Category: The Peak Project

My ‘flowing’ was so complete yesterday that I spent much of the day on my back asleep or napping. I was tired – and I flowed with it. My body has so much healing to do. Also, I’ve given myself ‘annual leave’ til next week, so I was using the time to reboot.

I did appreciate the consistent self-reminder to flow with what was, to soak in the moment, to appreciate what was happening. I had a fraction too much grousing in me for my liking – but that was just the processing of old emotions. I can bring compassion to that.

You did really well. You are sinking in to this new paradigm beautifully. 

Will I keep it up once ‘work’ begins again? How?

1. You are planning to change your diet [a la Medical Medium – in my words Virtually Vegan, Grazing Green, Roughly Raw] – this will energise you no end.
2. You have set your working hours for 12-5pm weekdays – so you will be less overwhelmed by it all, and have more time for sustaining your daily MEDSAN practice. 
3. You have a vision of shifting your work focus from mainly training to mainly casework practice, especially remotely. This means you will be working with people who need resolution now, rather than training (often only partly-willing) theorists.
4. You understand that you set the frequency (#PeaceFreq) and that working with dissonance in you is not helpful. 

It’s true! And since working on really relaxing this week, I’ve had two private cases come in.

Because you were found to be on the wavelength of peace. Source looks for helpers on the Peace Freq. If you are on the dissonance frequency waving a flag of peace like a cat on a hot tin roof, you can not be found to help restore peace. 

On the Peace Freq, you literally magnetise the desired work. 

This is really serious learning. It makes it very clear to me that I must put my practice of stillness, softening, flowing, weightlessness etc at the centre of my life.

To remain on the Peace Freq more and more is a real gift to yourself and others. It’s a service in itself. 

It’s also a discipline. It’s a relearning.

You’re completely ready. You are in a home that supports total peace. Furthermore, you have developed some EXCELLENT executive functioning techniques which are really working for you. They give you calm and order. 

Yes. It turns out that tracking things, by time and achievement, really helps. The Say/Do Game and the Switch20 Game really helped too. I’m using my trackers and my Day Book and my timers. It’s good.

When we have that sense of poise and lightly-held ‘control’ over ourselves and our actions (vs aiming for control over conditions/others/outcomes – which is not helpful), we can heighten our magnetism of the good stuff. 

What is this magnetism? It sounds quite airy-fairy, or like ‘magical thinking’.

Play with it. ‘Are you knowing what you are wanting?’

Yes. Interesting and fulfilling cases.

And why are you doing so much (exhausting) training? 

To open the doors to more cases; to gain confidence in undertaking cases; to meet contacts for future cases.

Good. Keep that in mind. The training is the doorway, not the destination. 

Anything else you are wanting? 

To merge the two sides of my life – DoDs and my Casework. Under one roof. Without bullet-dodging behaviours.

Hey hey hey – no need for strong language. Hold to the vision: ‘To merge the two sides of my life – DoDs and my Casework. Under one roof.’

Yes. What do I need to know?

You need to hold that vision. In a target slide. Thus far, your Reality Transurfing-esque target slide [see back of my copy of RT] has not included the casework. 

Oh my goodness – that is true! So what is it I need to know??

DIALOGUE. This is your key word. Like this: 

 

‘A discussion between two or more people or groups, especially one directed towards exploration of a particular subject or resolution of a problem.’

Consultation, facilitation, resolution… via dialogue. As we are doing here. Dialogue is your merging factor. 

But what if people were to find out I dialogue with myself?!

They might start doing the same themselves. And sort out all kinds of topics, questions, queries and problems. Is that a bad thing? 

Ha. No. Of course not. But what if they point at me and laugh?

Let’s look at the artist Huang Yong Ping. If he had told his family back in the day that he was going to put a bunch of sea-transport containers and a giant serpent skeleton in a large hall, they would hardly have congratulated him or felt optimistic about his future career prospects. They might even have laughed and pointed at him. And when he did produce Monumenta 2016 in Paris (below), which stunned thousands of visitors with its power, it’s probable that many people still did laugh at him. That is the artist’s risk and reason. 

I don’t like being pointed at and laughed at…

Why not try it? The laughing-pointers are coming from a place of fear and ego. The majority of people are coming from neutrality or love. You must risk triggering the laughing-pointers to speak deeply with the people in a place of love. 

I see. Ok. Thank you… So much good stuff today.

• I hear you on refining that target slide to include DoDs and Casework.
• I hear you that Dialogue is the keyword.
• I hear you on maintaining the #PeaceFreq

Thank you for all those points. What is the message for today?

You’re resisting it, but it’s about magnetising, because it’s important for you to know you are a living, breathing, walking magnet (everyone is!). So it’s wise to take care with what you are magnetising, and to learn to set your thought-systems consciously. Magnetising is just physics. It’s no special power or gift. You magnetise according to your frequency, so shift into #PeaceFreq at will. 

Ok. Got it. Ty. xx

I am magnetising

 

Brilliantly, ‘soaking it all in’ is the perfect antidote to my ‘pushpushpush’ tendency. Since childhood, I’ve believed that ‘pushing through’ any moment (eg by pouring energy/words/actions into it) makes it better. You cannot both ‘push’ and ‘soak it in’. Yesterday was my first day back from that amazing London trip. I was able to be still and soak in…

• • • a walk in the forest
    • my home
    • time with my youngest in the car
    • dinner out with my eldest and G
    • delicious food
    • lying in bed with my love

No efforts, no gilding the lily, no jazzhanding, no pushing – even if for moments only. It wasn’t all plain sailing. At other times, I was (tbh) upset, overwhelmed and fractious, as emotions and tiredness welled up from the past week. But the ‘soaking it all in’ protocol was there for me whenever I could remember to use it. It’s like pressing a pause button which simultaneously lights up the world around you so you can see it better.

A form of mindfulness. 

Yes. I was remembering how I observed ‘mindful eating’ in the past – and how it helped me feel nourished. Mindful anything is nourishing, isn’t it? On the subject of mindful eating, I’ve been preparing for my Medical Medium style cleanse across the month of August. I’ve done some tracking charts I can use now and refine for next week – they are focussed on…

1) getting in a good range of the healing foods across each week:

 

2) noting what I ate and when, across each day – to bring consciousness, and a record:

You are aiming to ‘soak in’ nourishing, healing foods. 

Yes. That’s right.

I thought yesterday about how I long for peace, unity, light, love – and that creates the acronym ‘PULL’.

Soaking inwards, pulling inwards, turning inwards. These are the routes to the Peak experience you were hoping to discover. Each person can discover themselves to be the MAGNET of the frequencies that light them up. If you can relax into the mode of acceptance, receiving, allowing, then truly all goodness comes spinning towards you.

It is a discipline, this stillness and soaking in, isn’t it?

Only until you are used to seeing the blessed benefits from it, then the stillness becomes your sanctuary and your stronghold. You shrug off the old pushpushpush tendencies, because they have become completely irrelevant to you. You finally realise truly that they never bring the returns you sought. In fact, you realise, the goodness comes to you despite the pushpushpush! 

I get this sense of a tide having turned. Almost like I’ve reached the zenith of my life, where the outward push is over, and now the sea comes back to shore of its own accord.

Ebb becomes flow. 

Yes! The outgoing tide becomes the incoming tide. And the being that is me can sit on the shore and let everything roll in towards me without my chasing, tugging or orchestrating.

Sounds like you have found a good analogy for your current opportunities in life. 

Yes, and I can find others who are also living with this flow.

Or you can just model the receiving, accepting flow mode to yourself and others. You can be the receiver of all goodness, and thus allow others to set themselves in the receiving mode too. 

For this to work well, you have to keep you intentions clear though, don’t you? Like the ‘target slide’ [of the book Reality Transurfing]?

Absolutely. Your vision remains clear and strong, yet it is ever enhanced by your ability to see the perfection in what already is… and flow (reality transurf, if you like) with that perfection. 

Ah. See the perfection of what is, and flow with it…

Your current section of the river is always beautiful – you need not wait to get downstream (and certainly not upstream!) to be bowled over by what you see. You are flowing down a river which gets progressively more and more beautiful and wonder-full. Relax into the canoe and let the water carry you as you behold the scenery – as you soak in your surroundings. 

Merrily, merrily, merrily, life is but a dream…

I am flowing

I love the ‘softening’ sensation – it really is melting. I need morrrrre of that good stuff. Relaxing…

I was blown away by my sister’s use of the hypnobirthing techniques during her labour. She went in to such a deep, deep state – and worked with such focus and gentle power through each contraction (which  in keeping with the hypnobirthing protocols we called ‘surges’ to promote a better psychological connection to the opening of the body). The ‘softening’ work is in some ways akin to that ripening, opening, relaxing process of labour.

I wonder if I can use hypnosis-based meditations to accustom myself to really softening? It’s definitely my conscious mind that ‘pings’ me back to tautness and ‘doingness’. I need more practice in deep relaxation, to help my alert mind (and amygdala in particular) feel comfortable and safe with going offline. This is the work of meditation in general, but I wonder if good hypnosis-based mediations could help me shift more readily into those deep theta brain waves. 

Brain Wave Frequencies from lucid.me

 

Those theta brainwaves you’re interested in accessing are linked with greater intuition. However, as they are also linked to greater susceptibility, be careful in what you ‘open’ yourself up to in the theta state. 

Ah yes. Got it. Trusted sources. Like Heidi Sawyer?

Sure. 

And that ex-radio guy, Glenn someone.

Sure. 

What else should I know?

There is still much of great goodness and inspiration to ‘soak in’ on your physical plane.

Ah yes! My sister-in-law talked about going to a certain part of New York that she used to know well, and just finding a place to have a treaty cocktail, and sit and ‘soak it all in’. I really liked that image.

Sometimes it feels attractive and exciting to use the intuitive brain to download things from ‘other’ frequencies and ‘external’ planes. However, there is much to be drawn from, absorbed and learnt from the present reality right before you. You have manifested such beauty and goodness around you – in your loved ones, your home, your physical surroundings, your work. Appreciation of that which you have already created, through your powerful intent, is an important step in honing your ongoing creative skills and refining your manifesting intent. Slow down; soak it all in. 

Lovely. As I get more peaceful, weightless and softened, it becomes possible to be present to the wonder of what is, and soak it all in – right?

Indeed. And if your hypno-meditations are intended to help you be more present to what is (rather than carry you ‘off-planet’ to other dimensions) then they will assist you in ‘soaking it all in’. 

Because the hypno-meditations will allow me to remain longer in the parasympathetic state, right?

Right. Good work. And in the parasympathetic state is when the appreciative ‘soaking it all in’ begins. 

It’s like there are two types of tourist:

The sympathetic state tourist: “Go, go, go! We gotta a schedule! Next stop! Take the picture and go! Back on the coach!” 

The parasympathetic state tourist: “Shall we sit here in this plaza and soak it all in?”

Your hypno-meditations will help you linger longer in the plaza. 

Lush. Let’s see on Insight Timer…

 

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Well, that was a lovely meditation. I’m reminded, I used to do quite a lot of hypnosis-based mediation, from Diana Cooper to Paul McKenna. I like the use of imagination, and conscious breathwork to relax and let. I got the sensation of ‘soaking it all in’ and… the associated joy. Hey, this is a good antidote to anhedonia.

Ok. This is good. May your day be full of soaking in all the good, good wonders in your world. 

Beautiful. Thanks.

I am soaking it all in

 

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Later: On my walk today I did some serious soaking in of the gorgeous woods and an awesome Louise Hay talk:

Oh man, I love Louise Hay so much. What a soul she was. How much I learnt from her, the moment I stopped being triggered by her…!!

I took some notes on the walk..

Change & Transition (talk) by Louise Hay – my interpretations and takeaways:

• Boomerang effect is constant: whatever we give out comes back, including how we behave to ourselves (eg respect/love vs belittling/fear)

• Be patient with your vacillations back and forth between old paradigm beliefs/actions, and new. It takes time to settle in and embed the new paradigm belief systems.

• Loving ourselves is the main aim – and thus settling into inner peace. And helping others heal old traumas and love themselves is worthy work.

• There is no them and us. There’s only us. People acting violently/aggressively are likely acting out childhood trauma.

• What’s your addiction? (AT: rejecting joy??) Find a positive addiction eg loving yourself; affirmations

• Stress = Fear. If feeling stressed asked yourself ‘What am I fearing? What am I creating in me? Why am I not at peace with myself? Why am I not doing one thing at a time?’ Say: How can I release this fear?

• Love is the answer. From a loving space of the heart. When you love yourself life is so much easier – and so much more fun! You enjoy life! Really support yourself – and then you can support others.

• The more you turn to your higher power (God within you) the more powerful you become.

Thanks, Louise. I have loved this talk.

#PeaceFreq ❣️

A perfect, beautiful child was born! I was able to bear witness to the 48 hour process – all bar the last half an hour which took place in theatre. Wow – what power, strength and poise I bore witness to in my sister. What mighty resilience of spirit and determination! And then, to meet this new soul, and watch her bask blissful in the love of her astonished, doting, melting parents… I am truly blessed to be present to the beginning of this brand new Life.

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On my way to the birth, after Peak 57’s writing, I left the house open-eyed ready to ‘bear witness’. Barely had I left the house when I came across a car with a big “Teach Peace” sticker – in the exact form I’d be playing with for my pre-2019 visioning in late 2018. I regretted not taking a pic of the car, but bizarrely a friend posted the words with the very same typography on FB the next day, so here it is:

As I walked on to the hospital, I reflected on how I’d let my 2019 mission statement of ‘Reach Peace; Teach Peace‘ slide out of sight. It felt too intangible – and also, “who am I to teach others about peace..?” But I noted the nod from the universe and considered, ‘maybe it’s time to talk of my work at least in terms of ‘making peace’…’

Later that night, while the birth process was in a settled lull, I returned to the flat for a nap. On my way in the taxi, I caught sight of the lunar eclipse… and when I got to the house, I leapt out to take photos. I was there on the street at the 10.30pm peak of the partial eclipse!!

There was a bollard in front of my best view, which I kept trying to keep out of the pic… until I looked more closely at it… (see orangey eclipse in the distance). That word ‘Reach‘ making its appearance!:

At that peak eclipse moment, it felt like the message was underlined: ‘Reach Peace; Teach Peace.’ Game back on.

As a phrase, it does sum up all I’d like to achieve in terms of a) my internal state and b) service in the world – even if it’s just the fact of being able to be present to others (in conflict) in a state of peace to help them align to the energy of peace.

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[The next day]

Your thoughts on the above? Help me hear you clearly please. I love you. I am listening.

Settle in now. You are not alone. You are always accompanied. You are held. You are loved. Let softness enter into this dialogue, and listen with a gently inclined ear. These words come in floatingly, do they not?

They do! They do… What is it that I can learn today, this day? My beloved sister, brother-in-law and newborn niece are coming home from hospital.

Then focus on them. Today is not a day for thought and intellectualising. Today is the day to put on the ‘pinny’ and use the hands and voice to serve, reassure, help and assist, very gently. 

If you want to work on this theme, ‘Reach Peace; Teach Peace’, let it be in your practice of holding an inner state of peace. Can you remain conscious of your inner being, your inner state? Can you lead with inner peace, rather than external action? 

I think so… I can at least try.

Your ‘efforts’ are appreciated, yet starting with a vision of yourself in a state on inner peace, connected to your inner being, will propel you further than making efforts to ‘try‘. Everyone can play with imagining themselves in one state or another, and affirming that imaginal state. The body reads the imaginal state first, and responds to it. 

It’s really as simple as saying ‘I am peaceful’ today, isn’t it?

It is. And that is the state the baby needs, today on her third day of life. She simply needs to be around peaceful people – especially after the cacophony of the hospital. Her parents need the reassurance of peace too. 

Ok. That’s simplified things. Thank you. Soft breath in. And out…

I am peaceful

 

Playing the Sacred Say/Do/Be Game yesterday taught me something profound:

You are either in a ‘Sacred‘ state or a ‘Scared‘ state

– but you can’t be in both at once.

In other words, fear has no place in the sacred state of mind. The moment fear – or the voice of the petrifying ego – steps in, the sacredness of the moment vanishes! And on the other hand, the Sacred is entered into precisely by surrendering our fear, concern, and worry – and going in to the next moment ‘naked’.

May I leave ‘Scared‘ behind as I enter the Sacred birthing experience with my beautiful sister and her wonderful husband. May I surrender my fears at the door; may I wipe my feet of personal concerns or self-consciousness; may I surrender to the Sacredness of this birth. May I have such insight into the wonder of what I am about to experience, that I am lifted up in trust, faith and wonder.

Meditation…

Sarah Blondin invites us to commune with our fears and hear their messages.

Ok, dear Scaredness-in-me, holding tight to my heart. What is your message and learning for me? I’m listening. I’m reaching in. Let me learn from you.

Scaredness: I’m experiencing vertigo, and a feeling I might ‘trip up’ and come crashing down. 

Like a fall from grace?

Scaredness: Like a fall from favour. As how a derelict building might collapse. 

Hang on. What’s the derelict building?

Scaredness: The dereliction of duty! Can’t you see? The ‘not doing’ is the problem which rots away the timber which holds up the house! 

But we’re precisely learning that ‘No-Do’ is an important practice…

Scaredness: Crazy! No-Do = Can’t Do = Won’t Do = Didn’t Do = T.R.O.U.B.L.E. 

Aha… I hear you. You’re really worried about what happens if we Do Nothing.

Scaredness: Do Nothing Dies.

Oh, I see. What a frightening concern to have! Especially when I’m tired and not moving fast…

Scaredness: Exactly. Flaking away, wasting time, letting the things build up… 

Man alive – I thought this was what I was sensing. It’s good to hear you say it aloud. I’m glad to get it out in the open. Is there anything else you feel and want to share with me?

Scaredness: Do Nothing Dies.

Ok. I hear you, dear friend. Well, I’m going to reassure you over time, with gentle, conscious, held exposure to No-Do. You’re going to learn it won’t kill us. In fact, No-Do is the perfect partner to Do. They work well in tandem. I’m going to show you, carefully and gently, that No-Do is safe, sensible and powerfully healing. No-Do is the gateway to the Sacred, and the Sacred is a space in which all things are ‘done’ and complete – in reality or in potential. It’s like looking in to the perfect future, in the present. Trust me, dearest, beloved, clawing, rampaging Scaredy-Cat – it’s safe to be still, silent and stopped.

Scaredness: Well, we’ll see about that! 

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So…

Good work. No-Do is indeed safe, sensible and powerfully healing. Think of the shepherd sitting on the hillside, the warrior at rest, the contemplative by the lake. 

Ah, contemplation. That’s somewhere between doing and thinking…

It’s the space between Say/Do and Be. It’s the still space of mind which watches its own thoughts, without reacting to them. It’s slow. It can be heartfelt. It’s reflective. 

I feel a bit vertiginous.

Welcome to the Lake of No-Do. Sit beside it and look out upon its still waters for a while. 

Contemplate…

Be the contemplative by the Lake of No-Do. 

But today… I have to go to London… It’s a very important day…

All the more important, if you truly want to be present to your loved ones for this Sacred occasion, that you go in the spirit of the contemplative by the Lake of No-Do. 

Ok. I trust you. Thank you.

I am the contemplative by the Lake of No-Do

 

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Later: Amazingly, THIS is literally where we (S,N and I) ended up this afternoon in London on a gentle walk we took from the hospital while we waited for the baby to start to come along… The Lake of No-Do?! ❣️