Author: Dialogues Of Discernment

Another Monday morning where I’m woken by anxiety at 4am-ish. Let’s get on top of this now. I’m getting this feeling of the possibility of ‘the routine’, the template, the blueprint for the week – a constant pattern where there is simply less uncertainty, and less ‘being run along others’ tracks’. My beautiful Aspie brain yearns for certainty, rhythm, and the confidence that we are leading with Giving over Gaining – or at least, Serving over Striving. Can you speak to all this please?

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While you are keen to work with routines and timetables you should know that you are now entering an epoch of timelessness.

What does this mean?

This means you are starting to move off linear time and into the arena of moments of eternity. This is why you are so keen for, and have been working towards, regularity and simplicity. You needed to wean yourself off linearity! It’s so stimulating to be on linear time, and that stimulation has been a source of comfort, just as being bounced in her mother’s arms is comforting to the baby. But you are learning to stand with two feet on the ground, and to blend and merge into timelessness. 

Well this Lockdown period has certainly been somewhat timeless. We’re all saying, ‘I don’t know what day it is’ and ‘Is it Christmas yet?’ It’s a source of amusement. Maybe that’s why I experience a wrench going back into the week every Monday, it suddenly feels so linear again.

Not if you set your time for you. 

That’s true. I’m nearly there! With Project One Jam. My intention is to offer one afternoon session a day, at the same time, or easily flipped with the morning if needed.

Stick to your guns. Clarity and self-determination are literally the order of the day. 

Meaning?

The order of the day = the way you order your day. 

Ah! Funny. I thought you meant, order as in command.

That also. That also! 

🙂 So… Clarity and self-determination. What is this about exactly?

You have to be clear about what you offer, and do, otherwise people can’t ‘see’ you. You’re too ephemeral. Like fairies in the woods. 

Daily Clinic at 2pm.

Say it aloud. 

“I run a Daily Clinic at 2.” I can’t believe I’m writing this aloud… Why am I?

To exemplify the evolving route. 

Ok.

And what is the link between Daily Clinic at 2pm and timelessness, hm?

Hooks on the plains of eternity make it easier for you to liaise with your friends on the energetic level. 

I need to strip away old ways of doing things, don’t I?

You can either strip them away, or wait for them to decay. If we were in your physical shoes, we would strip them away, with glee. 

Because I can, right?

Because you can. 

What could I do this week really to satisfy myself and bring me a sense of relief, satiation and satisfaction, at the level of my inner being? Diving into the vortex, as it were.

Share. Your. Writing. That would be the blast of adventure you are looking for. 

I worry… that if I do, either it will be greeted with a dull thud (fear of rejection there in me) or that I will literally lose my ability to have these dialogues because I will become self-conscious.

These conversations are sincerely not just for you. If you think they are, then maybe you are missing the significance of this time. 

That idea makes me sad, ashamed… aggrieved. I’ve no idea how to come out.

Yes, you do. 

It’s true. Yes I do. And then I hesitate. And then it feels like a bad idea. And then I return to it. And then I hesitate. And then… Ultimately – how do I know I won’t lose my link with this ability to dialogue if I do share what I write?

You won’t really know until you do it. And then you will be surprised. 

And what if… Oh, please say something that will give me faith and trust and confidence that if I share this writing, I will be ok.

Empty your mind. 

…..

Think of 5 women you trust. 

Write their names down. 

Now send the link to your writings to them in your mind, and note what you see. 

[Curiosity, astonishment, indifference, awe, pleasure.]

And now relax. Let it go. Move on. Live your day. 

I started reading Bringers of the Dawn again this weekend…  I love it so.

And are you glad that writing was shared so you could read it?

It came from a clear authority. I don’t know where this comes from, and if it’s just me, then I should keep it to myself. This dialoguing has always been about me healing and teaching me. It’s always been my answer to therapy. And therefore it should remain private. But… I wonder if there are others like me, who would benefit from my sharing this?

So you are a clear authority on you. That’s enough, isn’t it? 

It’s just so weird. And I don’t want to be misunderstood…

sh… Live your day. 

My message to take away?

Live your day in favour of ‘the survival of the weakest’. 

Weak is a pejorative term, no? I get that it’s the opposite of fittest… Is it like, ‘the meek’?

If you like. We think you know what is meant by ‘the weakest’. It is meant: those who do not have your privilege, your advantage, your luxury of lifestyle. You got a little bit used to being the vulnerable, or the victim, or the struggler – as you so self-identified. You didn’t notice that you became fit, empowered and endowed with immense advantage. Use it for those following in your footsteps towards these ‘sunny uplands’ of relief. Envision relief for all. Support those who are faltering at this time. Know that all will find relief. Support those who need the help up the last incline. 

Live your day in favour of those who seek relief.

Ok. Thank you. This is good. Blessings upon this planet at this time.

Live your day in favour of those who seek relief

 

 

Good morning. It is a bright and beautiful day. The sun is shining and the new leaves are relishing the light. How are we today?

All is well. As ever, all is well.

I’m aware of the importance at looking towards the light, the bright, the new, the growing…

The spring has sprung, and a new day has begun. 

Too right! A new day indeed. Something’s afoot on this planet. Half the world is in lockdown! HALF the WORLD is in LOCKDOWN.

Or, ‘Shutdown’ – rebooting the system, upgrading the operating software. 

Isn’t that just extraordinary?! I have this inkling, this sense, that some negative forces tried to create this whole global crisis situation with malevolent intent, but… ‘so powerful is the light of unity that it can illuminate the whole Earth.’

The light of unity is indeed the harbinger of the new dawn. 

We’re seeing something powerful occurring out of this enforced pause, aren’t we? Those of us away from the frontlines and in good health, are being granted time and space – to heal, to hear themselves think, to reconnect with loved ones, to sense our own intuition. The collective thoughts are resonating – some with fear or frustration – but others with a profound realisation of relief, borne out of resting and rebooting. It’s so important we choose which thought channel we want to add our thought to, because, I sense something is growing.

What do you sense is growing, dear soul? 

An intention. A determination. A clarity about loving each other, caring for each other, looking out for each other.

Ever since the school exams which pitch young soul against young soul, we are taught to compete against each other, to clamber over one another, to win the economic race… What is this set up?! The Hunger Games?! Who’s running it?

We see clearly at this time who really matters in this country – who the key workers really are. And how diverse they are! (And yes, we are bringing in generous workers from Europe to pick our fruit crops.) This society is empowered by its precious diversity, and we’re finding ways of articulating this fact now:

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How will we keep hold of this nascent consciousness? How will we stop the amnesia returning after we’re let out of our cages again, and set back on the greyhound race track to chase that chimeric stuffed rabbit?

Over to you now. I’m getting heated.

There is no policy which can either stop or discourage the racism in your environs. But there is one truth which can keep everyone awake, and that is  this: ‘the survival of the weakest’ is the touchstone upon which a compassionate society thrives. Weakness is seen as a magnet for predators in the Old Way. In the New Way, empowered by fresh waves of empathy and love, weakness is an attractor for immense care and powerful compassion. In the New Way societies (and yours is late to this party), caring well for the weakest members is the way of nobility, of truth and of service. 

We are unspeakably cruel to the weakest in our society here.

Not always so. But there are competing forces at play. The magnetism of ‘financial gain’ pulls attention in the opposite direction to ‘principled care for the weakest ones’. It is hard to keep both factors in your vision at once, and when you do then you have to work hard not to let the former corrupt the latter. 

To prioritise the principle of GIVING over the pragmatic pull of GAINING, you need to do something very important. And that is BREATHE. 

GAINING is marked by breathlessness.

Yes, this is how I have felt over the last year of full time work. Panting, breathless, rushing at breakneck speed…

This these is sensitive given that breathlessness is the key symptom of this pandemic virus, but we want you to take this concept seriously.

Oxygen is life. Life is marked by the impulse to thrive. A collective which is losing its ability to breathe is one which has lost, or is at risk of losing, this intangible impulse to thrive. 

At a thought level?

It is more complex than wrong-thinking. Ask yourself: what would make someone lose their impulse to thrive? 

Oh, heavens. I can speak to this. Hopelessness, shame, fear, regret, disgust, loss… They all actively drive against our being, our sense of self, and because mind and body are linked, they compromise our immune system.

And what mechanisms do you have in your society to minister healing to those experiencing hopelessness, shame, fear, regret, disgust or loss? 

Um. None?! We used to have the church, or religious systems…

Follow us. This is delicate. The human spirit longs to heal and process deep emotions and to burn through karmic pains. To do so is like breathing fresh oxygen.

Ah. Oh, goodness. Yes. Carry on.

GIVING is like taking a deep breath, because it nourishes the sense of self, and because the impulse to give arises from the soul within the person. Giving connects the body to it’s unseen essence – and therefore to its impulse to thrive.

Ask yourself. How much are people granted the opportunity to GIVE, which is the birth right and the purpose of each soul? 

With the ‘shit jobs’, not so much. With the financial need for a mother to return to work when the child is but weeks months old, not so much. With the impoverishment suffered by those in most giving jobs (see key workers), not so much….

And so if people can’t GIVE as is their birthright, but must fixate on GAINING enough to live, what will they feel? 

Suffocated. Our economic model is suffocating to the people in it.

If a society is to breathe deeply, and stimulate that impulse to thrive, it must prioritise GIVING over GAINING.

Like nature. Nature gives first and foremost. It is abundant towards us. It is a garden of Eden. But we use Nature for our gain. We do not give back to it. We are in debt. We have created scarcity by our imbalanced taking.

To Give is a marvellous adventure. You think that giving leaves you impoverished, on your planet. But actually, the laws of the universe say this: to give is to gain. When this is understood, the planet breathes deeply. 

This is so profound. Again, I am reminded of my beautiful friend Janet C. who used to say “Thank you for giving me the opportunity to serve!” as she arrived unannounced on my doorstep with the ingredients to make soup for 30 people.

To prioritise Giving over Gaining is a marvellous adventure because it must be borne out of trust. Or even, faith. But trust is enough for now. We are talking about trust in the law of ‘To Give is To Gain’. It feels like an oxymoron at first, because you have been taught the very opposite by those who have created the framework for your societies. This is why you are all so exhausted. Stressed. And awash with poor mental health. You have been actively misled. You have been educated that ‘To Give is to Lose. To Gain is to Win.’ And as you ran that hopeless losers’ race, ever hoping the winners’ finishing line would appear, you have allowed your energy to be siphoned off to feed some other entity of which you know not. No wonder you are tired. No wonder, in your homes, with enough silence and stillness to hear your innate knowing for once in your goshdarn lives, you are rethinking your understanding of what makes your life tick. 

To Give is To Gain. Ponder on that, and see what you make of it. 

Honestly. I am so blown away by these dialogues.  I am so grateful. You give me hope. You give me healing. You give me stimulation to do, to act and to reconsider my life’s goals. Thank you.

You are welcome. This is all ‘you’ speaking to ‘you’ across the dimensions of time and space. There is nothing ‘special’ about this. It is the natural upshot of taking time to listen to what you already knew. 

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To Give is To Gain

 

Dreams last night:

• I’m talking with this older man – a professional, a journalist. Suddenly he starts shaking and sobbing. He has PTSD from spending time reporting in war zones.
• I go to an auditorium to watch something, and sit up on a partition wall to get a good view. Teetering on the wall, I’m overcome by vertigo, but no one will help me down. Dizzy with terror, I throw myself off the wall and leave the building, without my shoes.
• I’m swimming deep in a crystal clear diving pool. The teeniest baby comes swimming up past me. We both burst up to the surface breathless. The baby is so beautiful and incredible that I laugh and cry uncontrollably.

Trauma and lonely fear, gives way to rebirth.

The days we are in. Oh, my. The days we are in. Tell me. What’s going on from your perspective?

From our perspective, the air is clear. The light is bright. The restoration of goodness is coming to pass. 

It’s really important I hear you right today. I can’t be dealing with making stuff up… Speak as clearly as you can, please.

The message you want to hear from us is not the message we are prepared to give. However, there is news you might be pleased for us to divulge. 

Absolutely. Thank you. Go ahead.

If you turn over the page of fear at this time, the new chapter begins. In this new chapter, sovereignty is key. There is no more time for dalliance around ‘who’ is in charge. The who must be you. For all beings: the who must be you.

So, I must be in charge of my self, my reality.

Exactly so. Ask yourself, ‘Do I seek a leader? Do I seek someone to whom to defer?’ And if you do, simply redress the balance. 

I have been developing my ‘hard No’ somewhat. That’s good. The idea of last session about The New Way, has been so helpful. It’s helped me say ‘no’ to things – if they are of the Old Way. Instead of being bound by them, I’ve dropped them.

Examples:

• I was on a webinar about negotiation skills yesterday, led by the senior organisation in my field. It transpired the speaker was essentially teaching manipulation techniques, in a talk dripping with really skewed humour. Thinking, “This is the Old Way. Nope.” gave me the strength of overcome my ‘lets-not-offend’ trait, and hang up – even though a colleague of mine was a co-host on the webinar.
• I’d been introduced to a financial adviser. On the second call, I got the sense they were hard-selling to me – and scare-mongering me about my future. I did some research, and sure enough, this national organisation has a reputation for over-charging with fees. Old Way. In advance of call number three yesterday, I stepped away from the process, honestly stating that the fees were too high.

In both examples, I decided not to be bound by these ‘high-profile’ or ‘prestigious’ institutions if they were acting Old Way.

How can I attune myself better to New Way? It’s like, I need to wake up more. An example would be: what will make me switch from using ‘easy’ (and unethical) Amazon, to supporting local organisations and their delivery services?

You ask about the New Way. Are you ready to hear what it is all about?

Of course.

Well buckle up because it’s going to be a ride. 

Yes? Tell me.

We will start here: sovereignty is not a fictional, fantastical notion. It is a not a throw-away ideal. It is a frequency field. 

Say what?

A frequency field. You step in to it. We mentioned earlier the image of turning over the page of fear to start a new chapter. Well right here, right now, is a good time to turn over that page. 

Consider it turned!

The new chapter, and the New Way, are marked by illumination. That is the opposite of darkness. It is the definition of light. It is the expression of all creative good in existence. 

And how best does one discern illumination?

Psychically. Which means: you know it. Everyone has access to knowing. They just need to tap into it. You can’t tap into it when you are afraid. That is why stepping away from fear is so important. Do you understand? Stepping away from fear is part one. Tuning in to ‘what you know’ is part two. 

This is really beautiful stuff. Can you give me the message to carry with me today?

Hold no fear. 

Shucks, man. Really? Just like that?

Just. Like. That. Have no truck with it. Banish it. Kick it out. See it, spot it, remove it. Bless the illumination that fills the room from which fear has been rightfully banished. 

Ok. Wow. Will do.

Hold no fear

 

It is Easter Monday. A fourth day of rest and renewal for us as we enter the fourth week of Lockdown in this extraordinary epoch. Yesterday, Easter Sunday, the PM rose from his hospital bed, and went forth to Chequers to recuperate. There truly are so many curious parallel realities playing out at the moment.

Yesterday we bumped into a neighbour, a medic who leads a key department at the local hospital. They are “waiting for the onslaught of Covid-19 patients” to fill the 200 beds they have made ready. “Each weekend we’re told, “This is it!” and then, it isn’t… It’s more about managing the team’s adrenaline than actual patients! I’ve been on-call all day and I haven’t received a single call.” The neighbour added, “I feel more worried for my husband and daughters who are living the situation via what they see on the media. I can tell you, the media version is far worse than the reality in our hospitals.”

Temper this with the news yesterday that the UK death toll from Covid-19 reached 10,000.

Unspeakably valiant NHS workers are losing their lives to coronavirus. Beautiful souls carried away yesterday included dear Tim Brooke-Taylor. The UK’s behaviour has changed hugely in these 3 weeks of Lockdown, for the better and for the worse (ref).

Meanwhile, here in this blessed haven,  the cherry tree is in full bloom. I was grateful for yesterday’s emphasis on healing. I am healing. I had become so run down in the last year of work. The training work had nearly finished me off. The stress levels I’d assimilated as ‘normal’ were off the scale. Please help me think about protecting myself from falling back into that pattern of stressful working again after lockdown finishes.

You have been invited to shift from head to heart. 

Have I?

The trainer works from the head. 

The mediator from the heart. 

The teacher works from the head. 

The healer works from the heart.

Oh. Well. That’s settled then!

…Is this the ‘pivot’??

Essentially, yes. 

Essentially? Tell me more.

The pivot is about reorganising the guiding force in your life, from the pragmatic to the principled. 

Oof! Really? Hit me hard, why dontcha?!

You are full of mirth this morning. 

I am! Am I?

Clearly so! It is most delightful. 

Ha! Good. Tell me about this pragmatic and principled pivot.

The pragmatic has been your ‘go-to’ sphere. Very wise. And very sensible. You have recouped some lost time and stabilised your life. But now it is time to put principle before profit. 

… Ok. Sure. Tell me more. But please keep this clear and simple for me. Thank you.

You have held back on living by your principles, out of pragmatic caution. There is only so far one can go with one’s heart-centred mission when guided by pragmatic caution. 

Carry on..,

The principled one can tap into different energetic flows, that lift and carry a person when they put themselves in the stream of universal good. 

What is the stream of universal good?

It is that flow of constant, natural healing – replenishment, growth, harmony. It is the wellspring of all wellbeing. 

And how do I get in it?

By standing next to your principles, with the courage of your convictions. Who would the doctor (healer) treat first: the wealthiest, or the one most in need of treatment? 

The one most in need of treatment.

And so it is with your skills. They must be deployed where the need is greatest. Where the impact can be felt for the benefit of those in need. 

My skills.

Your skills. 

I’m no neurosurgeon.

The neurosurgeons go where neurosurgery is needed. You are not asked to go to the neurosurgery ward. You are asked to go to the theatre of your own operations. Go to where there is need, and keep offering. Explain what you do, and keep offering. Forget about cost or profit, and keep offering. When you are doing what you are needed for, what will happen? 

The money will come from elsewhere.

Exactly. And how do you know? 

From experience.

Mediators Sans Frontiers.

Explain what you offer, and keep offering. Passim. 

And upon what principles precisely?

What principles are you moved by?

Peace, unity, light and love.

Boom. 

It needs some ferocity, doesn’t it?

Fierce peace… <3

Keep offering. Only in that way, will you find out where you are needed. Ok? 

And money?

Those that have, can pay; those that don’t, offer you the bounty of serving them.

It all balances out.

Keep offering. 

Start offering..!

Start offering and keep offering. To participate in the world at this time is a momentous blessing. Do not let pragmatism put you off from pouring your whole self into the stream of universal good. Really. Throw your clothes off and jump in naked! The waters are good! Enter, participate, swim, bask, bathe… 

I like that ‘offering’ feels so much open than… selling? I don’t know, I’ve been worried about knock-backs, or misjudged marketing, or somehow constantly looking like a douche-bag when I put my work out there.

Offer with precision. Where is your one single product, with it’s price point, and inclusion-friendly discounts? Make it EASY for people to access your skills. That is all. Simplify your prospect’s journey – whether they are a CEO or a parent. And then, keep offering to help. From your heart. With prayer upon your lips. For to swim in the stream of universal good is a gift from Source. So acknowledge that, and jump in. 

Keep offering, with precision (From pragmatism to principle)

 

 

 

 

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What would you have me know today?

What would you like to discuss? 

Hm. I would like to discuss ‘moving into mission’. What does it take to organise one’s life so that we are in full mission flow? It feels like we are all seeing that a ‘life of purpose’ is a gift. This time of stillness/chaos makes that clear. Some of us are sitting at home wondering about our daily walk routes, while others are pouring their exhausted bodies into uniform again to go out and support our bewildered society.

You want to join the masses who are serving? 

Well, of course I do. And yet… I don’t even see myself signing up as an NHS volunteer. (For my health reasons.)

Then what would you like to be doing? 

I would like to be doing my work in this world.

Go ahead, dear friend!

Um… Everyone’s a little distracted with other things at the moment.

Keep offering. Keep offering. Keep offering what you’ve got. That is the absolute bedrock of mission service. Can you see that? Can you see that those who serve do so whether they are lauded or not? They keep offering come what may? They can’t stop themselves! And they will give under all conditions, but in their own way… because their own way is their mission. They are not slaves of an external system. They are acting according to their own calling. They may work hard within a system, but the system serves them by providing a channel for their mission. Beautiful isn’t’ it? 

Like a nurse, or a priest, or a teacher – they serve out their calling within a system. But also, if it’s not fitting right with their mission, they can becomes slaves to that system. It is about them keeping an eye on that, maybe?

Or an artist might have no external system instructing her to check in or out for work, but she gets up at the crack of dawn nonetheless, to serve out her mission.

Yes. I love it. Tell me more about this notion of ‘keep offering’. I find myself recoiling if my offers are not warmly received. Recoiling. How can I give that up?

“When you feel yourself lacking something, send your thoughts towards your Intimate and search for the Divinity that lives within you.”

Ha! I meant to ‘command bold’, but commanded ‘paste’ instead. This is a quote from Aristotle which I copied an hour ago! It’s so appropriate. Tell me more…

The Divine in you never recoils. It is the Human in you – which has a (powerful, valuable) ego, and experiences fear and shame – which recoils. So Aristotle is saying, sit still a while, and ask your Divine self. 

I guess that’s what these Dialogues are about.

Indeed. Exactly so. So, in terms of ‘recoiling’ from offering what you have to offer… What message do you hear? Get really quiet for a moment. 

I’m hearing… the recoiling is a sign that it’s … the good stuff.

Aha. So, the recoiling away is the sign to extend towards! 

But… it feels SO uncomfortable.

To the human in you, it most certainly does! That’s the bifurcation speaking. There’s one way through the bifurcation of the human and the divine self, isn’t there?

Aarrgh…

And, consider what lives on the other side of bifurcation. 

I bet there’s less depression. All your shames busted into the light… That’d give the mind some distraction!

More than that, there is freedom to be oneself, freedom to create, freedom to express oneself. Offer up, not to negotiate or to haggle, but for the freedom on the other side of Doing Your Thing 100%. Who are you? Ask yourself that. 

Do I have to say?

No! It’s a larger question than one for this morning. First of all. Look at others, for Who They Are. Ask, what is x or y or z in their divine form? Not their human form, which is defined by profession, income, title, CV, house size, personality traits. Consider your father. What is he? 

The Philosopher.

Boom! And your mother? 

The Mirror! [She was a photographer.]

Superb. And your sister? 

The &&&&&&&&& [Unredacted version is in my files]

Beautiful! And your brother? 

I’m hearing: The &&&&&&&&&. I don’t get it. I think it’s because he is sensitive to such delicate subtleties.

Exactly!  And your Eldest Girl? 

The &&&&&&&&&

Spot on! And your Youngest Girl? 

The &&&&&&&&&

And you? 

The … Healer. :-/

There we go!

Why does that sink my heart so? Why is it like hearing I’ve got my skirt stuck in my knickers?

Denial, resistance, fear from past lives. 

That I can understand. I reckon there was some very funky business in the past for me, around healing others.

Hugely difficult experiences, if you don’t mind our saying. Hugely challenging, and difficult. 

Oh. Hence the recoiling… so maybe I (like many others) have a calling towards healing, and simultaneously an inbuilt recoil response, because of what healing meant before. (ie threat, retribution, punishment)

We don’t want to underline things too much, but if we had a red pen, we would underline this three times. 

🙂 In the ‘Starseed’ series of books, it says there are only two roles in this era: healer and teacher. I get what it was saying, and I wanted to identify with one… I automatically discounted healer, but then, neither am I naturally a teacher. This topic still makes my stomach turn.

So, tell us about ‘healing’. 

Well, how about we would start with ‘healer heal thyself’?

Why the heaviness? 

You tell me. The old stuff arising. How can I feel safe? I don’t. I feel perplexed. And very reluctant for anyone to read this. I feel compromised and afraid. So, you tell me.

You are invited to remove the ‘mystery’ from the notion of healing. You are invited to normalise it. Think about how often you receive healing from others: the kind word from a stranger; the out-reached hand from a loved one; the gentle message from a friend; the helpful information read online… This is all healing. Normalise it. Normalise it in this time. Healing is not ‘special’, or ‘magical’! It really is not. Look at the doctors and nurses and care workers. They are not magicians. They are just people, patiently offering up their services and knowledge, to other people who, for that moment, need to be able to lean on the strength of another. Healing, both physical and spiritual, is the most natural thing in creation. It is part of the purpose of creation. For the disparate to become one. For the fallen to rise – in whatever format. Through healing, Source knows itself to be. 

Today, think about healing. Take out the egoic concern of “Am I a healer?!” and consider that all are healers, of self and of other. All. That’s a bit of positive input you can add to your world today – the vision of every person being a self-healer and a healer. That is a valuable use of your mental energy today, if you can keep it soft and natural. (No pendulums!) Think about healing. Mull it over. Ask yourself: who heals and how? And see that healing is the natural state. 

I was wondering yesterday, ‘How many nascent illnesses will have been averted simply by people being forced to stop and rest at this time?’

The body is geared towards what people are now calling ‘radical remission’. This is a very natural process. Hold consciousness of this today. Not to ‘stop’ what you perceive to be happening in hospitals, but to help stimulate the timeline in which healing – in whatever form –  is as natural as a walk in the woods. 

See that ‘healing’ is the natural state

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Later:

‘In whatever form’… that means that a person may not heal physically/physiologically but they may have healed in some other form… right?

Right. There is so judgement of healed or unhealed. Everything is eternally healing in the form it requires to take. Life cannot not heal. 

But death…

Death is a step taken into a new paradigm. 

 

 

 

 

What can I say? There’s nothing like invoking ‘Happiness’ and ‘Softness’ to trigger in me the lamentations of the ages. Sobs, and bafflements, and pains have been flowing through me. I can barely look at the world out there. I can hardly look at the world in here.

A purging time, isn’t it, dear friend?

It really is. Yesterday at least 950 people died with Covid19 in the UK. We overtook Italy and Spain in highest daily death toll. These screen shots of Guardian and BBC front pages today don’t do the situation justice…

This is a world of so much pain. We had been accustomed to it. But sit still in your house, with no distractions, and no busy-ness – and the tenderness of being alive at this time sweeps over you in palpating waves. I’m glad to be awake to it. I’m grateful for it. But, really, I feel the need to know that this is actually part of the shift of all ages…

And it is. 

How do you know?

What happened yesterday? For you? 

AV and I went to Bath for the first time since Lockdown began, to go shopping in Waitrose… so we could see LV, my daughter and AV’s sister…whom we haven’t seen since Lockdown began.  We did not take this lightly as we have been extremely diligent about social distancing, and consider doing so highly importantly. We coordinated timings. You’re only meant to have one person per household go in, so (and forgive us if this was wrong) AV and I split the shopping list, and queued for entry separately. LV was shopping inside. When I saw her – talking at a safe 2m from AV by the vegetables – I burst in to tears. To see both my girls together. To see my little girl in person for the first time in so long. My heart nearly burst.

Your heart nearly burst. 

It did.

You have stumbled upon the key aspect of this momentous time. Everyone’s hearts are fit to burst. The empathy, compassion and tenderness arising in the collective consciousness is like at no other time. Not even during the war, when there was a sense of the ‘enemy’. Now, there is no enemy. Just circumstance. 

We (some) would make our governments to be the ‘enemy’, and seek to hold them account for their slowness in responding to a situation they could have acted upon earlier…

Errors, errors, errors. Humans make errors.

But ‘herd immunity’?! Didn’t they plan just to let the vulnerable take the hit?!

Underestimating the value of human life is a human error. 

Assuming an economy has more value than a human life is a human error. 

Hoping a situation will go away because the actual data tells you it will, is a human error.

I’m torn because on the one hand I want to turn rebuttals on this – it’s too easy for our ‘leaders’ to shrug their shoulders and deny/purport “error”; or for us to excuse them by saying ‘They’re human too!’. On the other hand, I am conscious of my human errors. Substantial human errors. I’ve had cause to think this week about how unmerciful we are towrds each other’s errors on this planet. We make people live with their errors for a life time. We are so unforgiving.

I worked this week with someone who has experienced acute suicidality for some ten years. I discovered (by my own googling) that he was once a high-profile person and in the course of his important work, he made a error of professional judgment. This error was publicised by the media and by his profession. Ten years ago. Here is this person, ten years on, still living to make amends for that error, on the edge of life and death… when the condemning journalists would barely be able even to remember his name. Would the person affected by his error really want him to be experiencing suicidal thinking ten years later?

Anyway, what has this all to do with shifting?

The route to the shift is forgiveness, of self and of other. 

Like JC who came to forgive us our sins. (It’s Easter Saturday today.)

Mercy is no lofty ideal. It is intrinsic to making this planet coherent.

For a person to be merciful – to forgive – to transmute hate and blame into compassion and love – what must occur first? 

The heart must open… We must become open-hearted. And that’s what is happening now? That’s what Covid19 is doing to us? Making us open-hearted?

You say ‘open-hearted’. We say ‘heart-centred’. 

Beautiful. Yes. I dig that. Tell me more about ‘heart-centred’.

The Heart-Centred paradigm is the Next Big Thing. 

Aha? In what way?

#BeKind is a ripple in this new ocean. 

It arose out of loss. (The suicide of Caroline Flack.)

It arose out of loss. 

Is that the only way we can learn how to love, by losing what we take for granted? Health, friends, loved ones, cultural icons…

It is not so much that you take these things  ‘for granted’ but that you assume they are permanent fixtures in your life. Life is about impermanence. The only way to tolerate impermanence (without toppling over with grief or frustration or anxiety) is… by finding one’s heart centre. 

Tell me about my heart centre.

Physiologically it is in your chest. Etherically it is at the higher frequencies. Energetically, it is just in front of your sternum. 

And how do I become more heart-centred?

You are invited to turn up the frequencies in your heart centre so that they hum. 

Excuse me? So I can understand?

Consider impermanence. That will make your heart hum. It will make your heart hum if you consider not the loss in impermanence, but the value in ‘what is’ when all is impermanent. See the freshness of what is, anew. As Goethe said. 

Ah yes… Let me find that twitter screenshot I took earlier…

The whole screenshot sums up this current situation in so many ways:

“LIVE EACH DAY AS IF YOUR LIFE HAD JUST BEGUN.” Goethe

This is about awe, wonder, marvel. That is the heart-centred state.

Like a baby…

The innocence of the baby, and the receptivity of the baby. The freshness of its sight. 

I see. And for today…?

Value what is, right here, right now. Endeavour to see it for what it is. A marvel. This will lift your heart, and make it hum. Marvel at what you see. 

Marvel at what you see. 

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I did marvel at what I saw – in fact we (G&I) even got out binoculars. I marvelled at:

• A Great Tit resting in the dust
• Buzzards on the upward breezes
• Dappled sunlight on bluebells
• The beauty of my beloved G.
• The nobility of my beautiful A.
• Pictures of my precious nieces

Hm… everything I marvelled at was living. Living things are marvellous. Maybe in part, because they are – oh my heart – impermanent. 

No strain; flow downhill; take the route of no resistance. This is a good pivot point to counterbalance the jazzhands, the effortations and the pushpushpushing uphill.

Yesterday, I believe I finally got a sense of what Abraham means by the notion of ‘point of attraction’. It links to what you said yesterday about our ‘frequency profile’. This is how I am seeing it: if someone were to take a snapshot of me in any moment, what… archetype… would they see me displaying? Here, by ‘archetype’ I mean, person with a set of characteristics, traits, energetic frequencies and vibrational set-points.

The idea is that, you get more of what you do, think or feel. Right? So your ‘point of attraction’ in any one moment makes up the general magnetism you are offering. So, it’s important to flow into the archetype (point of attraction) you are seeking to have more of.

If your general point of attraction (POA) is out of alignment with your vision for yourself (or your inner being’s POA), disappointment may follow. Examples:

• a person might have a goal to help others, but if you took readings (snapshots) of their point of attraction, 9 times out of 10 they would be scowling and complaining about others’ behaviour. So, they ‘create’ more scowlable circumstances, and don’t flow into the place where they find themselves being asked for their help.
• a person wants success in their business, but if you took readings (snapshots) of their point of attraction, 9 times out of 10 they would be acting as if their business were a disaster. Yet they can’t understand why it doesn’t get better when they are adding so much effort (aka resistance) to solving the ‘problem’.
• a person wants their children to bring them pride and pleasure, but if you took readings (snapshots) of their point of attraction, 9 times out of 10 they are frowning and tutting about their children’s behaviour. And so, their children behaviour mirrors the parent’s POA and spirals downwards.

Tell me more about this.

We discussed ‘acting as if’ before. It’s your doorway through. And you developed this skill powerfully as a child. But, often you turned your vivid acting attention to darker emotions. It made you a great lead in your tragedy and tragi-comedy shows! Now you are invited to play the lead role in the happy show. 

I can do that! I really can! This quarantine time… Oh man. It’s giving me so much to be grateful for: a renewed awareness of the stillness available to us, the dazzling beauty of nature, the extraordinary fragility of life, the good-heartedness of people, the power of community spirit, the miracle of the internet, the kindness of strangers, the bounty of our food supplies, the refuge of a loving home, and the astonishing preciousness of our loved ones.

Yesterday, G, A and I sat out in the evening sunshine talking all things philosophy, went in for home-cooked food, and then whiled away the evening singing karaoke. I can’t tell you how blessed I feel by some of the moments I am sharing with my Girl (the Younger). Deep conversations. Time to connect and walk together in nature.

Turn off all the extra channels, and you find that the original channel was all you needed.

So, The Happy Show. I’ll flow with that. What’s the set up? It’s not, ehem, like the Truman Show..?

Well, dear friend, it’s not so very far off The Truman Show… You talked about taking snapshots of your state in any one moment, to get a sense of the Point of Attraction you were set to. You could say that your own cameras are on you the whole time. You are constantly transmitting a state to the ‘cameras’. What is that state? What is your state like when you ‘zone’ out and ‘forget yourself’… What’s your Resting State Face?

Hahaha! I’ve caught sight of it… Ok, first of all: it varies, ok?! Secondly: sometimes, it can be a little on the old glum side, I admit. A little hardened. Other times, I am jolly and peaceful and relaxed and soft…

There’s no judgement here. Just the invitation to grow that ability to ‘remember’ yourself, and also to organise your life to prompt that Resting Soft Face on a regular basis. 

‘Prompt that Resting Soft Face’… Interesting. When you have a baby around, or a pet you adore, you are constantly being triggered into that soft, oxytocin, towards state. How else can I organise my life to prompt Resting Soft Face?

You already are doing that. For example, your gift to self of a routine is taking some of the strain out of your days. 

That’s true. And photos in my environment prompt good feelings in me. And the flowers and trees around me. And tidy spaces…

Tell me more about The Happy Show. Is it like The Good Place?

In The Happy Show, there is a motto:

‘Nothing Matters… More Than To Love.’

That motto guides decisions, states, moods, environments. It serves to take the strain off life – because love is never strained. 

And so what does it mean to be a character in The Happy Show?

The characters hold their Point of Attraction in the frequency of happiness, using the Love priority to release all other pulls-and pushes-out-of-happiness. 

Can they not feel sadness, then?! Aren’t our emotions messengers we can learn from?

Most certainly they can feel sadness! But they interpret the messages of the sadness quickly, and act upon them. And hence are returned to happiness. By happiness we simply mean: flowing downhill in alignment with the inner being’s desire, which is, simply, largely, mainly… to love in innumerable ways. 

Like Source.

Exactly. Like Source. 

Source doesn’t grumble, complain, strain, effort…

Only via humans’ freewill choices. 

Ok. So today…

Play the lead role in The Happy Show. Check your point of attraction across the day. Reorganise your life, in this blessed Easter break, within this momentous epoch of global patience, to prompt moments of downhill flow and ease, for this is the frequency profile of your happiness. 

The times of withholding happiness are done. All the shames, the angers, the grudges, the disappointments, the unworthinesses. Let them be cleared out in this time. Understand that divine mercy starts with our view of ourselves and reaches outwards from there. Know that to love, to forgive, to cherish yourself is the starting point for all healing, inside outwards. So play this game. Act as if. Act as if… all were forgiven, all were healed, all were in its perfect state. This is your heaven on earth game, and it is more powerful than you know. If everyone went about ‘acting as if’ this were indeed heaven on earth for but 30 seconds, this planet would shift instantly. But here’s the thing. This period of ‘Shut Down’ is not dissimilar to such a scenario. Everyone is considering themselves, their neighbours, the nations and their global family anew. And as a result, the collective point of attraction is changing. 

Will it rest ultimately on ‘love’ or on ‘fear’?

The determination of your world starts with you – can only start and end with you. Where does your consciousness lie? Developing awareness of your personal Point of Attraction is your greatest gift to the collective consciousness. Start there, dear friend. Start with you and your Resting Soft Face.

Play the lead in The Happy Show (#RestingSoftFace)

 

ZEN MIND: The mind which is always on your side is not just your mind, it is universal mind, always the same, not different from another’s mind. It is Zen mind. It is big, big mind. … Big mind is always with us. That is why I repeat the same thing over and over when I think you do not understand. Zen is not just for the man who can fold his legs or who has great spiritual ability. Everyone has Buddha nature. We each must find some way to realize our true nature. The purpose of practice is to have direct experience of the Buddha nature which everyone has. Whatever you do should be the direct experience of Buddha nature. Buddha nature means to be aware of Buddha nature. Your effort should extend to saving all sentient beings. Zen Mind Epilogue p138/7

Big Mind – Zen Mind – Universal Mind … is always with us. And our practice is to access it, to still the noisy ‘I’ mind long enough to be able to bask even briefly in the pure, perfect illumination of this cosmic mind.

This book, Zen Mind Beginner’s Mind by Shunryu Suzuki, has been a beautiful accompaniment into the storm of the coronavirus pandemic. I am so grateful. It has allowed me, for seconds at a time, to put myself in the perfectly calm eye of this storm, where all is still, aligned and… perfect. This book has brought me back to a better form of mindfulness practice. It has simplified my practice to a seated breathing meditation, with neither bells nor whistles. I feel myself learning to appreciate stillness, rather than fill it with stimulation. And this is bringing me back, softly, gently, to my original nature.

The Zen state is your Aspie Zen Zone? That was your original mission. To discover your Aspie Zen Zone. 

Well, my goodness, I’ve been in quarantine for a full month now. Talk about Aspie Zen Zone! All I can say is that, within this peace, much is arising for clearing. Ho hum…

Go inwards. Dear friend. Accept your zazen gift. 

***ZazenMeditation***

As you prayerfully access this universal mind, you align yourself more effectively with the infinite intelligence reaching out to inform us all. It is within your reach, at all times. To the degree that you can relax and remove ‘strain’ from your frequency profile, you will be able to access the knowing of all ages. Does that please you? 

Hugely. If doing so can make me more useful.

The invitation is to centre yourself within your own sphere. It can be so tempting to drift into another’s sphere and attain fresh energy there. 

Basically, jumping on someone else’s pendulums… The eternal seduction.

The opportunity available to all is, if you will, to discover you are all suddenly solar-powered electric vehicles now. As long as you expose yourself to the light, you are entirely self-sufficient. There is no longer a need to plunder the dark depths and suck out toxic substances to fuel yourself. The light shall fuel you entirely. 

And this exposing ourselves to the light. What does that look like and mean?

Light is simply light, from the sun. It is also the light of love, of wisdom, of truth, of heightened consciousness. It is the qi field, the energy field, the quantum field. As Lorie said, ‘turn on your quantum radio.’ You are the receiver, but you have to turn the switch on. As Abraham said, get in the receptive mode. 

Imagine you had an electric car, powered with electricity from the grid. You plugged your car in overnight – without actually turning on the switch at the socket. You wouldn’t get so far the next day. 

So what’s the actual ‘plugging in’ and the actual ‘switching on’ – for us?

The ‘plugging in’ is simple: it’s turning in the direction of the destination. Imagine your car at the top of the hill. 

The ‘switching on’ is fractionally more complex: it’s allowing the energy to flow. It’s the car shifting off it’s starting spot at the top of the hill. 

Hey, we don’t want to crash into the destination at the bottom of the hill, do we?

Quite right. And that is what stops you leaving the safety of the hill top. What you don’t know is that car is self-regulating. It won’t run away with itself. 

So:

1. Plug in: know your destination and turn in the right direction.
2. Switch on: allow the journey to start…

Almost. 

1. Plug in: Know your destination and turn to face the right direction.
2. Switch on: Follow the path (route) of least resistance – the downhill glide.

In other words: your destination is always down the hill. It is never up the hill. If you feel you are straining, you are going the wrong way. Turn round and do down hill. 

Ah, like ‘flow downstream’. ‘Everything you want is downstream.’ I like this car analogy.

We want you to think about your energy levels. You are often complaining – yes, complaining – about your low energy levels, about low battery, about running on empty. We want you to know that it is because you have been driving uphill. That is noble, good and worthy. But, if you want to get to where you want to get to – and you do, otherwise you wouldn’t keep driving on and on and on – then turn round. Turn. Round. 

Pivot!

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And go down hill. 

If it feels like a strain, you’re going AWAY from your destination. Pivot. 

If you need first gear to get/keep moving, you’re going AWAY from your destination. Pivot. 

Turn round and go downhill. Whenever you feel you are straining. 

You know your destination. You just don’t dare say it aloud, even to yourself. 

You’ll feel a heck of a lot better – and more energised – when you own your destination. And pivot towards it. 

You read it hear first. 😉

When you say, ‘own’ my destination?

Own it. Admit it. Articulate it. Shake it around and get used to it. ‘Undress’ it in public without cringing at the nakedness of it. Expose it. Accustom yourself to your truth and get on with your life, in truth. 

Man… Ok. Let me work with this.

You literally have all day.

With love. With love. With love. 

Ty. <3

Own your downhill destination

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