Author: Dialogues Of Discernment

I did honour my creativity – in my qigong practice; in my business creation; in my video editing; in my ability to go for a bike ride in the middle of the working day and feel that I was ‘on holiday!’.

Do you remember in therapy last month, a notion came up for me strong and hard: “This is not child’s play.” That was my younger/child me acknowledging and owning that her activities were not meaningless – that her, my, creativity is not childish. Somewhere in childhood I picked up the notion that if it doesn’t hurt or burn me out or bore me, it can’t be grown up. I have largely worked much of that out of my system, but maybe it’s this last (or next) chunk to go: CREATIVITY.

Playfulness and ease. That’s serious business! 

It is, right?!

What is creativity to your mind? 

I guess creativity is Source unfurling itself through us!

****ACIM reading and 10minMed****

This beautiful quote from ACIM illuminated my mediation and my ‘basking in glimpses of pleasing things’:

“He must learn to lay all judgment aside, and ask only what he really wants in each circumstance.” ACIM MfT p11

Tell me about this.

This is exactly the teaching you have been receiving from Abraham. Even the fact you are now willing to talk about Abraham here indicates that you are learning to lay all judgment aside. When Abraham asks: “And are you knowing what you are wanting?” you are being invited to tap into Source Energy. Knowing what you are really wanting is your route into alignment with you inner being. Did you know that? 

I suppose on some level I did… The laying judgment aside is an important factor isn’t it?

Absolutely. Your ego (which judges) has the opposite agenda to your inner being. There, never said so clearly. 

Never said so clearly…….. That is some pivot.

• Unwanted = ego’s agenda
• Wanted = inner being’s agenda

It’s ok to let go of my ego’s judgmental agenda?

You’ve gone a long way with that already. You really have. Can you see that?

I can to a degree. Are there areas we could shimmy and shake at?

Of course. You know what they are. They are the things you really want which you tell yourself ‘it’s not yet time for’ or ‘that won’t make money’. They are the ideas that pop up as glimpses of pleasing things WHENEVER you let your mind drift in a tuned in tapped in turned on state. You must be very happy with your glimpses..? 

I am!!!! They are delightful!!

To glimpse is to get into vibrational alignment with, is to attract or line up with… Keep glimpsing what you really want. 

L u s h. Ty.

I am glimpsing what I really want… in all circumstances

 

PS. Colette Davenport says “I’m stepping forward…”

 

I enjoyed the Mary Poppins daydreaming yesterday. I wore a nice dress, and sat up straighter and floated along on my walk (no jogging for Mary P.).

So what now? 

I think I would like to read (ACIM – MforT Chap 3) and Meditate (10mins)

Go ahead. 

***

I GET IT. I’m so glad I re-read yesterday’s transcription of the Abraham talk – on getting into the vortex (via meditation – it only takes two or three minutes) and then catching glimpses of pleasing things… and knowing that they are glimpses of what is in the Vortex. I’d forgotten that this is what happens in mediation when you are not stuck to ‘MUST HAVE NO THOUGHT FOR 15 MINS’.

What floated in? Glimpses of…  Lightcasting….. Energy work… within my professional practice.

Healer. 

Maybe. I don’t know. It feels very pragmatic when I do that… The other thing I noted (or remembered from the last house I lived in) was the power of reading something that resonated with Source before meditating. One line from ACIM stayed with me…

That’s all it takes. 

‘…for it is the destiny of all relationships to become holy’. ACIM – MFTp8

Meditating with that powerfully resonant line as an anchor seemed to get the juices flowing of shifting from mind state to… to…

Vortex resonance – tuned in tapped turned on.

Right! Exactly. This. How had I forgotten that this is what meditation is all about…? No wonder I’d put it off.

Not so Zen now? 

I think what Abraham is teaching us is that we have access to new techniques now.

Pivot. 

Yes, it’s time to pivot from being (idle?) students to active discoverers and explorers of… these new dimensions.

The vibrational reality which is as close to you as your life vein? 

Yes.

Glimpses, that’s all it takes. You see them, you feel them, you let yourself know that you know what they mean. Because you do. 

That’s the ‘non-contradicting it with reality’ mindset.

You are seeing future realities. Know that that is what you are doing when you catch glimpses of pleasing things. That is not to say you are reading the future. You are seeing options and possibilities stored up for you in your vortex as a result of your sorting and sifting and asking and basking.  

And so did you enjoy that glimpsing? 

Yes! It gave me a deeper sense of how to do my work, and what to bring to my practice.

Little stones. I need to get little stones.

Will you? 

Yes, why not. I’ll take a bag on my walk today…

This is just the beginning. Relax. Have fun. Know that all is well. Play with it all. Be fun with it all. Life is so much more satisfying when you see it as ‘playful’. 

Let me be playful today, yet… in the grown up way. I can exhaust myself with childlike play… Show me what playfulness looks like in my grown-up self.

It looks like seriously playful creativity. Honour your creativity and you will find the mature playfulness you are interested in. But you gotta truly honour it. You play like a child because you do not yet see playfulness as having a role in mature life. You got stuck there. Bring playfulness forward as creativity. And honour it. 

I shall honour my creativity. Thank you. Thank you so much for this.

And we are but you. <3

Ooh, tingles. Thank you.

I am honouring my creativity

 

I had such a productive, and fulfilling weekend playing with ‘fun and done’. We hosted a ‘1st birthday’ party and we filled the garden and house with decorations, and created a photo album of the baby’s first few months of life. It was so good to write a list of actions, and fly through them – even when challenges arose. And it came down to setting an intention to create a ‘magical birthday party’.

Intentions give direction to your momentum. 

I reflected on how the ‘scaffolding’ of my routine replaces the need for ‘willpower’. The willpower works with time. My autistic brain is very right hemisphere; time is linear and left hemisphere. The scaffolding reduces the need for willpower with regards to time – and that grants me more space for basking in right brain creativity.

So intentions are like architectural drawings that accompany the scaffolding around your nascent construction. 

And then I get inside the construction site and play with creating the building…

And so what building would you like to create this week? 

I was reminded in a podcast on my walk on Friday of the Abraham ‘pivot’ technique. Ironic I hadn’t noted it before with the name of this project! The main concept – and it’s so brilliant – is this:

“If you know what you don’t want, then you know what you do want.”

So, if something is troubling you, pivot in the opposite direction, towards the ‘wanted’.

Like magic. 

It is a bit! So for this week…

What DO you want? 

Satisfaction… 

So can you use dissatisfaction as a lever towards your satisfaction? 

Not really. I can’t confidently look at dissatisfaction without magnifying it.

So can you look at all the aspects of your life, week, day and segments that bring you satisfaction? Can you set an intention for satisfaction? What would that architectural drawing look like? 

Satisfied me… Hm… What gives me satisfaction? I think ‘knowing I’ve helped people’ gives me a feeling of satisfaction. And knowing I’ve pushed the boat out in terms of my creativity and self-expression, makes me feel deep satisfaction.

Helping + Creativity = Feelings of Satisfaction

Yes. So is it a case of more helping and more creativity?

What do you feel? 

I feel I need to add something. It’s about ‘non-judgment’; it’s about ‘unconditional positive regard’. I have a hunch that that is the oil that eases the satisfaction machine.

Helping +
Creativity +
Unconditional Positive Regard
= Feelings of Satisfaction

Yes. This is my intention for this working week.

Helping – self and others +
Creativity of expression – for self and others +
Unconditional Positive Regard – for self and others
= Feelings of Satisfaction

So in each segment you are welcoming Helping + Creativity + UPR so that you might bask in the feelings of satisfaction. 

That is my segment intending, yes. May I find my phrase?

This is a beautiful new week, and it is my intention to bask in feelings of satisfaction. I love the feelings of satisfaction that run all the way through by being. I know they are good for my health, wellbeing and internal organs. I know we are created in order to feel the expansiveness of creativity, which is to say, to experience feelings of satisfaction. Sometimes, I just need to press pause and focus to realise that satisfaction is hovering in the air around me ready to be inhaled right here right now. I am ready to receive immense satisfaction this week. I am excited that I have three tools to take on to my construction site this week: 

1. Helping
2. Creativity
3. UPR

With these 3 tools, and with my intention to feel feelings of satisfaction, and with the scaffolding of my routine, I know – and it is powerful to know the power of my knowing – I know that satisfaction is available to me and to us all at any moment in time. 

It is my firm intention to feel and to absorb and to receive feelings of deep satisfaction this week. 

Beautiful! A rampage. Thank you! How satisfying!

I am feeling satisfied!

Oh yes, I just spotted (again): satis. Satis = enough. Faction = making / doing.

I am doing enough… This is enough. Enough is made… This is enough.

Ooh… that is so big. It’s the antidote to the messages of my youth: work harder, do more, keep pushing.

And isn’t it good to know that this is enough?

It sure is.

Take that with you. 

I am feeling satisfied – this is enough.

Enough? 

Enough. Satis.

I am feeling satisfied – this is enough

 

 

I have to say, I am feeling much more relaxed these days… I’m going at a gentler pace; I’m cleaving to my routine diligently but with flexibility; I’m more on top of my business again. I’m also maybe 5 days into taking magnesium and Hemp oil, so maybe that’s helping with reducing the adrenal drive.

Yes, I am sunbathing in some good satisfaction.

I am basking in wellbeing.

I am focussing – gently – on feeling good. Thank you, Abraham, for that.

I sense the possibility for more satisfaction…?

There is always more satisfaction to be had. That is the nature of creation. It thrives on creating. 

Am I creating enough?

Of course! Could you be creating and expanding with less resistance? Of course! The invitation to drop resistance is always with you. 

That’s human life, right? To learn to trust and believe and love and relish and allow and enjoy and accept and receive and… drop resistance as you go.

‘Precisely’, as Abraham would say. 

And when it comes to ‘dropping resistance’ for me, what guidance might you give me, dear voice of my Being?

Breathe, dear soul. Breathe… Set your intention for ‘Satisfaction’ and b r e a t h e… That is the kindest thing you can do for yourself right now. ‘Satisfaction’ out-performs ‘happiness’ in the human realm. Satisfaction goes right to the core of you, and that is why b r e a t h i n g into the core of you creates ‘space’ for the satisfaction to swim about. You think we are speaking metaphorically? We really are not. You practice qigong, you know about this. The flow is internal and external – as above so below. Stuckness is internal and external – as above, so below. You work to release qi stuckness and increase flow in the internal and external simultaneously. Breathing deeply is the ultimate facilitator of increased energy in the internal and external realm. 

I see. I hear you. Can I ask… Is this about multidimensionality too?

Absolutely. You want to believe you are a solid entity dancing only along the physical plane, but know that you are an off-shoot of a Self that sits across various dimensions. That is why your care of your body on this plane is of value. The self likes to be equally distributed across planes, and your ‘lightness’ and ‘brightness’ and ‘energetic freedom’ on this physical plane maximises the same in the other dimensions. 

What does that even mean?!

It means as below, so above. Loosen up here, to loosen up there. You can’t see the benefit that you bring to your whole self when you drop resistance and foster flow, but it is real and significant.

If you could give me one top piece of advice on this – alongside breathing deeply to create space in the core of me – what would it be?

Anticipate satisfaction. 

That gave me a little leap in the pit of my stomach.

It’s good, isn’t it? Remember, breathe first, or it becomes a mental exercise to set an intention for satisfaction. In other words: 

1. Set the intention for satisfaction – you can consider that done already as it is all your inner being is interested in anyway
2. Breathe deeply, in to the core of you
3. Anticipate satisfaction from there

I love it. Thank you. I will work with this today. I sense that using the 3 steps you mention is a kind of 1+1+1=5 equation.

Think 1+1+1=infinity, and you’ll be closer to the truth. 

Lovely. Thank you.

I am breathing deeply and anticipating satisfaction

PS. Just went ahead and booked on to a 2 hour Deep Dive Group Breathe in a couple of weeks, with my breathwork instructor friend and mentor, Deborah.

Max Basking had a really great day. It’s about appreciating what you’ve created/received as you go, isn’t it? It’s about saying, ‘Look at all this beauty – fascination – curiosity – delicious food – great company – time to relax – soft companionship – comfy cushions – sunshine in the sky…’

And I sense, as I slip into that state, this must be the state of alignment. And in the state of alignment, I don’t need to effort or push for my future, the SoA is what has us shimmying into the vortex. Right?

***Med15min***

Think of the experience of sun-bathing. At first it feels unnatural to just stay lying there doing nothing – after all there are so many things to do and to be done. But you have a vested interest [as a pallid white girl]: a glowing, healthy sun tan. So you stay there in horizontal mode, and then, lo and behold, you start to relax. Indeed, you positively soak up the warmth of the sun. You become one with nature and the gentle breezes. Your mind slows down and you are fully in the receptive mode. Sunbathing is a great metaphor for Max Basking and the State of Alignment. 

Ok so now that’s my band name. 🙂

When sunbathing, you know your role is really to do nothing. The work is being done for you. 

Same with life?

To a certain extent. You’ll find that when you’re in alignment you get inspiration to do x or y, for the FUN of it. 

My Mum was a guru… [She always said, “It’s got to be fun!”]

She really was. 

When the inspiration comes, act on it, but not with effort or urgency. Act on inspiration just as if you were sunbathing on the beach and you suddenly felt the inclination to jump up for a swim, or play volleyball. For the fun of it. 

Ok. Sunbathing mode.

Lovely. 

I am in sunbathing mode