So, this morning I looked up those two articles from yesterday. Here are some highlights of what I’ve learnt when you google ‘torsion tesla’.

First up: the Torsion Field is a thing. Or not a thing if you take it as unfounded pseudoscience and a scam. Here’s a taster. Hold on to your seats.

Torsion field (pseudoscience)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Torsion_field_(pseudoscience)

A torsion field (also called axion field, spin field, spinor field, and microlepton field) is a feature of pseudoscientific^[1] proposals that the quantum spin of particles can be used to cause emanations to carry information through vacuum orders of magnitude faster than the speed of light. This theory is the basis of a number of unfounded claims and scams. 

Claims	Spin-spin interaction can be transmitted through space at speeds of at least up to 109 times the speed of light via a special kind of field, making faster-than-light travel, extra-sensory perception, homeopathy, levitation, and other paranormal phenomena possible.
Related scientific disciplines	Physics
Year proposed	1987
Original proponents	A. Akimov, G. Shipov

Claimed applications[edit]

Despite the several obvious contradictions with established physics along with associated statements by believers criticized as being “nonsensical” by reputable scientists,^[6] torsion fields have been embraced as an explanation for claims of homeopathic cures, telepathy, telekinesis, levitation, clairvoyance, ESP, and other paranormal phenomena.^[7] The harnessing of torsion fields has been claimed to make everything possible from miracle cure devices (including devices that cure alcohol addiction^[8]) to working perpetual motion machines, stargates,^[9]UFO propulsion analogs, and weapons of mass destruction (WMDs).^[10] Some such devices, in particular the miracle cure boxes, have been patented,^[11] manufactured and sold.

NB: one of the original proponents is here.

However… how come my dialogues proposed I start looking into this..??

[Just spoken to G. ‘Torsion’ is not the phrase linked to cars and velocity. I’d misremembered. It’s ‘torque‘!]

The second article:

Exclusive: Discovery of Tesla’s Torsion fields above the Bosnian Pyramids

I’ll just leave the last lines of the article here:

‘We are all just a part of the cosmic Internet together with all other cosmic entities in space including our Creator. The information transmission is almost instant regardless of the fair distances. Thereby, the Bosnian Pyramid of the Sun, on our small mother Planet, is a link in the cosmic Internet.’

Wow, the scale of this stuff. Whether or not it’s science or sci-fi, I love the expansiveness of the ideas.

Maybe torsion fields are linked to the qigong I do every day? [Qigong = energy cultivation or energy practice or energy generation.] Tesla worked on free energy generation. I get the sense that what we are looking here is akin to endless fibonacci repetitions, or spiral dynamics, which create fields of pure force. This is almost what is happening from the point of the heart outwards, in each of us. Right?

Now would be a good moment to settle in. 

***Reading Bringers(wow)&20minTimedMed***

The torsion field you seek to generate is initiated in the heart centre, and it is fuelled by your focus and your conscious breathing. As you just experienced. The centre of connectivity between you and the rest of the quantum field is seated at that magnetic centre within you, the heart. When that self-propelling, auto-generating engine  is set in motion, you suddenly have new energy within your system, and with that new energy, clarity occurs. 

Yes, there is real clarity! Also, the brain just settles into the alpha or theta state, right? And the autonomic nervous system slides from sympathetic to parasympathetic. This is mindfulness practice at its best.

This is mindfulness practice at its basic potentiality. If only you knew what you were really doing when you settled down to quieten your mind. If only you knew what you would unleash if you would but sit a little longer. But there is time for all things. 

Help me land and make sense of some of this torsion field information. Yesterday (or 2 days ago), Torsion was the name I blithely gave my Frequency Modulation Mixing Desk engineer. What’s arising? What do I need to know to be able to integrate my learning at the moment?

You are learning to settle and be present to the various elements in you which are ready to grow. Those elements are:

1. your capacity for knowing and
2. your activated free will.

You are ready to apply your knowing to your free will. This has been delayed at times. You needed to download more information for this all to occur successfully. Your ‘frequency modulation’ work is vital. You are learning to breathe into the tensions arising from the shifts going on in you, and in you all at this time of cosmic, quantum upheaval. 

What advice would you give us all for easing the feelings?

The advice which is relevant to you all is this: BREATHE. You really need to OXYGENATE your bodies to facilitate the quantum shift you are enduring at this time. If you want to make this easier for yourselves, you need to relax, kick back and breathe deeply. Really breathe it in – and shake it out. 

Like Deborah teaches. She knows where it’s at.

Exactly this. The body has much to purge, both for itself and for the collective. This is daily, hourly work. Why else would you be given this window for deep retreat in which to rest your body and exercise daily? 

Man alive. I just don’t know whether to consider this Covid-19 period a tragedy and a dark attack on our planet, or a gift from Gaia and the cosmos within which we can heal…

And here is the torsion, dear sweet friend. On the one hand, there are strong magnetic forces of perturbation spiralling downwards, and on the other hand there equally strong magnetic forces of potential spiralling upwards. The work of the individual sitting in this magnetic storm is to ‘justify’ the forces – as you ‘justify’ or resolve an equation, so that it balances out to zero. 

The zero point field is within you, at your heart centre. Use the tangible opposing spiralling forces as a guide. So strong are the forces that it is now very clear when they are running ‘cleanly’ through your heart centre. Before this period, they were subtle, and only those with established practice could sense the magnetic torsion running into the heart centre. 

When the spiralling forces run straight through the heart centre – and my goodness, without deep breathing and shaking out, this will be extremely uncomfortable – you will be generating a self-sustaining torus field. 

What? This is so cool.

A torus field – like the apple pictures….

Just two days ago, when I started playing with Torsion, I got this idea for something I called Fountain Breathing.

Fountain Breathing: breathe in from the reservoir of water and draw the breath/water up your central channel to the heart; exhale it out through the crown of your head, so it rises up and then falls gently back in to the reservoir, ready for drawing upwards again…

It’s the same shape as the torus, I hadn’t realised…

Now look up ‘torsion field’ images. 

Here are a couple…

 

Today is the day in which the heart centre is being awakened in the human race. The person must centre their self (shelter in place) to be able to generate torsion. And the heart must be stirred and opened, whether by fear or by compassion, by loss or by hope, by anger or by relief, in order to fuel the dynamo within the torus.

And that’s what the pandemic is for?

The pandemic is not ‘for’ anything. The pandemic is what it is. A phenomenon sweeping your planet, as a virus of the body and, in so far as fear is contagious, of the mind. It is causing traumatic deaths and untold grief. Livelihoods are evaporating, and some in ‘power’ are ruthlessly taking advantage of their security. Many are ‘capitalising’ on the opportunities to profiteer from the vulnerability of others. This pandemic is not merely a ‘tool’ of conscious evolution. To consider it so would be a fallacy. 

However. Human beings are ready to wake up. Tragedy is a great awakener. Would that hearts might awaken without an alarm. But the fog has heretofore been dense. 

Thank you. I hear you. So… what shall I do today, to absorb this and make sense of it? Please don’t say ‘keep breathing’… My anxiety woke me at 4.30am… Breathing deeply is like touching electric cattle fencing at the moment.

We are saying keep moving your body today. As much as you can. Keep a sense of flow. Your mixing desk works best when you are not ‘static’. 

I can do that. I’ll set up a standing desk again… I can keep moving. And my head and heart?

Let the torus flourish. Generate torsion. 

Ha… Honestly… I love your faith in my capacity for this! 😉

Capacity for this? You set out at your life’s origin with this intention. This is your goal not ours. This is your destiny. And the destiny of all of you. It is not a magic show or a beauty contest. It is just physics, harnessed for the greater good. 

Generate torsion, from your heart outwards. This is the new business as usual, ok? No one needs to stop the clocks or cut any ribbons. It’s the new normal. Centre in your heart and generate torsion. You’ll know when it lands. When it does, just note it and slightly magnify it. And get on with your day. No jazz hands; no sighs or highs. Land the feeling with a hand to the heart if you would like a physical anchoring tool. But keep the torus images in mind, and breathe like a fountain if and when it feels good to do so. 

If you want motivation, know this. You can resolve fatigue this way. Why? Because you start to generate more energy than you actually burn. Tesla said there was free energy to be generated – by torsion. And it starts with you and in you. 

Ok. I can buy in to that notion and invitation! Thank you! Be with me… Ok? Be with me, Torsion? Ty.

I am generating torsion – from my heart outwards

PS. Just found this for the scientist in me:

https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/15823696

 

PPS: I thought , ‘It’s time to get back to the HeartMath Institute…’. I went there and guess what, they are offering The HeartMath Experience for free at this time to support people through CV19. 🙂 I’ve signed up…

https://experience.heartmath.com/course

 

I set out to use my Frequency Modulation Mixing Desk to master my frequencies yesterday, while running a classy 4 Hour WorkDay… aaaaand seemingly unleashed some energetic storm:

I ended up spending 4 hours – yes 4 hours – working on getting on to a conferencing platform for a webinar I’m giving next week. And around that, wifi and computers were dancing all over the place. I got animated on a phone call, and gave myself a sudden startling, painful head rush (excess/trapped qi?). G said my energy had been all over the place all day – and he has never said that before. The exercise I’d wanted to do was to list:

• Frequency raisers
• Frequency tasers

And seemingly I was in taser mode all day! Everything I touched got zapped. So, wth..?

Settle in, sausage. We’ve got stuff to discuss. 

Awesome. Ty.

Time to meditate first. We need to meet you in a different state of mind. Let the boiling water cool a bit. 

Ah… yes. My head is a bit ‘heated’. I’ll turn the ‘kettle’ off and wait a while…

***Reading of Bringers and 20 min med***

Welcome back. 

Thank you. I feel cooler of head.

The topic for today is The Simulation. 

Excellent.

Yesterday you found the new TV programme, Upload. 

We did. OMG. I resonated.

Indeed. You liked the idea of the human being uploaded into the virtual reality afterlife, and having instant constant access to an Angel who would meet all needs. 

Very much.

Welcome to your reality. Not so ‘virtual’ on the inside, is it? 

And what do you mean by this?

We mean welcome to the paradigm in which all seems so real, and yet… is very much a simulation in which all is instantly changeable – ‘mutable‘. You just haven’t learnt the functionality yet. For example, the Angel. You barely ever call on your Angel. 

Ha! It’s true.

Your Angel is the sound engineer on the Frequency Modulation Mixing Desk. You are in the studio. Your Angel is out on the desk. You two are in constant, dynamic communication. If you want. If you will. 

You can ask your Angel to tweak and twiddle the frequency mix at any time. 

Just like Nathan and Nora in Upload. He is in the VR, and she is on the control desk outside. The communication is telepathic, but also she turns up in his reality as a person-like avatar at any time.

And so your Angel is always on the desk, and can also turn up as a person-like Avatar at any time. 

Are you my Angel?

Of course. And yet… 

Can you be clear?

Not really. “It’s company policy.” 

Haha. Like ‘Horizen’ in the programme.

So is this why, last week, you suggested the idea of imagining that ‘in a year, the simulator would be switched off’? This is all hugely overlapping. I hadn’t heard of Upload, and it came out yesterday (the day we watched it) and G just put it on… Is this all going somewhere…?

Yes and no. There would need to be somewhere to go, and for that you need space and time to be… ‘real’. 

Very… funny/true?!

Where it is going is this. You are being invited to expand your awareness beyond the ‘here and now’ to the ‘there and now’. This means the following. Life has slowed right down in this quarantine, and become incredibly peaceful, has it not? The only turbulence remains:

1. On your screens as you reach out to discern what is going on… the actuality of which you can not truly know, especially filtered through one medium or another. (The external)
2. In your energetic sphere. (The internal)

Our suggestion is that: 

1. You turn off the VR world in your ‘news’ screens for now. You cease and desist the work of discerning the outside sphere, for now. (The external)
2. You turn in to your energetic sphere, and work with that, learning in this time of isolation how to use your Frequency Modulation Mixing Desk, via contact with your Sound Engineer, or Angel. (The internal)

That seems eminently sensible. A good use of this time. I mean, there’s still plenty for me to practise on. It’s not as if there’s just ‘sitting around’ to be done for me in this time… I’m juggling work. Yesterday was such a sh*tstorm I’m going to need to work through most of today – a Saturday…

You’ve put the kettle on again. Switch it off and let’s cool the waters for a second. 

You have a Sound Engineer on your Frequency Modulation Mixing Desk. Did you hear that? You’ve got invisible head phones on. So have they. You are in constant communication. They have the controls to everything you could want modulated. And they are entirely, 100% on your side. They are guided by you and your free will, so they will do whatever you like, but they are borne out of Source, so their real skill-set is LightWork.  

Wow. Beautiful. Hello, Sound Engineer. So, you’re like Nora. I can think thoughts to you. You want the best for me. You have full control of the VR world I’m in and can sort everything. I guess there’s a time lag, right?

Right. You put in the request, but if you’re not believing or expecting the request to be met, it gets stuck or delayed in the system. That’s just how the VR works. It’s not so much a glitch in design as a challenge through which you can learn to become completely clear in your detachment about receiving. And that takes complete self-clarity, which means self-acceptance, which means self-appreciation, which means self-knowing, which means loving the heck out of yourself from waking til sleeping.

Once you log off for sleep, and go back on charge, you roam around outside the tight confines of the VR and get refreshed. The idea is that if you can know/love yourself in the VR landscape, you’ve really nailed that torsion concept we mentioned the other day. And that is… well… it’s divine alchemy. So, go you, sweet sister of souls! 

Man, alive. Ok. So… today?

The trick with all this is to start really small. “Nora, dial up my energy 1 notch. Dial down my frustration about this task, by 2. Nora, let this person know that despite the brevity of my email to them here, I do love and appreciate them. Nora, snapshot this scene in to my ‘Cherished Memories’ folder.” 

‘Nora’? Isn’t that the character in the TV show?

Today you can call your Sound Engineer by any name. Is Angel too loaded for you? Use Nora. Or Sound Engineer. Or Bob. Or Mixey. 

What would they like to be called?

Torsion. 

Ha! Excellent. Of course. Because that’s what we’re learning to work with.

Torsion gives you acceleration. 

I like it. 🙂

Ok Torsion, turn up my physical energy levels for today. Just by 2. And turn down my appetite by a 1. Download a packet of Optimism and Peace. Thank you.

So, Torsion is your Sound Engineer on your Frequency Modulation Mixing Desk. Work with them today, and have fun. Remember the communication is instant. Remember the aim of the simulator is to learn to ‘get on top’ of your internal frequencies, and Torsion will help immeasurably. 

Today, I am playing with Torsion.

I am playing with Torsion

 

 

(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ZfZj2bn_xg)

One Hour Later:

What the actuallllll???

I’m looking at the BBC news and this story about Elon Musk turns up:

Quite some article in itself. “Ah!” I think, as an off-shoot… “The only time I heard about the concept of ‘torsion’ was when being taken out for a test drive in a Tesla” Tesla were interested in sponsoring my company. “Let me google Tesla and Torsion to get a better understanding of torsion in cars…”

And then THIS appears. Both of the articles. I can’t even GO there yet….

 

Excuse me?!?!? Before these dialogues I literally only knew of ‘torsion’ as with cars, and then the definition I looked up, ‘twisting’. What rabbit hole are you taking me down, dear Dialogues?!?

My heart is full. I’m mind blown, but also, you know I love this. I’ll read the actual articles later.

Mind blown. Grateful. ❤️

Shortly after yesterday’s positive start, I fell off a cliff, psychologically. Listening to my Heart it only said, “Rest, Sleep, Rest, Relax, Stop, Float About…” When I did collapse into bed, exhausted just from taking a shower, I felt, ‘I’m so tired. maybe my body is healing something it needs to heal’. I later counted 22 minutes of work across the whole day. I couldn’t stand the thought of it. Also, I finally started my new computer going – which took 5 hours to transfer data. My phone ran out of battery so I plugged it in for two hours so I could take it out for a walk – only to find that the cable hadn’t been plugged into the wall. Eventually, eyes spinning and distress submerging me, I turned on the telly. A 1955 film was just starting: All That Heaven Allows. (Nice.) It’s message? ‘To thine own self be true.’ Most bizarrely, when I thought depression and anxiety were on the brink of toppling me, a random black dog literally turned up on my back doorstep… He’d escaped from a neighbours’ half a mile away it turned out.

Eventually I made it out for a walk. Listening to Kryon, Lorie Ladd and Abraham, while once again lost in the beautiful woods, it became clear to me:

• I need to learn to breathe
• Why, because I need to get into my body
• If I breathe I touch emotional pain and density – and that is the work – don’t shrink from it
• Breathe into the density – and thereby clear it – not just from self but on behalf of our all
• Inhale / sniff into the pain. It’s ok. Let it illuminate the Heart space when you do.

Then, today, I woke up with a panic attack at 4.30am. At 5am, instead of getting up as I would tend to do with panic, I decided to try to simply make an exercise of breathing into the panic, very very softly. I imagined myself to be a candle, whose flame was fed by my breathing, and the feeling of panic and pain was merely the sensation of the flame burning brightly. Somewhere before 6am I fell asleep for another hour of deep sleep and woke up refreshed.

I must keep to my routine today to get the best chance of staying ahead of it all, and it’s 8am now. Time for qigong. It’s chilly again, but I might go out on the patio anyway. Your message for today?

The light from your candle illuminates worlds inside yourself and out. Keep breathing. Keep moving. Get in your body and stay there while you do your thing today. 

More tomorrow – for now – keep breathing in and keep breathing out, as your dear mother used to say.

Breathe bright like a candle

Ty. x

 

 

Here I am, feeling good on this new day. The first/second day of morning rain since lockdown began 36 days ago, by the way. A quick lockdown update:

Here’s The Sun’s review the lockdown so far:

And #Panorama is trending this morning after last night’s broadcast:

Panorama's discovered the government failed to buy crucial protective equipment it needed to prepare for a pandemic.

The government says it has taken the right steps at the right time and is doing everything it can to increase stocks.https://t.co/twRGi1wUDY#BBCPanorama pic.twitter.com/OZLtiktGGe

— BBC Panorama (@BBCPanorama) April 27, 2020

(https://twitter.com/BBCPanorama/status/1254835404127326208)

 

Back to my real time perspective. Here I am, feeling good on this new day. I slept a glorious 8h21mins. Yesterday was remarkable.

I set out with the intention to listen and respond to my body, checking into SENSING and performing U-turns wherever I felt I was being directed to by the Feel Good GPS. (Maybe I’m so sensitive for a good reason, I reminded myself.) I kept checking in to and with the sensations of the body with the expectation I’d need to take action to adjust towards Feeling Good or Feeling Even Better. You need to follow the directions given by the Feel Good GPS to get to Feel Good Town! And mostly, dear friends, the direction given was:

“Giddup, geddonup!” and

“You gotta move your body”

The body was saying “move me!” or as we used to say up north,

“Maeve!”

So I kept moving: I did my qigong on the patio (I’ve bought the subscription to Holden Qigong now). I set up my desk as a standing desk with the kitchen footstool on the table, and worked for my allotted morning 2 hours (‘work as a privilege’ – limit work to feel good) while standing and swaying. Somehow, almost without thinking, I found myself posting my new (homemade, imperfect, but heartfelt) mediation brochure to my website in a blog, and then… without thinking on it too much or adding ‘excess potential’ but just sensing and following impulses… simply putting it on LinkedIn and Twitter – to my network of over a thousand people. Well done. It was, though I say it myself, really well done. I Felt Good to have done it.

I also decided to treat my training of yesterday as a ‘group mediation’: Start by ensuring we had all stated and explored the problem. Then use the session to provide/foster/define the answer. It worked! By the end, the team had committed to using the tool I was teaching them with – as the natural solution to their problem. Much better approach.

I also connected with my heart. I can’t explain… On my walk. I listened to these meditations by trance channellers. They focussed on the heart. And something clicked into place. I was/am in a different space. The voice of the heart speaks softly (while the head dictates and shoves). I needed that shift.

Lastly, I had the most beautiful news: One of the most cherished souls in my entire world (A.) went for a post-cancer treatment biopsy, on the last bits of unexplained shadows in the CT scan she’d had after her unspeakably gruelling treatment. Only, once at the appointment, the doctor could no longer find those shadows. There was nothing to perform a biopsy on. So, she and husband came home. Without telling us how the appointment had gone, A. set a Zoom call with me and the girls (her granddaughters) for the evening – and we were braced for the absolute worst. So this precious news was just the best thing imaginable. A. described coming into the drive on returning home from the hospital with her husband (N.) driving, and seeing her car parked there – and gasping at the thought that she would one day drive it again. She had assumed she never would. A & N may remain shielded in lockdown til next spring (can you imagine it???!) but we agreed we would visit when we could, and shout across the garden, and celebrate renewed life.

May I follow the soft voice of my heart again today. May I remain in the proximity of the good feeling sensations. May I learn more clearly today what it means to live and to live well – in peace, resonating with gentle joy. May I finish my day even more rested and replenished than when I started it, by knowing that the open, tuned-in heart is where it’s at.

Welcome to the voice of your heart. It speaks sweetly and softly, doesn’t it? It is so wise! It knows the directions of your inner being, which is to say it is your Heart that speaks the directions of your Feel Good GPS. Are you pleased to hear that? 

I am! I need this. Just this morning, I read someone talking about RDS – a factor of ADHD, but also autism. It stands for Rejection Sensitivity Dysfunction (here’s one earlier ref). It seemed to explain a great deal of my stress – about emails, comms, phone calls, texts, training… The only place I felt free of it was/is in my casework, where for once, the distress of the dear beautiful person before me was clearly greater than my own, and I could have the gift of helping them reduce their distress – knowing that their infinite vulnerability was part of the human condition because I feel it too….

I'm always surprised that not everyone with #ADHD knows about RSD (Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria) and it's like, a real important part of having ADHD. Let's break it down!

— Dusty Chipura (@dustychipura) April 27, 2020

(https://twitter.com/i/status/1254864542481264643)

One commenter on the thread added: ‘Forgive me if I’m wrong about this but isn’t this just anxious or disorganised attachment? It would make sense given the connection between ADHD and early attachment rupture/ insecure attachment.‘

I just want to raise this as useful learning for me today.

While we’re learning about the voice of my heart..;

Excellent. And do know that is the voice of your sweet beautiful Head that contributes the very ‘real’ RSD you experience. The voice of your Heart contributes, quietly, a very direct message in any moment, about what you might do, say, be or have which aligns with the feeling of perfect wellbeing. The Head is louder, and the feelings of dysphoria had become so normalised to you that you felt ‘floaty’ without them. Hence the tendency towards leaning into substances for grounding. 

And so, this rejection sensitivity which so blights my days with it’s lashings of guilt and worry… What does my Heart have to say on these matters?

The Heart simply says: ‘Tune into me and listen. Tune into me and listen. Tune into me and listen.’ 

Ok. I will. Thank you. x

I am tuning into my Heart and listening. 

 

Here’s what I learnt about tuning into Feel Good FM yesterday:

• Breathe and wriggle (eg neck or spine) to reboot when feeling stuck
• Invite ‘Lurking Concerns’ to step forward for reassurance or action – do a SCARF (David Rock) check on them
• State, ad infinitum, “iFeel Good now because…” and fill in the blank – endlessly programming the brain to attend to and magnify what increased the good feeling
• Limit work – because work currently means sitting on my backside with no direct human interaction, and that traps stress, is mentally exhausting, and makes me lose conditioning (I felt so heavy and slow this weekend.) Treat work as a privilege and limit myself to up to 5 hours on the backside, or 6 if there’s a 3 hour client session. Otherwise, up on the feet and moving the body!

It’s Monday morning, and yet again the prospect of work is making me feel sick with stress. I am training a team of quite focussed/stressed HR professionals today. I don’t know them. They know each other. They don’t want to waste their time – no one does, yet training invariable fundamentally runs that risk for people. I am awash with cortisol. I am back to thinking not sensing. I f***ing hate it.

The One Priority is to Feel Good. Not just at the weekends but every day. Think: ‘363 days left before the simulator is switched off…’ Would you want to run towards the end like a panting marathon runner, or would you prefer to slip into zen consciousness and draw to the end in a state of…

…Sartori?

Awakeness. 

I want to be awake, please.

Ok. So, this Feeling Good business. It’s central. 

I remember Abraham speaking really clearly on this. Let me find a quote…

There are a few. The phrase I looked for was ‘selfish enough to prioritise feeling good‘.

What a trip, eh? To prioritise feeling good? What seemingly ‘Critically Important’ facets of your life would you need to give up to feel good?

Doing work that upsets my beautiful, Aspie nervous system. Like training.

“But you’re really good at training! And the money is good and safe.”

But. It. Frazzles. Me. In a way that casework doesn’t. I have a choice:

1. Resign from all training now, and tell my agencies I won’t do it.
2. Put energy and attention into casework so it grows organically.

Number 1 feels like the quickest way to relief and feeling good, but financially it might be a bit churlish seeing as we’re in the situation we are in.

Number 2 needs my courage, clarity and commitment.

Can you feel the good feeling feelings about casework? 

Yes.

Can you revel in that for a moment? 

>>>

Who is that imagined scenario helping? 

Well the clients, but also me.

Can you be selfish enough to accept the gift of a work scenario which feeds and uplifts and nourishes you? 

Yes. I love to be a problem-solver. I love that. I love to meet people who believe they have completely intractable problems and take them on a process which unravels the problem and welcomes the solution. That is good for me. It’s reassuring, and it makes me feel I know my place in the world. The juicier the problem the better, because I know that as it unravels, we are all coming into contact with something bigger than any of us. And the trust and faith of the clients is what turns on the tap of that incoming goodness.

Sounds pretty good. No wonder you like it..

Yes. No wonder..! So, how best can I prioritise tuning into Feel Good FM today, and this week?

Your intention must be really clear. Not vacuous or ‘flaccid’. 

Ha. Ok!

If your intention says: ‘Here I am, in my world, owning what feels good for me, tuning into my Feel Good FM station, and benefitting from my connection with my Source, and basking in the connectedness I now sense with all beings. Here I am, connecting my heart to my work, and gently decommissioning my head. Here I am, thanking my head for having done its very best, and now relaxing into being a heart-centred worker bee in the hive of all sweetest honey. Here I am, thanking myself for all my hard work in the past, and now accepting the pure goodness that comes from saying “Yes!” to that which makes me feel good. Here I am, welcoming the paradigm of Feeling Good into my world, and inviting it to settle in and to stay. Here I am, loving my beautiful brain and my incredibly vibrant nervous system, and offering them the bounty of SENSING over thinking.’ …then you really will be in a happy place. 

Beautiful. It’s about embracing that selfishness…

More than that, it’s about embracing the SENSE of feeling good. Again, you gotta be out of thought-mode, you gotta be in your body to feel good. The feeling good is sensed not thought, ok? 

Ok, get in my body, and sense feeling good. And if I don’t sense feeling good? Move, change, shift?

Use your body as a Feel Good GPS system, and remain ‘alive’ to it’s guidance. If your body is saying, “At the next roundabout perform a U-turn!” then follow it’s guidance. Stop hurtling the wrong way down the dual carriageway and expect to get to your desired destination. Take the U-turns when your body indicates. 

 

Ok. Ty. I will do this thing. 🙂 May I listen carefully to the directions of my body.

I am using my body as a Feel Good GPS

 

 

You’ll see from my drawing yesterday, this insight was the outcome of my thoughtlessness non-mullings:

I am shrinking my thinking and fencing my sensing

I figured that: if my mind is focussed on the past or future, I’m in THINKING mode – and likely High Thought, as my beautiful Aspie brain tends not to think lightly.

On the other hand, if my mind is on the present ‘now’ moment, I am not in thought, I am pretty much just SENSING. (I expect this is exactly what beloved Tolle wrote in The Power of Now, but it’s been a while since I read it and we all learn in cycles…)

So, rather than wait to spot if I’m thinking or sensing, why not spent more time/energy on SENSING, knowing that sensing and thinking can’t really co-occur, and thus knowing that sensing is a fair route out of thinking.

By fencing my sensing I mean ‘protecting’ my sensing faculty, by actively allowing it, encouraging it, fostering it – and not letting the urgent impulse to THINK derail the lightness of SENSING.

(It’s almost as if I’d just invented mindfulness… 😀 )

And so. And so. Can I sense your considerations on this topic?

Oh yes! We’d much rather you sensed with us than talked with us. That is how it all works best. Telepathy is the ultimate communication, is it not? And it comes in thought-bundles, which your mind downloads and unpacks with immense ease…. w h e n ….you are in sensing mode. Not so much when in thinking mode. When you are in thinking mode, it’s like we’re trying to play you a song while you’ve got the radio on in the background. You see? 

I do see! To the degree that seeing is a sense! I see that you are communicating with me in a non-linear way. And that excites me, at which point I start thinking. Funny that…

Excitement is a faculty of the nervous system. One of the great opportunities of the human experience today is to ‘get on top of’ the nervous system, as it were. That is why the world filled with massage therapists and body workers after 1987. And why mindfulness practice has finally become mainstream, thank goodness! Getting on top of the nervous system means learning to RELAX it. 

And how do you relax the nervous system?

The first thing you do is take away from your nervous system the threat of your very self. You are the biggest threat to your nervous system because you make yourself do things that are against your inner will. Don’t you? 

Sure! That’s what being a grown up is all about though, no? If I just follow my hedonic brain where it cares to lead me, I end up fat, drunk and asleep. Not exactly consciousness paradise, is it?

Your inner will and your hedonic brain are different ‘beasts’. Your inner will – seated in what Abraham calls the Inner Being – is borne out of your sorting and sifting of life. It is akin to the ‘Vortex’ Abraham speaks of.

What often happens for you is that you force yourself go down one route, but your Inner Being is all set for something else…that is going against your inner will, whether inspired by the hedonic brain, or more likely, the egoic mind. 

For example, you say, ‘Training is so tiring; I’d like to do more casework.’ At which point your Inner Being readies itself for more casework, with glee, because it loves to learn what you like! That intention now becomes your inner will. Imagine how your Inner Being feels when you then spend a week working on training, saying “Yes!” to new training, and not getting your casework offer out there. 

Disappointed?

No. Fraught. Tense. Confounded. Or, to be precisely accurate, that is how you feel. Your Inner Being has endless patience and profound detachment and remains ‘unmoved’. But your nervous system gets scrambled when you act outside the intention and inner will that you previously created by your sorting and sifting of the liked and not-liked. 

Oh… man. I can see that might be A Thing.

Similarly, when you have developed the Inner Will to eat well, and your follow your Hedonic Mind to overeating, your nervous system gets tense.

And upon that note, shall we clarify the next step? 

Yes please.

Clue: it does not involve self-chastisement. It does involve some self-compassion. But more than anything, to overcome the stress of acting outside your own Inner Will, and to reduce the likelihood of your acting outside your own Inner Will, one thing is needed in spectacular quantities. 

What is that one thing?

Love.

And this love… which in principle I’m ALL over… tell me…

Love is sensed not thought. 

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I see. That hits home.

In order to love you must sense. In order to sense you must be in the present moment. 

If 99.4% of your day is spent in thinking mode (past/future) you can’t SENSE enough to download enough love to even breathe… let alone to harness the energy and willpower to work with the desires and dreams of your inner being. 

To even breathe… Split infinitive aside…

Used for emphasis. 🙂

… I hear you. Much of the time, my breath is held. Literally. I don’t breathe deeply.

Creating acidosis. 

Which makes me inflamed, swollen, tired, hormonal…

And so…

If I spent more time in the present moment, sensing, not only would I breathe better, I’d be able to download love?

Downloading love into yourself is literally the most valuable thing you can do for yourself and for the planet. And yes, you can do it by breathing. In the present moment. 

Shrinking my thinking…

Fencing your sensing. 

Breathing deeply.

And downloading love into yourself. 

More on this another day. You get the idea. Play with this today. Sense it. 

Got it. Tysm. x

I am downloading love into myself