To the one whose forgiveness I hadn’t dared ask

Bless you for your words of kindness

Thank you for your stubbornness

Never letting the connection go

Until truths had been uttered

Not abroad as dreaded

But to one another

With mutual care

With love

Freely.

 

Exceptional heart coherence occurred yesterday. Just as I started a session with my therapist, I got a notification of a message from someone whose mere remembrance brought up in me a tsunami of unhealed grief, which poured out in the session. I explored my painfully-long defensive silence-keeping, and the fear of ‘detonation’ – and came to the insight that it was better to ‘speak my truth’ than hold silence in future.

Later, I opened the message to find these incredibly poignant and beautiful words:

Hello, my cousin just died because of Covid. He spent a month in intensive care fighting for his life, but finally, it took his life. It saddens me, as is normal, but it also makes me think that we should take advantage of the opportunities we have been given. I want to start by telling people I care of, that I love them and to those I have wronged, that I am sorry. Therefore, here you go: I hope you know you are important to me and always will be. Thank you for everything you’ve done for me. I hope you are healthy and happy and enjoying life as much as possible with your family and loved ones. I hope you’ll be happy until the end of your days. If you ever need me, know that I am here for you, now and always. I send you lots of love and hugs. X

This message triggered an exchange of healing messages between us, full of unconditional care and acceptance. I was able to express appreciation, gratitude and remorse for hurt caused. I wrote ‘Please forgive me’ and received the reply ‘There is nothing to forgive.’ I cried and cried, both with grief and with relief and astonishment. You can hold on to guilt and shame for so many years, and a truthful conversation based on human love overrides those toxic vice grips. I too was able to forgive and reassure. I feel dignity returning, to us both. With renewed trust, I feel liberated from my impulse to hide below the parapet. What a miraculous unfurling. Thank you. May all rest in peace.

***Med15min***

What is the learning for today? How can I build on this gift received, for the good of me, and of all?

Liberation is an expansive feeling. Feel it. Feel it and bask in it in full appreciation. Like a bear coming out of hibernation after a long winter, take time to stretch your muscles and replenish your cells with nourishment. The darkness of winter really is subsiding. Knowing this helps you to receive the light of the spring and the warmth of the summer. Go ‘outside’ in to the wide world again. This time with service and wisdom. Take this dignity returned to you, and use it, for good. 

Yes. There is power and vitality in dignity. Uprightness. I would like to wear uprightness again.

It has always been yours. Forgiveness heals, doesn’t it? Support others to forgive each other, truly. 

Wow. Yes. Thank you.

Forgiveness is where reconciliation unleashes liberation. Broker forgiveness amongst the unforgiven and you will do well in your dear self. 

Oh course. I forget that. My work is the work not just of peace, but of forgiveness… Forgiveness of the unforgiven… Mutually usually, as this is not RJ… Mutual forgiveness. There’s gold there… Ah, and self-forgiveness…

Compassion says, ‘Finding where our vulnerability lies is the route to supporting others in their vulnerability. Reach into vulnerability. There is good work to be done there.’

Thank you. Vulnerability is the human condition really, isn’t it?

Vulnerability is the crucible of human learning. Love it. Tend it. Free it from its chains. 

Ty. Today…

Today be at peace with this new feeling of liberation, and the welcoming home of dignity. Feel your dignity at last, and bask in it. Cherish it. 

If you can truly embrace the feeling of dignity returning home, you will be keyed in to the gift awaiting those whom you help to reach mutual forgiveness – and ultimately to enter in to self-forgiveness. They will be able to welcome their dignity home too. 

Forgiveness leads to self-forgiveness leads to dignity returning home…

Tysm. xxxx

 I am welcoming dignity home

 

When I settled into that idea of generating torsion from my heart outwards, this concept arose in me…

Today is for me…  I get it. Everything in this day is a gift to be received. Appreciation is all that is called for of me.

With this insight I could stop worrying about what others thought. I wasn’t and am not here to give unto others at the expense of my own health. That is just not true. It’s the same for us all. (Hence the awfulness of sending health and social care workers in to care for individuals with Covid-19, with providing them with PPE.)

Everyday is a birth day, when you are in the receiving mode. 

Yes. And part of yesterday’s bonus was harnessing energy to push things off my desk like a snow plough.

Tell me more about this energy generation work, please.

You studied the Heart a little this morning. You are starting to learn (again) about heart coherence. When you have heart coherence, you are also generating more energy than you are expending. Incoherence, of heart or body or qi is draining. Any type of coherence is extremely enlivening. 

With torsion, it’s like you’re pulling in/out, up/down and twisting all at once. Like ‘knocking on the door of life’ in qigong. Rotating on a point that is also connected up and down.

Mastering the horizontal plane and the vertical at once: that marks the coherence that is attainable in the torsion field. And it is the auto-generating state. 

Practise ‘coherence’ today. Play with the word. Absorb it. Mull it over. Be with coherence today. 

Will do. Ty. xx

I am practising coherence

 

So, this morning I looked up those two articles from yesterday. Here are some highlights of what I’ve learnt when you google ‘torsion tesla’.

First up: the Torsion Field is a thing. Or not a thing if you take it as unfounded pseudoscience and a scam. Here’s a taster. Hold on to your seats.

Torsion field (pseudoscience)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Torsion_field_(pseudoscience)

A torsion field (also called axion field, spin field, spinor field, and microlepton field) is a feature of pseudoscientific^[1] proposals that the quantum spin of particles can be used to cause emanations to carry information through vacuum orders of magnitude faster than the speed of light. This theory is the basis of a number of unfounded claims and scams. 

Claims	Spin-spin interaction can be transmitted through space at speeds of at least up to 109 times the speed of light via a special kind of field, making faster-than-light travel, extra-sensory perception, homeopathy, levitation, and other paranormal phenomena possible.
Related scientific disciplines	Physics
Year proposed	1987
Original proponents	A. Akimov, G. Shipov

Claimed applications[edit]

Despite the several obvious contradictions with established physics along with associated statements by believers criticized as being “nonsensical” by reputable scientists,^[6] torsion fields have been embraced as an explanation for claims of homeopathic cures, telepathy, telekinesis, levitation, clairvoyance, ESP, and other paranormal phenomena.^[7] The harnessing of torsion fields has been claimed to make everything possible from miracle cure devices (including devices that cure alcohol addiction^[8]) to working perpetual motion machines, stargates,^[9]UFO propulsion analogs, and weapons of mass destruction (WMDs).^[10] Some such devices, in particular the miracle cure boxes, have been patented,^[11] manufactured and sold.

NB: one of the original proponents is here.

However… how come my dialogues proposed I start looking into this..??

[Just spoken to G. ‘Torsion’ is not the phrase linked to cars and velocity. I’d misremembered. It’s ‘torque‘!]

The second article:

Exclusive: Discovery of Tesla’s Torsion fields above the Bosnian Pyramids

I’ll just leave the last lines of the article here:

‘We are all just a part of the cosmic Internet together with all other cosmic entities in space including our Creator. The information transmission is almost instant regardless of the fair distances. Thereby, the Bosnian Pyramid of the Sun, on our small mother Planet, is a link in the cosmic Internet.’

Wow, the scale of this stuff. Whether or not it’s science or sci-fi, I love the expansiveness of the ideas.

Maybe torsion fields are linked to the qigong I do every day? [Qigong = energy cultivation or energy practice or energy generation.] Tesla worked on free energy generation. I get the sense that what we are looking here is akin to endless fibonacci repetitions, or spiral dynamics, which create fields of pure force. This is almost what is happening from the point of the heart outwards, in each of us. Right?

Now would be a good moment to settle in. 

***Reading Bringers(wow)&20minTimedMed***

The torsion field you seek to generate is initiated in the heart centre, and it is fuelled by your focus and your conscious breathing. As you just experienced. The centre of connectivity between you and the rest of the quantum field is seated at that magnetic centre within you, the heart. When that self-propelling, auto-generating engine  is set in motion, you suddenly have new energy within your system, and with that new energy, clarity occurs. 

Yes, there is real clarity! Also, the brain just settles into the alpha or theta state, right? And the autonomic nervous system slides from sympathetic to parasympathetic. This is mindfulness practice at its best.

This is mindfulness practice at its basic potentiality. If only you knew what you were really doing when you settled down to quieten your mind. If only you knew what you would unleash if you would but sit a little longer. But there is time for all things. 

Help me land and make sense of some of this torsion field information. Yesterday (or 2 days ago), Torsion was the name I blithely gave my Frequency Modulation Mixing Desk engineer. What’s arising? What do I need to know to be able to integrate my learning at the moment?

You are learning to settle and be present to the various elements in you which are ready to grow. Those elements are:

1. your capacity for knowing and
2. your activated free will.

You are ready to apply your knowing to your free will. This has been delayed at times. You needed to download more information for this all to occur successfully. Your ‘frequency modulation’ work is vital. You are learning to breathe into the tensions arising from the shifts going on in you, and in you all at this time of cosmic, quantum upheaval. 

What advice would you give us all for easing the feelings?

The advice which is relevant to you all is this: BREATHE. You really need to OXYGENATE your bodies to facilitate the quantum shift you are enduring at this time. If you want to make this easier for yourselves, you need to relax, kick back and breathe deeply. Really breathe it in – and shake it out. 

Like Deborah teaches. She knows where it’s at.

Exactly this. The body has much to purge, both for itself and for the collective. This is daily, hourly work. Why else would you be given this window for deep retreat in which to rest your body and exercise daily? 

Man alive. I just don’t know whether to consider this Covid-19 period a tragedy and a dark attack on our planet, or a gift from Gaia and the cosmos within which we can heal…

And here is the torsion, dear sweet friend. On the one hand, there are strong magnetic forces of perturbation spiralling downwards, and on the other hand there equally strong magnetic forces of potential spiralling upwards. The work of the individual sitting in this magnetic storm is to ‘justify’ the forces – as you ‘justify’ or resolve an equation, so that it balances out to zero. 

The zero point field is within you, at your heart centre. Use the tangible opposing spiralling forces as a guide. So strong are the forces that it is now very clear when they are running ‘cleanly’ through your heart centre. Before this period, they were subtle, and only those with established practice could sense the magnetic torsion running into the heart centre. 

When the spiralling forces run straight through the heart centre – and my goodness, without deep breathing and shaking out, this will be extremely uncomfortable – you will be generating a self-sustaining torus field. 

What? This is so cool.

A torus field – like the apple pictures….

Just two days ago, when I started playing with Torsion, I got this idea for something I called Fountain Breathing.

Fountain Breathing: breathe in from the reservoir of water and draw the breath/water up your central channel to the heart; exhale it out through the crown of your head, so it rises up and then falls gently back in to the reservoir, ready for drawing upwards again…

It’s the same shape as the torus, I hadn’t realised…

Now look up ‘torsion field’ images. 

Here are a couple…

 

Today is the day in which the heart centre is being awakened in the human race. The person must centre their self (shelter in place) to be able to generate torsion. And the heart must be stirred and opened, whether by fear or by compassion, by loss or by hope, by anger or by relief, in order to fuel the dynamo within the torus.

And that’s what the pandemic is for?

The pandemic is not ‘for’ anything. The pandemic is what it is. A phenomenon sweeping your planet, as a virus of the body and, in so far as fear is contagious, of the mind. It is causing traumatic deaths and untold grief. Livelihoods are evaporating, and some in ‘power’ are ruthlessly taking advantage of their security. Many are ‘capitalising’ on the opportunities to profiteer from the vulnerability of others. This pandemic is not merely a ‘tool’ of conscious evolution. To consider it so would be a fallacy. 

However. Human beings are ready to wake up. Tragedy is a great awakener. Would that hearts might awaken without an alarm. But the fog has heretofore been dense. 

Thank you. I hear you. So… what shall I do today, to absorb this and make sense of it? Please don’t say ‘keep breathing’… My anxiety woke me at 4.30am… Breathing deeply is like touching electric cattle fencing at the moment.

We are saying keep moving your body today. As much as you can. Keep a sense of flow. Your mixing desk works best when you are not ‘static’. 

I can do that. I’ll set up a standing desk again… I can keep moving. And my head and heart?

Let the torus flourish. Generate torsion. 

Ha… Honestly… I love your faith in my capacity for this! 😉

Capacity for this? You set out at your life’s origin with this intention. This is your goal not ours. This is your destiny. And the destiny of all of you. It is not a magic show or a beauty contest. It is just physics, harnessed for the greater good. 

Generate torsion, from your heart outwards. This is the new business as usual, ok? No one needs to stop the clocks or cut any ribbons. It’s the new normal. Centre in your heart and generate torsion. You’ll know when it lands. When it does, just note it and slightly magnify it. And get on with your day. No jazz hands; no sighs or highs. Land the feeling with a hand to the heart if you would like a physical anchoring tool. But keep the torus images in mind, and breathe like a fountain if and when it feels good to do so. 

If you want motivation, know this. You can resolve fatigue this way. Why? Because you start to generate more energy than you actually burn. Tesla said there was free energy to be generated – by torsion. And it starts with you and in you. 

Ok. I can buy in to that notion and invitation! Thank you! Be with me… Ok? Be with me, Torsion? Ty.

I am generating torsion – from my heart outwards

PS. Just found this for the scientist in me:

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15823696

 

PPS: I thought , ‘It’s time to get back to the HeartMath Institute…’. I went there and guess what, they are offering The HeartMath Experience for free at this time to support people through CV19. 🙂 I’ve signed up…

https://experience.heartmath.com/course

 

I set out to use my Frequency Modulation Mixing Desk to master my frequencies yesterday, while running a classy 4 Hour WorkDay… aaaaand seemingly unleashed some energetic storm:

I ended up spending 4 hours – yes 4 hours – working on getting on to a conferencing platform for a webinar I’m giving next week. And around that, wifi and computers were dancing all over the place. I got animated on a phone call, and gave myself a sudden startling, painful head rush (excess/trapped qi?). G said my energy had been all over the place all day – and he has never said that before. The exercise I’d wanted to do was to list:

• Frequency raisers
• Frequency tasers

And seemingly I was in taser mode all day! Everything I touched got zapped. So, wth..?

Settle in, sausage. We’ve got stuff to discuss. 

Awesome. Ty.

Time to meditate first. We need to meet you in a different state of mind. Let the boiling water cool a bit. 

Ah… yes. My head is a bit ‘heated’. I’ll turn the ‘kettle’ off and wait a while…

***Reading of Bringers and 20 min med***

Welcome back. 

Thank you. I feel cooler of head.

The topic for today is The Simulation. 

Excellent.

Yesterday you found the new TV programme, Upload. 

We did. OMG. I resonated.

Indeed. You liked the idea of the human being uploaded into the virtual reality afterlife, and having instant constant access to an Angel who would meet all needs. 

Very much.

Welcome to your reality. Not so ‘virtual’ on the inside, is it? 

And what do you mean by this?

We mean welcome to the paradigm in which all seems so real, and yet… is very much a simulation in which all is instantly changeable – ‘mutable‘. You just haven’t learnt the functionality yet. For example, the Angel. You barely ever call on your Angel. 

Ha! It’s true.

Your Angel is the sound engineer on the Frequency Modulation Mixing Desk. You are in the studio. Your Angel is out on the desk. You two are in constant, dynamic communication. If you want. If you will. 

You can ask your Angel to tweak and twiddle the frequency mix at any time. 

Just like Nathan and Nora in Upload. He is in the VR, and she is on the control desk outside. The communication is telepathic, but also she turns up in his reality as a person-like avatar at any time.

And so your Angel is always on the desk, and can also turn up as a person-like Avatar at any time. 

Are you my Angel?

Of course. And yet… 

Can you be clear?

Not really. “It’s company policy.” 

Haha. Like ‘Horizen’ in the programme.

So is this why, last week, you suggested the idea of imagining that ‘in a year, the simulator would be switched off’? This is all hugely overlapping. I hadn’t heard of Upload, and it came out yesterday (the day we watched it) and G just put it on… Is this all going somewhere…?

Yes and no. There would need to be somewhere to go, and for that you need space and time to be… ‘real’. 

Very… funny/true?!

Where it is going is this. You are being invited to expand your awareness beyond the ‘here and now’ to the ‘there and now’. This means the following. Life has slowed right down in this quarantine, and become incredibly peaceful, has it not? The only turbulence remains:

1. On your screens as you reach out to discern what is going on… the actuality of which you can not truly know, especially filtered through one medium or another. (The external)
2. In your energetic sphere. (The internal)

Our suggestion is that: 

1. You turn off the VR world in your ‘news’ screens for now. You cease and desist the work of discerning the outside sphere, for now. (The external)
2. You turn in to your energetic sphere, and work with that, learning in this time of isolation how to use your Frequency Modulation Mixing Desk, via contact with your Sound Engineer, or Angel. (The internal)

That seems eminently sensible. A good use of this time. I mean, there’s still plenty for me to practise on. It’s not as if there’s just ‘sitting around’ to be done for me in this time… I’m juggling work. Yesterday was such a sh*tstorm I’m going to need to work through most of today – a Saturday…

You’ve put the kettle on again. Switch it off and let’s cool the waters for a second. 

You have a Sound Engineer on your Frequency Modulation Mixing Desk. Did you hear that? You’ve got invisible head phones on. So have they. You are in constant communication. They have the controls to everything you could want modulated. And they are entirely, 100% on your side. They are guided by you and your free will, so they will do whatever you like, but they are borne out of Source, so their real skill-set is LightWork.  

Wow. Beautiful. Hello, Sound Engineer. So, you’re like Nora. I can think thoughts to you. You want the best for me. You have full control of the VR world I’m in and can sort everything. I guess there’s a time lag, right?

Right. You put in the request, but if you’re not believing or expecting the request to be met, it gets stuck or delayed in the system. That’s just how the VR works. It’s not so much a glitch in design as a challenge through which you can learn to become completely clear in your detachment about receiving. And that takes complete self-clarity, which means self-acceptance, which means self-appreciation, which means self-knowing, which means loving the heck out of yourself from waking til sleeping.

Once you log off for sleep, and go back on charge, you roam around outside the tight confines of the VR and get refreshed. The idea is that if you can know/love yourself in the VR landscape, you’ve really nailed that torsion concept we mentioned the other day. And that is… well… it’s divine alchemy. So, go you, sweet sister of souls! 

Man, alive. Ok. So… today?

The trick with all this is to start really small. “Nora, dial up my energy 1 notch. Dial down my frustration about this task, by 2. Nora, let this person know that despite the brevity of my email to them here, I do love and appreciate them. Nora, snapshot this scene in to my ‘Cherished Memories’ folder.” 

‘Nora’? Isn’t that the character in the TV show?

Today you can call your Sound Engineer by any name. Is Angel too loaded for you? Use Nora. Or Sound Engineer. Or Bob. Or Mixey. 

What would they like to be called?

Torsion. 

Ha! Excellent. Of course. Because that’s what we’re learning to work with.

Torsion gives you acceleration. 

I like it. 🙂

Ok Torsion, turn up my physical energy levels for today. Just by 2. And turn down my appetite by a 1. Download a packet of Optimism and Peace. Thank you.

So, Torsion is your Sound Engineer on your Frequency Modulation Mixing Desk. Work with them today, and have fun. Remember the communication is instant. Remember the aim of the simulator is to learn to ‘get on top’ of your internal frequencies, and Torsion will help immeasurably. 

Today, I am playing with Torsion.

I am playing with Torsion

 

 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ZfZj2bn_xg)

One Hour Later:

What the actuallllll???

I’m looking at the BBC news and this story about Elon Musk turns up:

Quite some article in itself. “Ah!” I think, as an off-shoot… “The only time I heard about the concept of ‘torsion’ was when being taken out for a test drive in a Tesla” Tesla were interested in sponsoring my company. “Let me google Tesla and Torsion to get a better understanding of torsion in cars…”

And then THIS appears. Both of the articles. I can’t even GO there yet….

 

Excuse me?!?!? Before these dialogues I literally only knew of ‘torsion’ as with cars, and then the definition I looked up, ‘twisting’. What rabbit hole are you taking me down, dear Dialogues?!?

My heart is full. I’m mind blown, but also, you know I love this. I’ll read the actual articles later.

Mind blown. Grateful. ❤️