a week. You might choose to use up a couple of those blocks on a Saturday morning working on something that’s been hanging over you for a while. The quid pro quo for that might be to leave the office early on Wednesday to see the matinee of a movie.” (The Joy of Work p56)

I’ve been looking at 12 – 6pm working hours for a while.

That’s still 30 hours a week. We’re sorry to let you know: that’s too much for your energy and health levels at the moment. At least, it is while your work still looks like 70% hustling / 30% service delivery. 

Ooh! Biting stuff… But true.

Here’s a thought experiment. What would change about your work for it to become 30% hustling / 70% service delivery?

Across how many hours?

20. 

Ok. So, 6 hours admin and marketing and busdev. And 14 hours paid client work. Earning?

ABC per week. 

Aha. So, £XX per hour x 14 hours of client work. Or charging £YY ph, but giving 30 mins before and after an hour session.

Ok. 

That’s 7 sessions a week at £YY per session. At 2pm and 4pm. Remotely.

That’s it..?

You can add training days if you want… Or just stop that now. If anything, ONE training offering only, at a good price. 

The key difference between this and the past is one thing: MARKETING YOUR 1:1 SERVICE. 

Ok. I really hear this. Thank you so much. I gtg, so can we just take the phrase for the day, to do with switching state workwise? 

Yes. Certainly. Get ready. It’s this:  ‘I am switching state workwise.’

Haha. Funny. 🙂 Thank you. Ok. Let’s go!

I am switching state workwise.

PS. Remember this?:

Morning writing, afternoon remote casework.

And thus, being able to work from anywhere in the world.

Oh yes! Good.  Ha. Well. Then we’re all agreed.

(from DoDs 01jun19)

Heavens. So much to report since last post… The Compassionate Mind Workbook is brilliant. I’m only a few chapters in but it’s drawn my attention to one very important new insight about how the brain works.

I know about the limbic brain, with its amygdala which gets hijacked and then freezes the sophisticated, executive-functioning, social-interactioning prefrontal cortex. I know that this ancient part of the brain is responsible triggering the fight / fight / freeze / flop mechanisms. Good. Well there’s another model to bring into play.

The thinkers behind Compassion Focussed Therapy (Prof Paul Gilbert et al) draw attention to the fact that if we only had the old limbic brain, life might actually be easier. In the Compassionate Mind Workbook they give a great explanation.

Scenario 1 – Wild animal: Think of the zebra eating grass on the savanna. A lion comes along and chases the zebra. On this occasion, our zebra escapes. After which it will rest and tremor off the shock…. and then merrily return to eating grass on the savanna.

A human is different.

Scenario 2 – Human: Imagine the human is sitting outside a cafe eating cake and a lion approaches. The human reacts at lightning speed and flees for safety – good old limbic brain has saved the day. Eventually the coast is clear as the lion has been captured and taken away. Does the human go back to the pavement table and eat cake again? No! Because the human being has a snazzy, prefrontal cortex, thinking new brain – which the zebra doesn’t have. This ‘new’ brain offers up competencies like past-future thinking, worrying and anticipating. In terms of a trauma, this means the threat experienced earlier hangs about… The human won’t return to the pavement cafe table because of thoughts like “What if the lion comes back? Am I safe? What if I get eaten? Who will save me?” She then starts acting out feelings of anxiety, avoidance, in a fight/flight state. In other words, that ‘clever’ new thinking brain can trigger off the old feeling/reacting/limbic brain EVEN WITHOUT THE THREAT BEING PRESENT.

So for me this is a really good, simple explanation of why PTSD happened for me. It’s also just a really good marker of why we (and I) have an epidemic of anxiety. Along with epigenetic trauma (two world wars just over our shoulder) and ever more polarised politics etc etc… Anyway, in essence, by my understanding the tricky two brain model is like this:

Old brain = Limbic = Feeling = Anxiety / Avoidance / Aggression / Anger

New brain = Pre-frontal = Thinking = Imagination / Anticipation / Planning

Together they make for a ‘tricky brain’ two-part brain because they trigger each other off… unless and until we have mastered our Soothing System. 

The Soothing System, say Irons and Beaumont, is related to positive emotions which feel calming, peaceful and contented – and are more likely to be present when we feel SAFE & CARED FOR. Yes! This.

So, how can I reassure my THINKING new brain that I am indeed safe and cared for – and that it needn’t be triggering my FEELING limbic old brain with its imaginings, future worries, past memory angsting etc?

New thought. 

Ha! Yes. So true. I’ve been reading T Kumara this morning too: ‘Everything in your life is reflecting your thought vibration’ (p140). What is my particular thought vibration?

Sometimes: zebra standing before lion.

Yes, I somehow have an underlying tendency to…

Stop there. It’s not helpful for you to self-invalidate. 

Ok. Let me self-validate then.

I have the opportunity to select safety, strength and sovereignty at any moment. 

Yes. There is no ‘lion’ and no ‘zebra’ except in our minds and imaginations. 

We all (for which read ‘I’) like to play with power struggles of dominance, submission, don’t we? In the workplace hierarchy (formal or unspoken). In the drama triangle of persecutor, victim and rescuer. Is this just burning up valuable fuel?

It’s not so hard to get into sovereign mode when we are alone. (Ah, the bliss of the solitary moment, says my aspieness…) But how about when we are with others who are in the lion mode or zebra mode? How do we retain that sovereign balance?

It’s in the daily practice of emptying and rebooting the thinking brain (eg via actual meditation, not ‘seated thinking’). It’s in the decision to remain sovereign. It’s in the compassion for others, and taking the opportunity to extend love (instead of judgment) to those in either mode. It’s in the daily habit of limiting overthinking, hurry sickness or mass info processing… so that our prefrontal cortex can be found agile and dextrous, instead of limping along, when someone else comes into our (highly empathic) field, in strong lion or zebra mode. 

I actually find it easier to deal with people in lion (dominant, overbearing, threatening, flexing) mode than people in zebra (startled, afraid, retreating, submissive, fleeing) mode.

Which is your default mode? 

Ha! Zebra. Yes, two empathic, startled zebras in a room together, triggering eachother’s defense mechanisms… Not cool.

Let’s go back to notions of thought vibrations. Frequencies affect eachother. We are either being affected by another’s thought vibration (as a result of tuning into external conditions or another person’s energy field) or we are actively setting our own thought vibration. One of the positive uses of the new/thinking/prefrontal cortex brain is that it is highly competent at imagining. We can use imagination to set our own thought vibration according to our conscious will (vs according to old unbidden trauma memories and imaginings). So for example, if we observe a need arising in us, we can access the imagined scenario of the ‘need met’. We can then enter the scenario and feel the feelings of being there in that desired state. This is called vibration matching. 

You create the desired scenario with your imagination and then set your state to match that vibration… This is like NLP, and Abraham Hicks, right?

And Reality Transurfing. And ACIM. And Neville Goddard. All the New Thought teachers. 

One day I’m going to get all this…

You already have. Your achievement will be to rest in the knowledge that this is available to you all the time. You’ll need to be ready to give up your little habit of efforting and striving. 

But… I have to earn a living. And that requires the input of energy and determination.

The opposite of ‘efforting & striving’ is not ‘apathy & zoning out’. 

Did you need to effort to be offered the two free qualification trainings you have been given, out of the blue, in the last three years? 

No. But I did have a fairly clear vision which might have helped manifest them…

Lightly held. A clear vision lightly held. This is what we are talking about. 

What is your new clear vision? 

Living a healthy balance in which I work successfully and also have energy for family, love, travel, service, adventure…

What are you prepared to give up for that? 

Complexity. Jazz-handing. Relying on handouts/hand-ups from others. Submissiveness. Ambition to be recognised and approved of by glamorous ‘lions’.

So, you are happy to be neither lion nor zebra? 

Yes.

What do you fear happening if you have a worklife balance that earns you money without burning you out? 

Feeling I don’t deserve it. Getting bored. Getting disconnected.

What can you do to overcome that? 

Assure that the work I am getting paid for makes my soul sing.

And what does that work look like? 

Morning writing, afternoon remote casework.

And thus, being able to work from anywhere in the world. 

But what about all that training you’re offering? 

I hear you. Can I do a final push on that, and then start to plug the remote casework?

Of course. And maybe knowing that the remote casework is the next step, will help you get the training marketing out there. 

Yes! Because I’ll be less attached to it.

I also need to less attached to getting the biofeedback from approval gaining…

Let’s focus on self-soothing. All is well. 

To finish…?

Your observations on sovereignty are timely. This is a theme worth working with. If you can download into your self a new notion of self-sovereignty you will be well on your way to decommissioning the zebra mechanism, and on your way towards commissioning a new soothing system. The sovereignty protocol is not about manifesting ego or ruling powers (that would be lion mode). We are talking about self-sovereignty whereby your mood is simply not set to ‘vibrationally match what we see’. Instead, self-sovereignty teaches us that we can select a programme (like a child decides what ‘let’s pretend’ game to play) and then vibrationally match that playstate. Sovereignty 101 says ‘let’s play kings and queens’ – and practises ‘swanning about’ in a full sense of inner authority. Sovereignty 102 says ‘let’s play switching states – now I’m going to imagine myself as …. and now …. and now …’ It’s all about practising setting the inner state at will, and refining the choices, and seeing what happens in our outer reality when we do indeed undertake vibration matching with fun, free, flowing high frequency states. 

This is truly beautiful. Thank you. Key phrases for me are: vibration matching; let’s pretend; swanning about; switching states; self-sovereignty; select a programme; refining the choices; fun, free, flowing. What is the phrase to work with?

Switching states for vibrational matching. Getting back into taking on roles like you did as an actor, but this time choosing your characters really selectively! 

No more Abigail or Nora etc…

Precisely. New characters for a new paradigm in a new era within a new Earth. 

I get you. All the high frequency, new earth archetypes…

Not so much archetypes as ‘beings’. Think about the word ‘being’ in human being. Consider the notion of ‘human doing’. You are actually doing human while being pure eternal consciousness. Do your humanness differently, according to the knowledge of eternity. Bring some heaven to earth. 

When I switch off my ‘human doing’ brain with all of its electrical surge energy, I can access that heaven-on-earth state.

Good. So for now play with ‘switching states’ actively, playfully, matching vibrations of characters in a supremely uplifting play, floating on air, and grounding deeply, all the time practising the ‘sovereign self’ skills of consciously selecting the better-feeling state at all times. 

Phew… What a great session. Thank you. I’ll report back. This has been a roller coaster and a learning curve. Thank you for my new practice.

I am switching states

I have now learnt that:

• Watcher Mode and Reactor Mode are two opposing and countering modes. Useful to know.
• Watcher Mode is not a Passive Mode – it’s an alert Active Mode
• Watcher Mode seems to be about not watching what’s around externally so much as watching one’s internal weather patterns. Interesting. It’s like meditation with the eye’s open in the midst of life.
• I have swathes of anxiety pumping through me and my system at the moment:  my internal weather pattern is like the preceding phase to an electrical storm.

It can be difficult to bear witness to the degree of tropical heat and storminess within our inner systems, but remember that when a storm breaks and discharges its electricity, the air is left clearer afterwards. It can be anticipated that this sensation of pent-up energy and concern and frustration will clear and leave the atmosphere cleansed anew. 

This morning (Sunday) I woke at 5.30am with an anxiety attack I couldn’t shake off – until I eventually got up at 7am to make a coffee with enough caffeine to meet and offset my raging adrenal activity… :-/

There are actions you can take to support the discharge of electricity: 

• qigong, first and foremost – and especially on the lawn outside
• active exercise like hiking, cycling and swimming
• singing and drumming and dancing to music

And there is a word that you can play with and turn over in your heart: 

Wise

You watched that film about the development of ‘the wise king’ [Thor]. 

I did. Last night. It was a hero’s journey kind of film.

What did the future king have to develop? 

Selflessness, humility, courage, discernment, forgiveness, mercy…

And what do you need to develop on your ‘hero’s journey’? 

Patience, courage, overcoming temerity, resilience, confidence…

Oh dear goodness, what else is required of me in this life… except for overcoming darkness…?

Overcoming darkness. Interesting. What does this mean to you? 

Oh, I think you know. Sloughing off the terrors and tyranny of heavy, dark, clingy, weighing energy.

Well, then, that is helpful to know. Overcoming darkness is surely achieved by introducing more light, no? 

In which case…

Let’s turn some more lights on. 

How?

By reassuring our soul that it is in charge. 

Oof. Ok. Soul, you are in charge. Let the good stuff rain down and the clouds clear and the light shine in.

Are you praying there, dear friend?

Yep. I’m opening up the channels for a new delivery.

A new delivery of…?

Updated wisdom, for this stage of my life, for this age. The world – no, specifically, my country and its political system is in complete meltdown… I’ve been rocked by it in recent days and weeks. I need not to be swept along with these heavy, dark rumbling storm clouds in the external world, but rise above them in my intentions.

It is my intention to take a lighter approach, and rise above the heavy electrical storm clouds. Yes! That concept gives me a sense of relief. Let’s find an image to represent this…

How about this pilot who takes pictures of storms from above from the vantage point of the cockpit?

Flying above the storm clouds

Beautiful images, and helpful imagery.

Maybe the Watcher Mode is like being the pilot in the cockpit:

View from the cockpit by Santiago Borja

And how does the pilot in the cockpit navigate the storms? 

By going over them, or around them…

What faculties does she call upon to achieve this? 

Experience, training, good use of tech, wisdom…

Yes, the wise pilot circumnavigates the storms. 

The wise pilot prepares for take off and landing in advance. 

The wise pilot keeps a level head even during the bumpiest of rides. 

The wise pilot remains seated in the cockpit and trusts her technology (tbh, dear Boeing, she does so even when it’s faulty…)

The wise pilot appreciates her vantage point. 

The wise pilot works well with her co-pilot and crew. 

The wise pilot sets her destination and plots her pathway before take-off. 

If the aeroplane is my life, I am its pilot, right?

Yes, dear soul. You are doing so well. Be at peace with yourself. Relax and trust that you are wisely piloting the aeroplane of your life. It’s a great big double-decker plane, and you’ve got it. Be at peace with yourself. Trust your machine, your crew, your course. Be gentle, calm, and a soft watcher. Trust in the wisdom accrued across your life. Trust in your own wisdom. All is well. All is well. 

Thank you. I appreciate this. I feel a great deal calmer and reassured. I’ll take this on board. I’ll remember that I am able to navigate things. I’ll remember I am not in the storm, and the storm is not in me.

Say: I am the wise pilot

I am the wise pilot