After the Peak Project I decided I needed to spend less time on these Dialogues of Discernment which were anyway for my eyes only, and repurpose my time and my writing impulses to my professional blog, where I could write about conflict resolution, and be more useful with my writing. But within a few days, the urge to write here became too strong, and I heard, ‘Sometimes we need to talk to you in private.’ And so, I returned here for consolation and guidance. BUT, several weeks in, I heard, ‘Pivot! It’s ‘Pivot’ not ‘Private’.’ And the Private dialogues summarily became the Pivot project. In this project, I sought to find the Autistic Zen Zone which would best give rest and nourishment to my beautiful Aspie brain. This led me to studying Zen Mind Beginner’s Mind as a thread through this project. What a good basis that went on to become, when our days of busy whirlwind productivity came to a grinding halt as the coronavirus pandemic changed life for everyone across the globe. Welcome to the Pivot Project (aka Private).
I can see why affirmations are a thing – because the very use of ‘I am..’ takes you in to a receptive, heart-coherent state. Add the desired attribute like ‘calm’, and you have the potential for generating actual outcomes. But you’ve got to feel it… not just say it.
The phrase ‘I am’ is considered to be powerful… eg in Christian discourse.
I valued getting in to the positive present yesterday. Just knowing (and I knew because I’d seen it with the Inner Balance) that the act of saying/feeling ‘I am here, I am m ok, I am safe, everything’s ok’ would result in a recalibration of my state, helped me to embed the sense that these noticings were a good use of my brain power.
And today?
Today is a good day. A really good day. You are knowing what you are wanting?
So hello to you, Abraham?
Just you being you. You are knowing what you are wanting?
I loved playing with the idea of ‘running a well-organised clinic’ this week. I can’t tell you how that lifted my heart, and took some of the hustling/angsting out of my work… Like, I stood up taller and leant in to being calm and coherent in my online client sessions (which were daily) – for the #IPWOA (improved psychological wellbeing of all).
It’s like I have finally shifted from helpee to helper, and I couldn’t be more grateful for that.
Really. What a beautiful outcome of a long winding journey.
So, what am I wanting? More of that.
***10minInnerBalanceMeditation***
That was insightful. Turns out, when I have thoughts of ‘disappointment’ or ‘irritation about another’, my HRV goes instantly in to the ‘red zone’… Hm. And then to get back into the green zone on the Inner Balance app, it works within seconds if I affirm something truly positive about this present moment, or about who/what ‘I am’ eg GSF… It’s biology speaking my mind. Amazing. This machine is amazing. My heart is amazing.
I also looked at my FitBit heart data. It transpires I’m spending most of my nights with my heart rate going faster than my daytime ‘resting heart beat’. What?! Stressed at night? Apparently. No wonder I’m not sleeping well, and am struggling with this cortisol weight…
Hwelp.
Relaxation is a serious business. Unwinding is the key. Unwinding the human being is the task of all beings now. A long period of rest must be aided by techniques that work. But also, most of all, you need to hold the intention to UN-WIND. Like a maypole, unwinding.
Just say this: I am unwinding like a maypole – and feeling it too
Why? Because it’s key to your getting lighter. The light needs your expansiveness to penetrate. Decontract. Note when you’re contracting. Decontract and unwind. Like a maypole. The winding us done. It’s time to become unwound – no matter where others are. You’ll thank us later if you commit to this now.
You said you wanted to participated in the IPWOA with a well-organised clinic. Decontract, unwind, let light in… Then you will be a better ‘helper’. Take this as lightly as you take it seriously. Be at peace with this instruction. Let it soften you gently. Remember, this is the work of moving from Head (contraction) to Heart (expansion), from inhale to exhale, from budding to blooming. Never mistake the soft lightness of the Heart for inaction; trust that this light feeling is where you are meant to be heading – or Hearting – now.
Use this bank holiday weekend for Hearting. <3
Got it. Beautiful! Ty. xx
I am unwinding like a maypole – and feeling it too
This HeartMath Inner Balance device might just save my life. It’s literally a machine you can use while meditating that buzzes when you get carried away in thought, nudging you to come back to heart-focussed breathing. No more ‘getting carried away in thought’ for minutes at a time! That’s done. And you learn how your body feels when you move out of Heart in to default Head – it’s so subtle that without the instant biofeedback it’s hard to notice. That’s why people find meditation so hard. THIS IS MY ZEN MACHINE that allows me to practise the teachings of Zen Mind with full confidence that I am learning the skills.
And why might it save my life? Because my autistic brain is super busy; and energy leakage has been a big issue. I need, need, need to calm and regulate my ANS. The only way to do that is to learn to get in to the parasympathetic state, at will – and stay there long enough to reboot my system. This machine, along with the Zen Mind teachings, is the answer to that desire I set out with early on in the Pivot Project: to discover my Aspie Zen Zone.
And what I love most is that the answer to the Aspie Zen Zone came down to – it’s so beautiful – it came down to tuning in to the Heart. Thank you for this journey of discovery.
Inner Balance session 22may20
For today..?
You learnt today that the best way to generate coherence with the Inner Balance was to affirm something positive in the present tense: I am ok; I am safe; everything’s fine; it’s all good… This is the mantra set for your day. See how often you can affirm your positive present across the day – and feel it in your body. Note what you are doing that is good and heart-warming or simply neutral in the present moment – and feel the heart’s resting in to that knowing.
I am noting the positive present?
Yes – really easy. In the body. Lean back. Look about. Note what’s happening – it’s all positive if you’re noticing it in real time, even if it’s hard: ‘Ah, I’m having difficulty with my tech. I see. Good that I can observe this. I’m still safe. I’m ok. I am here. I am watching.’
And feel it in your body… Let the relief hiccup occur. And the sigh of breath. The settling in and down.
Ok. Will do. Thank you….
The present moment is always, always positive – because it is 100% neutral. Review Eckhart Tolle or ACIM if that is helpful to you.
Well, that last, positive, upbeat Dialogue soon gave way to a sh*tstorm of some proportion:
Computer / cloud drive slowed to a virtual standstill (pun intended) so I had to skip my crucial (for MH) midday walk, to complete my training session prep for 2pm
2pm training session for 8 people on Zoom – my computer wouldn’t run Zoom from my end!; my old computer wouldn’t run Zoom! either; had to deliver the training from my phone (in my hand as tripod wouldn’t work either) with a participant kindly running my slides. Irony: the session was entitled ‘Keeping mentally well while working from home‘. Ha!
Massively intense therapy session – “It’s not child’s play”
More computer refusal to work, so I’m now at 6.30pm having spent all day on my butt – and with concern about the viability of future trainings if the tech won’t work
I wail with despair, G offers to help check my computer, I tell him not to ‘solutionise’ when I’m wailing (sorry G)
I drag myself out for a walk, revved up on the day’s glitches, decide (:/) to watch some sinister documentary on my phone as I walk in the woods… and end up hurtling down a hill, twisting my ankle and wrist, and cracking my coccyx. Wail. Phone G, who kindly comes to meet me.
I sit nursing self while G cooks.
G had looked at my computer while I was out. The wifi had been running at 50% today. That was it. And the world wasn’t trying to do me over.
That was Tuesday. Today’s Thursday. I’m still v bruised and limping. But I’ve had time to realise I needed to calm down, internally.
What about when lockdown ends..?
I’ll tell you something that contributed to me spinning myself out, I believe in retrospect: a beloved family member, who lives 1.5h drive away, saying on Monday evening, ‘Come for lunch on Sunday. You know, the three of you, come over, and we’ll have a socially distanced lunch in the garden. Or Friday? Or Sat? Or the next weekend? When can you come?’
I can’t begin to explain my response. Maybe I’ve developed Stockholm syndrome towards this Lockdown, but my internal response was “Noooooooo!!!”. Why?:
It’s still massively against the guidelines to go and visit, especially in groups – fines apply
This beloved person is meant to be properly shielding.
I’ve so benefitted from the simplicity of not travelling anywhere(I’ve been to the nearby city once, and out to the local Co-op/Sainsbury/pharmacy’s in the nearest town maybe 8 times in 10 weeks). My car’s now sitting on the drive with a flat battery fhs!
I’ve so benefitted from having weekends: one day to rest; one day to get the house in order; ready for a new week of focussed work.
I’ve so benefitted from a rigid routine – for my MH but also for my physical health – I’m losing weight, I’m going to bed earlier, I’m (generally) less stressed, I averted the complete burnout I was teetering towards back in March.
I’ve benefitted from seeing people virtually– that’s fine for me! Let’s have Sunday lunch on Zoom, when you live 1.5 hours drive away. The old “when can you come over?” phrase (which I’ve had from a couple of sources tbh) Fills Me With Dread. I feel dread partly because I’m working SO hard (I’m self-employed – in the apocalypse, self-employed people don’t take breaks) that I don’t have acres of ‘free time’; but also because the phrase makes me recall that old era paradigm where people would yank each other over to their space as a sort of ritual of socialising. So much Time and Energy expended and drained! (To the question, ‘When can you come over?’, you can’t say ‘I can’t’ indefinitely because it’s rude – so you eventually go, sometimes out of joy and love, and sometimes out of duty / politeness / being worn down / to get it over with…? They will never know which.)
This Lockdown has allowed me to be properly autistic and I now don’t want to run my life any other way because I’ve seen how much better I feel, and because I’ve seen how much I can achieve when I’m not pissing my precious energy up the wall on travel and people-mixing in (what we used to call) ‘real life’.
There we go. That’s what it is. Good to have that off my chest. That’s helpful. Ehem. Thank you.
***5minInnerBalanceSession***
I learnt something using this HRV monitoring device today. The second, I mean the second, I have a ‘future-thinking’ thought, my heart slips out of coherence. So, I was looking at the Inner Balance app (linked to my heart rate by the ear piece) and admiring my coherence levels, and I think to myself, “Hm, I might repeat this 5 minute session once it’s done.” And, bzzz, the phone vibrated to let me know I’m out of coherence. Amazing.
Think how I spend my days: constantly thinking about what’s next, constantly therefore, in limited coherence, or incoherence.
So when they say, ‘get in the present moment’ and ‘the power of now’ IT’S NOT JUST PHILOSOPHY – IT’S BIOLOGY!!
This good-frequency, heart-based living occurs best when we are, as they’ve said all along, in a state of appreciation, with our mind in the present.
How shall I incorporate this in to my days?
By building a system which allows you to be in appreciation of the present moment. This is the ‘upstream’ thinking that Dan Heath is really offering you. The opportunity to set up your LIFE, so that you have days full of opportunity for being in the present. In truth, unless you can be in a calm present moment state with your clients, you are simply passing on little waves of incoherence between each other. Holding heart coherence next to another person is your greatest gift to them.
Your well-organised clinic is slowly moving you in this direction. Systematise the heck out of your work! Use that wonderful autistic wiring to create your WOC (well-organised clinic) so that you can be Present to your clients.
In truth, if you do this, you will be able to travel and BE in the physical presence of others, without feeling you are leaving work unfinished… Yes, being in the physical presence of others is important – because of the heart fields intertwining. BUT, stabilise your heart coherence so you’re not picking up another’s incoherence should they be in incoherence – and don’t be afraid to be with others so that they can reboot their coherence. KNOW that is what is happening – settle soft (and hard) in to your chosen state, so you don’t deviate, close your empathic antennae in a bit – and know that sometimes the greatest service we can give to another is to lend them our peace for a second. You know that’s what others (L, A, G) do for you…
Tysm. Spot on. I see it. Ty.
Systematise the heck out of your work! And be Present.
Yesterday, ‘running an organised clinic’ was such a satisfactory and heart-lifting day. There was a powerful experience of NO LONGER being head down pushing my own agenda/business, grimly grinding through ‘back stage’ admin, but of being re-organised and re-orientated towards availability. My new scheduling system is amazing. No more emails about ‘diarising’ , and then, when in scheduled meetings (with a start and an end, crucially), people (and me) valuing my/our limited time, and our being more efficient.
I had this strong sense of…:
‘It’s my mission in mediation to facilitate the improved psychological wellbeing of all.’ #IPWOA
Why ‘of all’? Well, in mediation, when we find resolution, this brings IPW to the parties, to their families/colleagues/dependents, to me (I am nourished by the work), the community and the All across time and space- intergenerational healing is a thing to.
I can’t tell you the relief this brings, because it so RESONATES. Something has happened in these last weeks that’s allowed me to feel I can be of service in the psychological sphere – before, I had withheld that belief…
Yesterday, my Inner Balance device arrived. Let’s try it out with the app too. Here’s an intro video.
***5minInnerBalanceSession***
That was interesting! The Inner Balance heart monitor and smart phone app make for a clever, simple biofeedback device. If your mind jumps on to something funky (= heart incoherence), you can see it on the screen (and the phone buzzes). Similarly, once you rise into a heart-focussed state (heart coherence) you see that too. And the shift is palpable in the body – I’d just never noted that Feeling 1 was ‘incoherence’ and Feeling 2 was ‘coherence’. That’s what biofeedback is for – to coach you into knowing your own body and brain better, and reading its signals better.
A bit daunted that I’m meant to use it for 5 mins 3 times a day. Let’s see!
I noted that settling in to a thought of ‘well-organised clinic’ gave me excellent heart coherence!
So for today?
Use your Inner Balance machine – before events with other people.
I have 2 client calls, an online training to deliver and my fortnightly psychotherapy.
Perfect. Note down what thoughts/images give you a sense of heart coherence.
Ah, this is the Memory Bank idea I had.
Exactly. What is in your past, present and future Memory Bank? What uplifts your Heart.
So use the Inner Balance not just to calm myself before meetings with people, but to work out what makes my Heart sing… Nice.
I loved the Heart Decides game – it really changed the way I went about the segments of the day that I started with a #HeartCheckin and letting the Heart decide. Ty.
Results of the #HeartDecides game yesterday (a Sunday):
Decision 1 – 10.37am
What next?
Heart said
I want to start moving the body and H. Pottering
Results
I got in sync well with G – we both launched the day
Decision 2 – 11.27am
What next?
Heart said
Get clean and fresh!
Results
Showered, & then cleaned / hoovered / laundered…
Decision 3 – 2.05pm
It’s lunchtime. What ‘attitude’ shall I bring with me?
Heart said
Rest & Relax
Results
Ate more mindfully; then had a recharging nap
Decision 4 – 3.32pm
Walk time. What ‘attitude’ shall I bring with me?
Heart said
Peaceful
Results
I swear I’ve woken up more unwound this Mon morn
I learnt, you need to stay with the Heart until the thought arising gives you a palpable sense of relief – you know you’ve got the answer when you get a little hiccup of relief.
Let’s do our morning meditation practice as a #HeartDecides exercise.
Ok. Sure. Shall I set a question? Ok…
What are the potential outcomes of today/this week, if I remain in a heart-centred attitude/space?
***Med16minTimerUjayaBreathing***
A clear answer arose…
<3: Helping people attain improved psychological wellbeing.
Honestly… That makes my heart sing.
Bingo.
This massive, elongated, scientifically-ill-defined lockdown is causing many people to seek improved psychological wellbeing, either because they have been affected by the pandemic directly; or because they are suffering the consequences of the fear of being affected; or they are spun out by the actual impact of lockdown (loss of employment/income, remote working with/without children, isolation…).
‘Improved psychological wellbeing’ is possible for all at this time, such are the circumstances – ripe for awakening a new concern for, or commitment to, self-care. Even if people are self-caring ‘simply’ to boost their immune system, they are downloading a new way of being which will never completely vanish in the future. The person who starts exercise for the first time, or who gives up smoking, or begins to volunteer out of loneliness… This may seem to arise out of fear or ‘ill’ circumstances, but it is nonetheless about the awakening of self-love.
And so… we are learning social prescribing for ourselves on mass! It’s AMAZING!
Indeed. And social prescribing arises from the human’s innate need to be connected to self and other. Self-social-prescribing is excellent news. Somehow, people had become semi-dependent on medication and medics for psychological wellbeing, at times. A shift is occurring here.
So, what I sensed around potential outcomes, was I guess, something about people learning to self-prescribe wellbeing interventions – for their own improved psychological wellbeing.
Boom.
I just had the impulse to email myself those lines above, and in my inbox I found an email from an online training provider I’m subscribed to, and I looked at it properly, and finally noticed that it’s courses offer certification and even accreditation with industries (like the CMA) – like this one – a diploma in CBT.
What do you think?
We (yes, we) think that if you dedicated yourself, you could achieve that dream of being both {a mediator and a therapist}, all at once.
That’s been a dream of mine??
Of course! To support people who are in conflict and also in psychological distress, to find their way through to psychological wellbeing, whether or not they are able to find resolution with the person they are in conflict with. In other words, to help people learn, as you did, that they can be independently well and healthy of mind and heart, no matter what others are giving or withholding. This is truly freedom.
Man… Ok!! Well, shall I ponder on this?
You must!
Thank you, I will then. And for today?
An organised clinic.
Haha!
Hoho.
Oh like, really?
Your work with the Florence Nightingale archetype last week was not for nothing. Get organised so the people may attend.
Oh, like the website shop idea too?
Whatever an organised clinic looks like to you.
Ok. I see the play here. I was always a bit jealous of the staff at the GP’s surgery when I was a kid – doctors, nurses, reception staff. They were operating in such an organised, efficient and compassionate environment… It’s playing with this…
Ty. Heavens, I seem to feel relief… It’s like… no more jazzhanding or efforting. Just have a clean and safe ‘environment’ (albeit online, from my home) for people to come to in their moment of vulnerability. Clean and fresh… And this speaks to the heart-based helper in me, who so wants to connect usefully at this time, and participate in this beautiful mid-pandemic wave of:
People learning to self-prescribe
wellbeing interventions – for their own improved psychological wellbeing.
I don’t need to be a doctor, I need to host a space in which people discover they truly can be their own brilliant doctor for enhancing their own psychological wellbeing.
My Heart feels uplifted.
Then you know you’ve got the right notion in mind. <3
I loved playing #LuckyBecause. It focussed my attention on the appreciable so effectively – and thus lifted my spirits hugely. I wrote down what I noted with ‘hand on heart’ appreciation across the day – 8am-6pm. Here you go:
Hand on heart, I am #Lucky Because…
I can do qigong on the patio
I have this garden here
I have all I could want to fall in love income and material well-being
I work for myself and I have no boss
I have an amazing partner
I can choose what to do
I have astonishing tech. Truly.
I became a mother!!
I have two daughters and they are my life’s greatest blessings
Es tranquilo aqui
We have choices
It’s the weekend and I can have treats
I can have Diet Coke at 9 am!
It’s Saturday – a whole weekend to enjoy
I have a routine so I have fewer decisions and less uncertainty in my days
I managed to trigger TRE in my post she gong meditation in the extended Lee Holden class (Bumpy ride… But the qigong prepped my body and Lee held the meditative space) – thank you!
Now I know I can trigger TRE whenever I want – just do a full qigong class and stay for the meditation session – on my mat – on the patio
I can access TRE, maybe the best way to reboot the ANS! (All autistic people should be taught these amazing tools.)
I may sleep better tonight too!
TRE and chicken is a beautiful antidote to lockdown stress
I have a dear friend, Deborah, who teaches me TRE and breath work, and I get to see her on Friday zoom breath work classes.
Now I get coffee number two and toast because it’s Saturday – after 18 minutes in the sunshine
I’m getting lighter – in weight, frequency, mood, work cares, old stuff. Yes!
I’ve got this reframing game called #LuckyBecause. It’s Powerful!
I did some great research on the ANS in autism today. I can glimpse an autism tool kit of the future:
Love and ‘joining’: including maybe therapy for parents and caregivers so they can be present in a parasympathetic state and give Heart Love. We need Heart Love as autistic people. (Back the F off with your ABA)
I can just go out for a walk in the woods now – in nature and stress-free
I have a sister I can call now and chew the cud – what good fortune
I went on a beautiful walk in nature
I bought my first ever selfie stick (it’s a tripod for zoom calls but it also does selfies – watch out world!)
My copy of Upstream by Dan Heath arrived
We’ve got leftover Indian food yummy
I used all my letters in scrabble (50 points) and got a 74 point word.
My car’s battery went flat from lack of being driven (#lockdownlife) – so G kindly went to Halfords for jump leads – but it was closed to in-person (non-online/collection) customers and – what good luck! – a guy waiting in the car park just gave him some out of his boot saying “we have to help each other”. Beautiful. (Powerful side note: G had posted on FB a couple of days earlier, a gif of one tortoise helping another tortoise turn over, with the words, ‘Sometimes we help each other.’)
G and I had divided the shopping list but he did all the shopping because my car battery was flat – that was a treat for me as the shops are still such intense places
I have the luxury of time – and tech!
And for perspective on #LuckyBecause, and on how safe and well I am fortunate enough to be at the moment, see this list of current pandemic circumstances – anonymous and doing the rounds on Facebook:
So that I never forget (I want it to pop up as a ‘memory’ in years to come and idea borrowed from other people’s pages)
-Today is Friday 15th May 2020 ? -The week after VE Day ?????? -2 months and 9 days since the Pandemic was declared. -Day 54 of lockdown in the UK (lockdown was declared on Mon 23rd March 2020)
Some of the unprecedented events that have occurred as a direct result of the Corona Virus…..?
On 11th March 2020 the Novel Coronavirus (Covid-19) was declared a Pandemic, by the World Health Organisation (WHO).?
On Friday 20th March all UK schools were closed. ?Remote learning is now in place and parents are home-schooling their children ?. All GCSE and A Level exams have been cancelled.
On the evening of 23rd of March 2020 Prime Minister Boris Johnson implemented a national lockdown ?
The Excel London is now known as NHS Nightingale and has been turned into a hospital for up to 4,000 patients, most of whom will be on ventilators. It was opened by Prince Charles (virtually, rather than in person) at 11am on 3rd April. There are also several similar venues being built and used in cities across the country (including Bristol).?
On 5th April The Queen addressed the nation at 8pm ? (only the 5th time she has done this, outside of her annual Christmas message).
Also on the 5th April, Boris Johnson was admitted to hospital, after 10 days of self-isolating with the Corona Virus ?
On the 6th April Boris was admitted to intensive care with deteriorating symptoms. Fortunately he came out of intensive care on 9th April ?
Many Community support groups have been established, to support the vulnerable, elderly, immunocompromised and people in enforced isolation due to exposure ????
Petrol ⛽️ prices are extremely low and the national average is £1.02 per litre
Gatherings are banned, you cannot socialise with anyone outside of your home. Not even your own family members ?
Social-distancing measures have been implemented ☹️
There is now tape on the floor at supermarkets ❌ and other essential stores to help distance shoppers ? (2 metres) from each other.
There is a limit on the number of people allowed inside stores at any one time, including staff, this is causing queues outside of the store doors and in car parks?
Non-essential stores and businesses have been forced to close. All non essential travel is banned. People ???? are told to work from home if they are able to?
Parks ? trails, entire towns and cities ? are closed or restricted to locals only
Sports ⚽️ ? ? seasons are cancelled, as well as The Grand National and Wimbledon .
The Olympics have been postponed until July 2021.??⚫??
Concerts, ? tours ? and festivals, ?? (including Glastonbury) and other entertainment events ? are cancelled ?
Weddings, ???? family celebrations ? birthdays, christenings, anniversary’s and holiday gatherings, such as Mother’s Day and Easter, ???? are cancelled ?. Funerals continue to ⚰ go ahead. Only very close family are permitted to attend (if they are well & not isolating). Social distancing applies even at funerals.
Churches ⛪️ are closed and the Pope delivers the Palm Sunday mass to an empty Basilica, in the Vatican City?
Netflix, Amazon Prime, Disney+, and all other TV networks are on in every home, daily ?
People are glued to the News and to Social Media.
Children’s outdoor play parks are closed ?
Most flights are grounded, ✈️cruise ships ?are docked, holidays are cancelled ?and only essential travel is permitted. A few rescue flights are operating.
There is a huge shortage of personal protective equipment (PPE), masks, ? gowns ? and gloves ? for our front-line essential health workers.
There is a shortage of ventilators for the critically ill, ? in many parts of the world.
On the news, we see refrigerated trucks for the dead, outside hospitals in the USA ?? Italy ?? Spain ?? and China ?? etc and we see the mass digging of graves.
Panic buying ? set in and we have restrictions on toilet paper ? disinfectants, paper towels, basic foods (like pasta, rice and bread),? as well as hand sanitiser.? Flour is hard to find, because the packaging comes from China ?? and many borders are closed ?
Manufacturers, ? distilleries and many other businesses, ? switch their production lines to help make visors, masks ? hand sanitiser ? and PPE ?
The Police are given the power to impose fines for breaking lockdown rules and to disperse groups ??♀️
Stadiums ? and recreational facilities overseas are opened up for the overflow of Covid-19 ? patients.
In some countries, Public Park ? areas are being turned into caravan parks for stranded tourists to self isolate ?
There are daily Press conferences from the Prime Minister?♂️ and other government ? officials. We are given daily updates on new cases, recoveries, and deaths ⚰️ are over 30,000
There are Government ? incentives to stay at home. Self-employed can apply for grants and employees are being furloughed (many are being laid off).
Barely anyone is on the road or the street ?
People are wearing masks ? and gloves when they go outside ?
Essential service workers are terrified to go to work ?? ??⚕️ ??
Medical field workers ??⚕️ are afraid to go home to their families ???
Every Thursday evening at 8pm we all stand outside our front doors and clap the NHS and Carers, to show our gratitude for what they are doing.???????????
Many people have rainbows visible ? in the windows of their homes, as a way of spreading hope.
So today, dear voice of my heart?
Today, we return you to the practice of checking in with your heart – for decision-making. This game is called #HeartDecides. So, for any decision you have to make, you tune in to the heart space, and you let the Heart decide.
Be your decision about what to have for breakfast; whether to wash your hair or not; whether to join a course you’re interested in; where to go for your walk; what to do next in terms of housework; how to use your rest time; whom to call next; what to wear. Get in to the habit of consulting the Heart’s intelligence. And also noting when it is that you are making a decision…
I love it. What a great game. Thank you for being so endlessly playful with me. I appreciate it.
Yesterday’s research on PubMed – on the relationship between autism, heart rate variability (HRV), the autonomic nervous system (ANS) and mood/sleep/wellbeing – just blew me away. There is no much good stuff for me to work with here! AND WHY IS NO ONE TALKING ABOUT THIS RESEARCH IN THE AUTISM COMMUNITY? (Or at least my Twitter bubble of it.)
Anyway, let me tell you about my Heart CheckIns:
Segment 1
8:07 Time for qigong, shower and breakfast
Heart said
“Time is precious; use it reverently”
Outcomes
I really absorbed the moments – no rush or hustle
Segment 2
10:12 Morning work
Heart said
“You can do it! You can clear the decks/ the old! Really soften.”
Outcomes
Man alive, I got to Zero Inbox for 1st time in 3 months
Segment 3
3pm Afternoon work
Heart said
“Lace it with LOVE.”
Outcomes
I did! Prepped 6 client docs with love (vs angst/worry)
Segment 4
12 midnight: Late (Sat) bedtime and sleep
Heart said
“Keep spotlighting the positive / wanted. Say ‘I’m so lucky bcs.'”
Outcomes
Fell asleep cherishing a client’s referring to my ‘shining positivity.’
“Thank you as always for your shiningpositivity.” Claire (commissions my training for her org.) – ty Claire
The Heart’s intelligence really is immaculate, and it takes me into much more creative and visionary places than my Head, which is significantly more prosaic. My Head looks at the next pile of stuff to be done, and says, “Look. We need to do that!” My Heart seems to have a MUCH broader perspective.
I know that when I stopped and did a Heart CheckIn, I was purposely slowing down my brain’s reactivity, and getting in to a more coherent HRV state. I can’t wait for the HeartMath HRV monitor to arrive. With biofeedback, I’m going to master my HRV and give blessed respite to my poor benighted ANS! This week I’ve had an average of under 6 hours sleep – waking with cortisol overload at 5am-ish each morning. My body, my ANS, needs a break.
This Lockdown, which has everyone on the high alert, even if just due to uncertainty, or under/over-stimulation, is messing with all our sleep patterns. I am glad for the opportunity I’ve had in this time to do this research on the ANS. Maybe we’re all noticing how hopped up we are…
“Tranquilo. Es muy tranquilo aqui…”
Ha! Yes. That’s what they used to say on the Atlantic island we lived on… and secretly, in my pumped-up, northern European young-ego-haze (I was late twenties), I used to think something along the lines of ‘Hee hee, I don’t think that’s something to brag about!‘ And it took me all the five years we were there to understand the lesson of the immense power of tranquility. Five years. My god… What a …
…’waste’? No. Not at all. ‘Blessing’. Without the intensive immersion in that beautiful land, you might never in your life have glimpsed the meaning of tranquility. You could have rolled on all your life without this insight. And you wouldn’t be where you are now – in your beautiful tranquil cottage, with your love, doing the work you do – without this learning.
I hear you. Thank you… So, while I wait for the biofeedback machines (Inner Balance, and Sensate too in June), please can you teach me more about tapping into the Heart’s intelligence, to inform my days and my decisions? How do I absorb this ‘heart-based living’ learning in to who and what I am?
THIS is it. Share what you know. Hard-won lessons. Lessons heard-won. Don’t pocket them for yourself and shimmy on as if you were born knowing. Share what you know, those hard-won lessons.
Thank you. This week has been immense. For the first time, I shared this blog with my precious girls and my beloved AP. It’s been such a relief to come out of hiding, and lovelier responses I couldn’t have asked for. AS (DD2 & Lockdown Buddy along with G) coached me in ‘authenticity’ so that I might be brave enough to share this with L & A. I’m blown away by her wisdom. And then, once you do share yourself authentically, the long-held concerns about being seen ‘as one actually is’… just melt away. Amazing…
Ok, tell me more. How shall we play today?
You want to play today?
Yes! I do. <3 From the <3! Give us another Game. I loved #EnvisioningOutcomes and #HeartCheckIns. What next?
Better ask your Heart.
Heart?
<3: Let’s play, #LuckyBecause.
Awesome. Tell me how to play it.
<3: You basically have to think or say the phrase ‘Lucky Because‘ as many times as you can across the day. You can write your LB’s down too for further focus power if you like. Examples of {thinking} and “saying”:
{I’m so lucky because I have this garden and can stroll about in it freely during this Lockdown.}
“That’s lucky because there are two more sausages left.”
{I’m lucky because I have this glass of water in my hand, and it’s clean, life-giving.}
“LV and I are lucky because we can meet up for a socially-distanced walk.”
But here’s the key: feel it as you think/say it – in me, in your heart. Use the glimpse of appreciation to access the renewing emotions and connect with me – physiologically. Hand on heart is good. With this practice we will learn to access our heart-mind connection at will. And that is lucky because…
We will be better equipped for heart-based living.
<3: Yes.
I’m so grateful for this conversation, and for this Game. I remember how much emphasis Reality Transurfing put on listening to the Heart. It’s good to be learning this. Thank you. I’m lucky because we can all dialogue here.
Which is lucky because this interaction creates joy.
Which is lucky because joy raises our frequency.
Which is lucky because by raising the frequency of the planet, humans will usher in a new world of heart-based living. And that truly is Radical Love.
I don’t know if I say it in that ‘book’ but I learnt Radical Love from my daughters, you know that right?
We do. You do. Do they?
I’m not sure. Maybe I should tell them… I’m lucky because today I’m seeing BOTH of my girls… though one from a distance.
Remember, the Heart speaks even across distance.
I know that to be true. eg I spoke about someone (AR) this week – and brought him vividly (and fondly) to mind in recalling what he used to say to me (advice on moving house)… And he texted me that same day. For the first time in over a year – I know because he asked me about things in the neighbourhood I moved from 1+ year ago.
So this ‘Envisioning Outcomes’ technique of yours is genius. I tracked it across three segments yesterday – and it really transformed my day. Here are the outcomes:
SEGMENT 1 (9:10am)
Getting dressed and ready for work
Heart Lock-In Memory Bank
‘Acting celebratory’ the day I did two great webinars
Outcomes Envisioned
Butterfly spiralling out of a cocoon
Results
‘Heart Hunches’, flow, spontaneity, no constipation!
SEGMENT 2 (12 noon)
Early afternoon – starting work
Heart Lock-In Memory Bank
La Sagrada Familia (w Dad) – building never finished!
Outcomes Envisioned
Clear the decks to reveal simplicity
Results
Cleared old 19/20 papers & set up Asana for 20/21!
SEGMENT 3 (11pm)
Going to sleep and sleeping
Heart Lock-In Memory Bank
India: scales fell experience – miracles of sleep
Outcomes Envisioned
I unwind and unwind (opp of butterfly spiralling)
Results
Deep sleep – and woke feeling like I’d relaxed… <3
The drawn pictures were very important:
Study Time
HeartMath Experience: Chapter 9 – Global Coherence
From the video, my notes and quotes:Heart-based livinggives us flow, creativity in the world. Mind and emotions in alignment affect our personal, social and global coherence..Compassionate latitude.. Connect to your heart’s guidance and intelligence – even for just a few minutes a day – to make better decisions and have better days. It’s like filling up a gas tank or a battery – and it carries over to the next days too. Do your HeartMath while in conversation with someone – to be present with them. The heart is an access point to increased wisdom and intuition on another dimension – it’s not a metaphor, science shows the heart intelligence is real. We want to connect at the heart level globally now. We want to tune in to our heart to navigate this wild adventure called life, with more harmony, kindness and compassion.
“There are multiple studies indicating that when we’re in a group and form emotional relationships, there’s an energetic field resonance among that group, and information can be shared between the group members on an unseen or subconscious level.” Rollin McCraty HeartMath Institute Director of Research
Apply what you have learned from the HeartMath Course:
Use the Quick Coherence® technique to prep before a potentially stressful meeting to maintain your composure and connect with your heart’s guidance. Use it after a stressful situation to reset and reconnect with your heart to better manage the effects of stress and build resilience.
Use Attitude Breathing™ to help shift your Inner Weather—your emotional state at any time. Practice Attitude Breathing to shift to more positive emotional states during the day.
Use the Freeze-Frame® technique to gain more intuitive clarity for making decisions, both big and small, or to access more creativity and insight at any time.
Create a daily practice with the Heart Lock-In technique. Do this daily for 5 minutes or more. Choose a time that’s convenient for you, such as first thing in the morning, which can help to set a more coherent tone for the day.
Also..
End of Study Time…
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This heart-based living…. I want this. I want this in my life… Show me how, please.
As you are learning, it’s very physiological, this heart-based living. It is good that, when you can, you are taking care of your body with qigong, walking, sunshine, good diet, early nights, a full routine and limited work hours.
The next step is to eliminate stress completely. And this is not about managing your surrounding conditions. Far from it. It’s about training your mind and body to work in ‘coherence’ with you.
Like Wim Hof in his ice baths. Today I purchased the HeartMath Inner Balance device and (hopefully – it’s a crowdfunder) ordered a Sensate device. I’m going to work with my vagus nerve, my ANS (autonomic nervous system) and my heart rate variability. It’s science, btw:
LAY SUMMARY: ASD is commonly associated with a range of physical and mental health comorbidities. Autonomic disruptions underlying reductions in heart rate variability (HRV) have been linked to a range of mental and physical health conditions. We assessed resting-state HRV in adults diagnosed with ASD in comparison to healthy individuals. Our results showed reduced heart rate variability in people diagnosed with ASD compared to adults without ASD. These findings implicate a role for autonomic activity as a potentially modifiable risk factor for ASD.
Depression is often associated with dysfunction in the hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal (HPA) axis and autonomic nervous system (ANS). Individuals with autism spectrum disorder (ASD) may experience physiological dysregulation and psychological comorbidities; however, the extent to which the interactions between these systems predict internalizing symptoms in ASD has not been investigated. The study examined interactions with the HPA axis and ANS in 10-13-year-old children with ASD (n = 41) and typical development (TD; n = 46). The interrelated systems uniquely contributed to depressive symptoms in ASD above and beyond any system in isolation. A reciprocal, parasympathetic-dominant ANS was related to fewer affective symptoms in ASD. Findings highlight the importance of examining arousal across multiple systems to more precisely identify profiles associated with maladaptive psychiatric outcomes in ASD.
Excellent research. As you master your ANS and your HRV, you will be able to bring coherence to any situation, leaning in with the delicacy of your autism, with ‘inner balance’ added at the physiological level. This will give you two important gifts:
Easier access to your Heart’s intelligence – 100 times wiser than your head
Increased ability to support others in to their coherence too – great for your work
This is such beautiful work. Thank you. I loved the Envisioning Outcomes segment intending as a way of getting guidance from my Heart and acting from there… Can I do this for bigger segments too?
Naturally, however today we would say this… Go smaller instead of bigger. At each decision and shift, check in with Heart. See what happens.
Ok… Will do. Thank you. Starting now. Heart?
<3: Get out and do qigong. Follow the routine. 🙂
Ok. See ya!
At each decision and shift, check in with the Heart (#HeartCheckin)
The ACTING ATTITUDES practice was/is amazing. You said in the last Dialogue, Learn to pivot your emotional state. And that is exactly what this practice does. We can switch from depleting states to renewing states. It takes energy to generate the momentum, but the results are amazing.
Here’s my record of practising for a couple of days – with meteorological references to the HeartMath ‘Inner Weather Report’ concept:
From depleting state: the default ATTITUDE
To renewing state: the ACTED replacement ATTITUDE
Applied to / Results
Nervous (Cloudy)
Refreshed! (Sunny)
Day kickstarted
Distracted (Cloudy)
Reverential (Calm)
Present for deep qigong
Procrastinating (Cloudy)
Practical (Sunny)
Got dressed/tidied – spit spot
Dreading (Cloudy)
Competent (Calm)
Prepped webinar for tmrw
Distracted (Cloudy)
Methodical (Calm)
Made great Sunday lunch
Terrified (Stormy)
Super Confident (Sunny)
Aced a webinar for 150 ppl
Afraid (Cloudy)
Connected to God (Calm)
Aced a webinar for 150 ppl
Frazzled (Stormy)
Relieved (Calm)
Positive post-webinar state
Avoidant (Cloudy)
Competent (Calm)
Chaired a webinar for 12 ppl
Maxed out (Cloudy)
Celebratory (Sunny)
Imprint good feelings on work
Glum / Stressed (Cloudy)
Light-Hearted (Sunny)
Chilled out about day ahead
It takes energy and focus, and playfulness, but honestly, I think this practice has real promise for me. It overrides the default state. That is so good.
Study Time
The HeartMath Experience: CHAPTER 7: ACCESS MORE INTUITION
Freeze-Frame Quick Steps: 1. Acknowledge 2. Heart-focused breathing 3. Activate a positive or renewing feeling 4. Ask 5. Observe and act
The HeartMath Experience: CHAPTER 8: SOCIAL COHERENCE
Social Coherence
“We need to pin our hearts to each other. We need to approach situations with everyone’s collective interest in mind. Not just our own or an individual, not just our own group or even a nation. We are a collective consciousness and we need to start acting like it.” Sierra Turner HeartMath Education Team
Oh my word – this ‘social coherence’ work is myWork! It’s about harmony and cohesion between individuals in any collective – family, work etc. Energetic/ electromagnetic field is created – we share information – we share a purpose – we broadcast to each other from our heart – we function in the collective interest with collective consciousness and coherent communication – developing ease – supporting each others wellbeing – creating a collective heart field. … This is what I loved about theatre… <3 A group of people being in perfect sync… in space and time… in an aligned energetic state…
This is a v basic overview:
(https://youtu.be/F1EesqUtKyE)
The video asks: “What are you feeding the field today?” Nice.
Such an interesting concept ‘social coherence’ – some people are getting really socially coherent with their households during lockdown, or finding social coherence online… Many people seem to be finding this to be a kind of reboot… Look at this article:
Here’s the technique for the Social Coherence chapter – The Heart Lock In:
Focus your attention on the area of the heart. Imagine your breath is flowing in and out through your heart or chest area, and breathe a little slower and deeper than usual, in an even rhythm.
Activate and sustain a regenerative feeling, such as appreciation, care or compassion.
Radiate that renewing feeling to yourself and others.
Try to radiate that feeling outward into the environment that you’re in right now, then out to the community that you’re in; or perhaps radiate your heart energy to a person, someone you care about, someone you know needs more heart in their life.
Expand and radiate the feeling to the world, to humanity itself or to an area on the planet in need of more of your heart’s compassion.
If your mind wanders, just gently bring your attention back to the heart and try to stay with the feeling. As you practice this, eventually, the heart energy you are radiating will lock-in to a flow toward your highest intention.
Or in sum:
Heart Lock In – Quick Steps:
Heart-Focused breathing
Activate and sustain
Radiate
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Ok, so I think there’s something for me to work on in Step 2 of the full practice above:
Activate and sustain a regenerative feeling, such as appreciation, care or compassion.
The way you do that, they say, is by thinking of a person or memory that you associate with good feeling thoughts, and generating your sense of that good feeling in the heart.
Maybe I could create a ‘Memory Bank’ to use for Heart Lock-In or for generating a state of coherence – a real/visualised rolodex of memories of when my heart sang. In fact, that could be part of my evening ’10 Things at 10pm’ review of the best things of the day… To draw them! Or create a photo album on my phone….
What do you think?
We think you are doing excellent work!
Remember, your VR is not so much a ‘virtual reality’ as a Vibrational Reality. And you are learning to select, deflect from and protect your vibrational field, within the larger vibrational field. That is a powerful ability, dear friend of our hearts!
I have to say, quietly… I know about the shit storm out there.
We know you know, and we are proud that you are not sending yourself off down rabbit holes.
Your collective work is to hold the vibration of light (ie high frequency) whenever you can. We are looking at a collective consciousness shift. And your attention sets your frequency field at any moment. The more that people are diverting their attention to the things that bring them appreciation, care or compassion the more they are helping to tip the balance of the collective consciousness.
At a time when there are some pretty low-vibe shenanigans going on…
Maybe. Maybe not. That is not your ‘business’ at the moment – and we say that with soft intent. Your business is the business of holding good feeling thoughts.
To help raise the collective consciousness at this time? People are bringing so much love about. I hope that the love and rest and getting in harmony with households and self is outweighing the fear, distress, anguish and name-calling.
It is not necessary for you to worry about that. With such questions you contribute ‘resistance’ to the natural wellbeing that floods this physical plane. The natural state of the self and the cosmos is harmony. Can you flow with that harmony? Even if it means ‘pivoting your emotional state‘ from time to time.
Sure. I guess I can… I’m liking these invigorating practices. What can I play today? How can I consistently add good vibrations to the field? How can I contribute well to social coherence today? I have uncertainty in my field of vision, and a sense of chaos. I’d LOVE to feel more harmonious about my work and life…
It’s about VISION. Whatever you envision, you create.
Social coherence. Let me envision social coherence, harmony, love…
Peace, unity, love and light – PULL it in to the Earth plane!
Exactly so… Sow me how to practise this today…
Yesterday(s), you played ACTING ATTITUDES. Today we are playing ENVISION OUTCOMES. This is the practice of stopping before a next segment of your day, connecting with the Heart, and in alignment with your Heart, envisioning outcomes from that segment. Really make it a physiological experience too – feel the states you are envisioning, act them as you were doing – emit the vibrations…
This is Segment Intending! As was the ‘Acting Attitudes’ game – I realised as practising it over the last couple of days. Here E&J talk about it on Spotify:
Exactly so! These are all different Segment Intending games. Do you love them?
I love them! So today is the Envisioning Outcomes game. Got it. Ty. Will play and note.
Remember: align with the Heart first. Give it at least a couple of moments. Try not to blink it. Your Heart has things to say to you. It’s highly intelligent. Slow down and hear it.
Ok. Ty. Will do.
I am envisioning outcomes
PS. You envision the outcomes in the Vibrational Reality to bring them in to the Manifested Reality.
HeartMath Experience – Chapter 5: The Emotional World
STORMY emotions (high energy / depleting): Emotions in the upper left quadrant are those that are draining and have a lot of energy associated with them. eg. anger, rage, hate
CLOUDY emotions (low energy / depleting): The lower left quadrant represents emotions that are less energized but often very depleting. eg. depression, worry, sadness
CALM emotions (low energy / renewing + regenerating): In the lower right quadrant are emotions that don’t necessarily have a lot of energy in them but are very renewing. eg. peace, tranquillity, care
SUNNY emotions ( high energy /renewing + regenerating): The upper right quadrant includes emotions that are regenerative and energized. eg. bliss, adventure, joy.
[I like this concept of an Inner Weather Report very much. Helpful. I’ll use this in my work.]
TECHNIQUE #3 ATTITUDE BREATHING™ 1. Observe what you are feeling. 2. Identify a replacement attitude. 3. Practice heart-focused breathing. 4. Breathe in the new attitude or feeling. 5. Anchor and maintain.
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***Med: 12mins of coherent breathing (6/6) using Breath+ app***
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So after our last Dialogue a couple of days ago, I went to a 30min BreathWork session with the amazing Deborah. We practised – uncannily – ‘Coherent Breathing’ which involves equal-length inhales and exhales, of whatever length is comfortable for you. This is meant to reset the vagus nerve, among others benefits. I’ve practised it a bit since. I note the main apparent benefit for me so far is the reactivation and resetting of my breath muscles. As Deborah said, we tend to breathe twice as often as we need to – short, shallow breaths. Deep or sustained breaths take me right into my anxiety spots in my chest, but after time it does diminish – and with HeartMath’s Attitudinal Breathing, I could breathe in a wanted emotion (eg replace ‘nervousness about next week’ with ‘confidence that I will do a good job’). I noticed during the day yesterday, I was indeed breathing more deeply.
As Bringers says, you do well to oxygenate! And hydrate! And get playful! Relax more. Breathe and drink life in!
Aha…
Oxygenate = breathe life in.
Hydrate = drink life in.
Yesterday, I was playful. G and I did an epic 3 hour walk from the house, down into the valley, along the river, to the aquaduct (beneath which, despite ‘lockdown’ a lot of people were congregating and swimming) and looping back up through the dappled woods to home. My game was this: I imagined I was a UX Tester for the Earth Simulation [UX = user experience] feeding messages back to the Simulator creators on what I liked about the Simulation, for their product development work:
“Hm, I like the smell of the woods – excellent feature. Yes, these massive trees give a sense of the majesty of nature – nicely done. I like this guy I’m walking with – he’s so hot – keep him. I love the mountain bike route the kids have created through the woods – that’s such a fun feature – I’d like to use it! I love the sun’s warmth – perfect temperature, especially with these shady spots too.”
Tell me what’s on your mind today…
As you settle into the poise of calm confidence, the doors of life open up to you.
I am sincerely trying.
Listen to your Heart’s intuition, and obey it.
Obey is a strong word.
We are underlining a point here, for you. As you obey your Heart’s intuition, so will you move from the left of the Inner Weather Report (depleting emotions) to right (renewing + regenerating).
This I like the sound of.
‘Choose your attitude’ – we like this technique you were learning about this morning from HeartMath! Select your ‘replacement attitude’ and then breathe it in, drink it in. Be very specific about this. Learn to pivot your emotional state. This is what is available to you in this time: for you to become the director of your emotional state, not the actor playing out the role of a tragic, hapless protagonist…
Easy tiger!
Be the director! It takes energy and mental acuity to do it! That is why you need to oxygenate and hydrate and play… to generate the MOMENTUM for being the director, not merely the actor who’s been handed someone else’s script. Become the playwright of your feel-good movie, and then act in that movie. Define, determine, direct.As your dear friend Sarah wrote: envision – plan – execute. This all takes energy, and chutzpah, and momentum… But it must all be momentum building in what HeartMath calls the renewing emotional sphere (vs spiralling depletion through fear or stress). We are looking for stormy to become cloudy, to become calm, to become sunny.
Yes..! Thank you! Yes, at HeartMath they talk about changing the baseline emotional state from stress/frustration to appreciation/calm.
I am committed to achieving this shift into underlying calm. I know it can be done because I watch G living that life. He has made an art of it, so quietly, so modestly, without fanfare. He really is the master bonsai-trimmer before my eyes.
Now it’s time to determine your state, as G does his. Use the Attitude Breathing technique of HeartMath.
Select your chosen renewing/regenerating Replacement Attitude and breathe it in to your heart, and then ACT it out, for at least ten minutes after which, go on about your day. And repeat the exercise, again and again, with the same or different Replacement Attitudes. Playfulness here says you state the selected acted Attitude aloud, as part of the game.
“I am acting: Calm.”
You are an actor. Write your script – your feel-good script. Direct yourself. Act your attitude.
And remember: this is just a Game. Play with it.
Ok. I am acting: Happy to do this. 🙂
We know this feels like a step too far, but have trust. This is about efficiently rupturing old patterns of depleting heart states. So, get over the artifice concerns, and play along. This is a way to breathe and drink life in. Go for it. Gently. FEEL the renewing Replacement Attitudes uplifting and energising you.
This is like the Tony Robbins work…
Exactly. You are embodying physical/emotional heart states of your choosing, so that you can have psychological agility. And walk on hot coals when so required and desired. As you did.
I did. 🙂
It’s that level of mind psych. Go for it. As a gift to yourself. And to the others around you.
Mind psych. Great term.
Ok. Let’s go. Let’s play this Game with Tony Robbins level Mind Psych. 🙂
First Attitude?
I am acting: Refreshed!
Awesome! Go for it!
I am acting Attitudes
PS. I can be a ‘Sims’ character in the Simulation. Now I am UX Testing and Demoing the ‘Refreshed!’ emotional profile… Must do it for 10 mins so the Simulator creators can test and track the biofeedback… 🙂 It’s all for play…
PPS. In the future we might stop being battered about by emotions or external conditions, and actively select our state from a ‘menu’ we have full access to any time as in… “How am I feeling? Well, I am feeling whatever I choose to feel, and right now I choose to feel… peaceful.”
